Kind of interesting. I had never thought about things quite the way this person described a recent experience (I paraphrase from memory):
"Hey, Mik [that was my nickname back then]! You might find this one interesting. I just couldn't keep up the pretense, and I wasn't thinking and I said something I shouldn't have. Then I realized I'd blown it, and 'Damn!' -- *this* is what coming out of the closed feels like, Oh God!"
I had not thought this pro-gun anti-wimp person was gay, but I figured anything is possible in our sublunary realm.... My old friend continued:
"It was a deadline day at work, and at 4 o'clock my manager gives me this thing to do that I know I can't do right at this time of a long day. So I blew it and told him I couldn't do it right right then. I said I could kludge something up for him that he could put into the deadline and then the testers would find the bugs and we could fix them. I said I'd be glad to come in the next morning [Saturday] to work on it. I just kept digging myself in deeper and deeper. He just froze me out: He was too busy to talk to me.
"I managed to get through Saturday and this [Sunday] morning by focussing intensely on doing one productive thing or another, but I just wanted to get depressed I'm so afraid. Now I think I know how gays feel when they come out of the closet. Yeah. You just don't act like you're not busting your ass to get everything in for the deadline even if it's just likely going to screw up, and you always try to get all your work done ahead of the deadline to avoid precisely this kind of pressure.
"I think 'Don't ask, don't tell' is about the best you can hope for. And I should have just put my head down and did what I could (you know me -- I did that anyway...), and then after an hour or so, I could have pleaded exhaustion (I'm still not over my bronchitis, anyway...). You know, Mik, I'm not good at 'politics': I need a Secretary of State to run interference for me.... I'm not looking forward to Monday. Yeah, Mik: 'Don't ask, don't tell.'...."
I haven't heard any more from my old friend yet about how his Monday went, but he's a good person and I wish him very much the best!
"Yours in discourse...."
\brad mccormick
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Let your light so shine before men,
that they may see your good works.... (Matt 5:16)Prove all things; hold fast that which is good. (1 Thes 5:21)
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