I have a healing request. I know I've talked about this before, but does anyone have any experience with this sort of thing (psychic attack) and with reiki? I just thought I would share more details to make my request clearer...
The base of my spine was hurting all today. It was not in a pleasant, energy-being-cleaned-out sort of way, but in an energy-being-messed-with sort of way. Now, the links coming off my back, which break and reform, are very obvious to me. I know it feeds off fear. If I have the slightest feeling that might be construed as fear, it immediately gets stronger. I had the feeling that energy was being sucked out of my heart, which made me feel drained. My head felt like I couldn't think, sort of like I was in some kind of stupor. My crown chakra, hands (especially right up to my elbow), neck/spine, heart, and head felt the worst. When I felt it on the top of my head, it just made me feel "lower," like my vibrations are lower. The back of my head is still so... stiff and heavy feeling. There was this blowing sensation on my back, similar to what I felt while receiving the reiki re-attunement on Sunday, except it was a negative feeling. It was in between my shoulder blades. I've heard, according to shamanism, that the soul is supposed to enter and leave the body through your shoulder blades. I wonder if that has any significance... There's a rather forceful feeling that says to me, "you're not going to get better," but I know that I am. Also, it puts feeling in me like I don't want to do anything. This actually encourages me because I know I *will* do something, and that I *am* doing something. I can make this go away. Basically, it's trying to screw up my energy. Oh, and there are these pentagrams that feel like they're etched onto the back of my hands. It's strange though... I feel so positive, naturally. And since I got re-attuned to reiki on Sunday my energy felt a lot better, more positive. I'm kind of sensitive to energy in general. I like the way the energy feels in my home because my roommates are all cheerful people who have really nice energy. But I don't feel very nice when I'm just out and about around town; there's a lot of different energies, some icky and some negative. Yet... the feeling that I'm surrounded by horrible, negative feeling energy, around me, in my room, etc, just through links coming off my back... Ugh. It's like it really... impairs me. The energy manifests pain in my body, and makes me feel mentally, emotionally, and spiritually blocked. I can't even begin to describe what it feels like, how much pain I feel, etc. I thought I would expand this request with more details of my situation, but now I see that it's pretty lacking as far as an explanation. Anyway, I'm gonna go burn some sage, take a sea salt bath, and then practice reiki..
