LOVE LOST? CLAUDIA, A NOVEL SET IN GOA IN THE 1960s Sophia Lorena Benjamin (soph...@gmail.com) recently wrote her debut novel 'Claudia'. It is set in Goa during the 1960s. The news of the intensified resistance by the Indian Government to liberate Goa from Portuguese rule has caused sudden distress, turmoil and conflict in Claudia's life. When she had her first encounter with Damiano, the attractive son of her Portuguese master, she never imagined their meetings would grow so intimate. Claudia is a young Goan village girl. Clever. Charming. Ambitious. With two older sisters, unmarried because their reputation is spoiled by insensible premarital affairs, Claudia is the family's only hope whose arranged marriage could restore honour and lost respect within their conservative community. Amidst advancing armed forces, blasting bridges, a bombarded Dabolim airport, departing Portuguese families, and chaos, Claudia needs to consider the offer made by her Portuguese lover, Damiano to escape to Portugal as a servant girl where their covert affair can continue. Much relies on Claudia's choice: the call is urgent and decisive. Will Claudia abandon her family's honour and choose forbidden love? Will she proceed with an arranged marriage to Ferrao, the rich sailor from her local community and end the social stigma her family has endured? Claudia, set in a Portuguese-ruled Goa, is an uplifting story of a woman's struggles and the triumph of finding hope will unravel the answers.
Claudia has a secret affair going on with Damiano her Portuguese master's son. Meanwhile, Claudia's grandmother has brought a marriage proposal from a local businessman. The rich man has shown interest to marry Claudia despite knowing Claudia is not from a well to do family and cannot afford any dowry, which is customary in their community. Under these circumstances, Claudia decides to end her affair with her Portuguese lover before anyone finds out. As the dominating thoughts of the freedom to romance and everything that she is going to miss after marriage flood her mind, there is a turn of events that take place when Damiano takes her to a deserted corner of the house to tell her that the Portuguese are expected to leave Goa for good and that they may never see each other again. The secret meeting in the darkroom is supposedly an intimate farewell. A few yards from the family house was a row of huts for the cattle: cows, ox, buffaloes and two giant fighter bulls. Pigs and fowls had separate fenced yards. Workers belonging to a local Kunbi tribe worked all around the property; they were the live-in servants of the Ferrao family. Fresh dung cakes, salt fish and new hay lay drying in the sun. The backyard was full of pig slop, cattle fodder, cows in the huts, pigs in the sty, chickens shitting on the ground; all of it spread a peculiar, pungent odour. It was indeed the smell of abundance and prestige; that's how it was measured in the suburban areas, the village folk called it prosperity. The girl selected to settle in this family would be privileged, thought Claudia in her mind, the lavish abundance of the Ferraos overwhelming her greatly. This was what Father had dreamt for the three girls; Jakin, Bula and Claudia. The dream had failed him while he was alive; if ever there was an opportunity it could be revived it was now, Claudia was having this conversation in her mind. On the way home, Gormai told Claudia that the Ferraos said they liked her, that they were willing to go ahead with the match even without dowry; they told Gormai that the priests and elders of Oroshim had given a good reference about Claudia. The news brought a strange thrill to her heart. Later that evening; sitting in front of the fire, while heating up water to bathe, Claudia was lost in thought of all the happenings of the day with the Ferraos. She understood well that this was a precious opportunity, and that she was one among the most fortunate girls around the suburbs. It would be the first time in many years that something good was about to happen for Claudia's family. Gormai told her that the Ferraos needed a little more time to decide if it was going to be a new year wedding or a summer wedding. Claudia gazed at the fields and hills above. She would miss Oroshim so much. If it was going to be a New Year wedding; she would miss celebrating carnival in her village; the humour filled intruz skit, and also the villagers painting each other's faces and watching little boys throwing cocotes. And then, she would have loved to watch Damiano taking part in the village carnival for the first time ever; she smiled at the thought of it, just imagining his white skinned face coated with black coal. Claudia also thought of the fun that went around with the village women. Seaman Mingu visiting Oroshim every year during carnival, when the village women looked forward to the carnival fun with Mingu. They ran around squeaking and laughing in the backyards, dodging around bushes, when Mingu chased them all, one by one, and coated black coal over their cheeks, caressing their faces with his blackened, rough hands. What else would Claudia miss in the village? Maybe the summer blossoming of the cashew trees, kokum trees and the blackcurrants on the hills. Also, the sea bathers that flocked Oroshim each year during the summer for their yearly health bath; men and women, taking shelter by the Oroshim beach for three days, cooking and sleeping under the open sky. The beachside dwelling summer visitors were friendly, humble and thankful; they narrated the stories of how their bodies developed immunity by immersing in seawater every year. Claudia liked spending time listening to the stories of these strangers, as she offered to bring them well water, local salt and some wood for their fire to cook food. Through all the wisdom as well as the silliness that existed, she loved Oroshim, very much. Although it had stringent rules, yet if one followed those rules, the village elders as well as other folk eagerly came forward to bestow their love. They contributed generously during weddings. They took time to assist a sick neighbour. They were always happy when anything good happened to someone within the community. They had a way of altering names, more out of love, than convenience. Someone extremely tall was fondly called Lamttu. Francis was called Forsu. Lourenco was called Lorshu. Philomen became Philu. Caetano Caitu. Magdalena was called Magdu, and Martalian, Martu. Their neighbour Anton was called Bullock Cart Anton because he owned a bullock cart. Araujo's family was referred to as Pershiakar because their grandfather once worked in the Persian Gulf. Vincent was called Motorkar since his father had once owned a motor car. Uncle Jose's family was called Lotterikar because their ancestors once won a lottery. D'Silva was called Kalsaonkar because he wore kalsao, trousers, when most others wore a loincloth. As the thoughts flooded her mind, Claudia sighed at the thought of the possibility of leaving Oroshim. The fields, the hills and the mud paths of Oroshim had witnessed her maturing from a child to a young woman. All of her learning had come from Oroshim, mostly from accompanying Gormai -- hillocks, wedding homes, child deliveries, vespers at church, crib visiting during Christmas, working at fields -- Claudia was always there with Gormai. In the fields, among the labouring women, Claudia learnt many life's lessons; weeding the grass, adult gossip and jokes, songs with double meaning, taking rain checks, sowing, reaping, hand-crafting palm raincoats, the art of killing water snakes that crawled into the fields. Lessons she would never forget, ever. It was early December. When Claudia and her Mother reached the mansion, she felt it was an unusual day at Paklin Bai's house. It didn't take much time to sense that the guests in her sitting room were not gathered for the normal partying like they did on previous weekends. It was strange also because the usual excitement on Paklin Bai's face was missing. Her loud, free laughter after a few glasses of wine was missing too. Mother was asked to attend to the guests. Arrange glasses for their drinks. Serve them croquettes. Pour tea to those who didn't want to drink hard liquor. Clean up the used cups, saucers and glasses. Mother was occupied, so Claudia began with the kitchen chores; drawing well water, she filled the kitchen pots and moved to fill up the bath area. She didn't expect to bump into Damiano. All the while she had been thinking he was in Daman. Both stood startled at each other's sudden unexpected appearance by the bathroom door, staring into each other's eyes, face to face. She still had the water pot balanced on her left hip. He was wrapped in his towel, just finished his bath. Claudia shifted her eyes from him, overwhelmed with a sudden shyness to find him without his clothes, just the bath towel wrapped around his waist. He appeared a bit stunned too with her sudden appearance right inside the mansion. For a few moments, she just stood there nervously then moved as he signalled her to follow him. She gently lowered the water pot from her hip and looked around cautiously, making sure nobody saw her. She quietly followed him to climb the wooden staircase, unused for long, the stairs opening into a dimly ventilated passage that led into a narrow, windowless room. They called it the dark room. Damiano shut the wooden doors behind them, noiselessly. 'Minha querida!' He called out to her softly and reached out his hand to hold her. 'Bab.' 'We won't be here too long. You must have heard those people in the hall talk about the evacuation; the vessel has already come to take the people,' he said in a hurriedly hushed tone. 'Where are they sending us, Bab?' 'Not you dear. They are planning to send the Portuguese back.' 'Then what will happen to the people who remain here in Goa?' 'If the Indian Government succeeds at this, you will remain here as an Indian.' His words echoed faintly in the dark high-walled room. He clasped her hands and released them from his, circling them instead of around her waist, his touch sending a shiver all over her body. She had missed it for days; that soothing touch from him. His announcement was hard on her. And then he drew her into his arms, gasping, a bit breathless as he threaded his arms beneath her shoulders and hair. 'We may never meet again, minha querida,' he whispered, nuzzling her cheek as she hugged him viciously, wanting to cry. Her nostrils flared nervously at the sudden announcement. She drew closer to him and clung on tightly to his chest as though he was about to be pulled away from her any moment. -- Send your comments to goa...@goanet.org and the author (address above). Available online at http://bit.ly/ClaudiaTheNovel