I got a call that the old man who sold me most of my horses and gave me Gallant Boy, told someone he would really love to see me, that his wife was in the hospital and not doing very well and he was really broke up about it. So I drove a hundred miles from work to the hospital, didnt get there til around 8 PM, as soon as I walk into the room oh my, I see things are not good at all. She was just struggling and laboring for every breath, completely unconscious, I was just shocked, and he is sitting there all slumped over, holding her hand. He was just bereft, started crying when he saw me. I hugged him. the son hugged me and whispered "thank goodness you're here! please, can you get him out of here a little while? he's been here all day and won't leave the room and he's just a wreck". So I put my arm around the old man and said come on, come with me, lets go get some coffee and he straggles up and we walk out and I take him into the break room and get him some coffee.
and jeez as soon as we left the room she drew her last breath! I feel so bad about this! I feel like i deprived him of his last minute with his dying wife or something!! he seemed ok about it, i mean after the impact and blow and all when they told him, but jeez i feel like the angel of death or something! The doctor comes, the preacher, the nurses, his daughter, and there I sit and he is in just a state of shock. he would reach and take my hand and say :"this is janice, she's a good friend, she has some a my horses" and I was like oh my god what a nightmare! then the son tells me later when I said how bad I felt, that he felt like she had been hanging on all day and it was like she couldn't let go with him in the room cause the instant he walked out and the door closed she stopped breathing. is that weird or what?!? i had some pics of the horses I had wanted to show her cause she always loved seeing pics of them, and the old man folded them and put them in his pocket... he told me, everyone, said it several times, that he didnt want to go on without her, that he wished he could go with her. I told him he needed to stick around to help us with our horses cause he knew so much. Gosh I didnt know what to say. I just cant stop thinking about this today... Janice -- yipie tie yie yo
