Style Speak for Goa Today -  by Wendell Rodricks

Summer's Lament

The air crackles with heat.  On the wind rides sounds of the flutter of 
small birds, tiny insects, a faraway peacock and a wild boar crashing in 
the bushes.  Under the shade of a fragrant colour laden cashew tree, I 
spread a bedsheet and begin to read Disgrace by Nobel laureate, South 
African, Coetzee.  It is a book that moves my heart.  Between munches of 
warm roasted gram purchased at the Friday Mapuca bazaar and sips of chilled 
urak from the hills near Salem, I reach out and touch the dry brittle 
grass.  On this hillock are kanta bushes and jambool trees.  Secrets from 
childhood.  Trees that I climbed as a child in Camurlim (Bardez).  Beyond 
the slope are the sleepy villages of Camurlim and Chicalim with the river 
like a brilliant aluminium snake.

Paradise ?  Only if you wear blinkers !  Turn your head around.  A power 
plant with it's antennae invades the sky like locusts.  To the left, a new 
Government housing scheme is tearing the earth.  Flattening it.  Buildings 
for strangers speaking strange tongues.  The air on the hills these days 
carry a babble of voices I cannot understand.  Where is my beloved Konkani 
that once was the only music I heard on these hills ?  And why are they 
cutting the hill with large machines and blasts ?  Everywhere we drive 
concrete and steel into the earth.  Like crucifixion nails.

I hold in my fingers a fistful of earth.  This wonderful red dust.  Full of 
minerals, that will come to life when the first rains hit next month.  In 
this fist lie a multitude of lives.  Seeds that will grow into bushes and 
grass.  Provide homes for the birds, animals and reptiles.  They have moved 
to this hill en masse two years ago.  The mongoose and the fox.  The 
monitor lizard and the quail families.  They took away their land.  You see 
the power plant and the Binani factory ?  That was their land.  They were 
moved without permission. One day bulldozers arrived, flattened the land, 
and burnt their eggs in the bushes.  Gone.  In one month.  The cattle that 
once grazed on this plateau now have their bellies swollen with plastic 
garbage and toxic white fiberglass powder thrown over the Binani factory 
walls.  I begin to weep.

Look at this land.  This tired earth.  This earth we played on, sang love 
songs to.  Giver of rice.  Provider of our laterite homes.  Reservoir of 
rich mineral water springs.  Mother of our culture and destinies.

What have we done to our beloved Goa ?  We left her.  To travel for 
jobs.  Left our homes, rich with laughter; now caved in and overgrown with 
thorn.  These home that foreigners and other Indians are snapping 
up.  There one day.  Gone the next............for a few lakhs.  We sold 
them.   Sold our souls.  In lands as distant as Australian and America; in 
nearby Mumbai and Bangalore, Goans live in apartments of less 
grandeur.  Turned our backs on Goa.  We don't do up our Goan homes "due to 
disputes".  Stop these disputes please.  Restore these monuments of 
love.  At least for the memory of our grandparents who put their lives, 
blood, gold and sweat into this earth.  We inherited paradise.  We cannot 
now consign it to hell.

It is depressing what we have done.  I.  You.  We all.  We let the fields 
rot.  Did not repair the bundhs.  Sold our homes.  Did not protest when our 
communidade lands became industrial complexes.  We let companies like 
Nestle, Coke and Pepsi paint our entire walls and houses.  Should some 
young Goan advocate not sue them for millions ?  For defacing mansions of 
cultural value ??  We sat and did nothing as corrupt politicians swarmed in 
like vultures.  We voted them in.  Blame ourselves.  Let us accept our 
faults with facts and face the future.

The future?  How can we respect our rural village lives in a better manner 
? Provide basic education, higher education, medical facilities, employment 
and care for senior citizens and infants.  Which politicians can we trust 
to avoid rampant constructions, provide water and electricity, a crime free 
Goa, respect for the Khazan lands ?  Someone to check the pollution of air, 
land and water ??

We placed our trust in Parrikar.  He messed it up with communal divide, 
dictatorial attitude and an ego that grew beyond the size of the state.  Do 
we now trust Digamber Kamat ? He seems among the best.  But then, will he 
also let us down ?

Goa has been let down on all sides.  Birds that flew so freely have flown 
away.  Plants that are possibly facing extinction have been bulldozed 
away.  We don't hear the frogs any more.  Public mango trees are riddled 
with parasite (benurli) plants.  We pass these brave trees that bear fruit 
despite the odds.  Can't we put our hands in our pockets out of love for 
our villages even if our Panchayats do nothing.  On virgin hills everywhere 
are hutment's with migrant labourers who are not cared for.  Their children 
look at me and my four dogs with bewilderment.  They should be in 
school.  Not here on the open hills watching a grown man cry.

I walk to the jambool tree of my youth.  It has been cut for firewood.  So 
I collect the dry seeds to replant in my garden.  Hopefully they take root 
and grow.  But my garden is the wrong place to sow memories.

All ye Goans, my brethren, come back to Goa.  Do not sell your lands and 
houses.  With the way prices are soaring, our Goan children will not be 
able to afford our own land.  Please do up these houses.  Do not expect us 
Goans living in Goa to hold up this vanishing culture.  We need to 
unite.  To hold onto this land that we cherish.  If the government does 
nothing, we should do things on our own.  For the sake of the 
land.  Especially the wealthy.  Go on.  Do your bit for Goa and stop being 
selfish.  There are few communities in the world that love their lands as 
much as Goans do.  Why, oh why, then are we being so uncaring.  Why are we 
watching Goa disappear ?

In the mornings, I walk in the Colvale early mist.  Through the haze I see 
glimpses of my old Goa.  It's still there..............lurking in the 
mist.  We need to save it, before it all disappears.

It's time to wake up from a nightmare called reality !!!

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The column above appeared in the May 2005 issue of Goa Today magazine

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