> > I am still thinking what too reply. Main bahut bhao-bivhor ho gaya hoon > :)!!! I would like to forward this message to my boss, Rawat sir too, > because he is very well aware what I have been through and he is one person > who was closest to me during all these phase, and also to Ninad Raut who > knows everything. > I am not sure if thats the right word. But its really too kind of the > members and especially Gurcharan sir to write this. > > I know I had been bad before. When I look back, I was thinking for the > whole night why and what was wrong with me. > > I had been in research field just even after my finished my MSc and its > over 9 years that I spent at WII. I have faced very odd days but by grace > of god my supervisor was Dr. G.S.Rawat who is one of the most wonderful > person on earth. But my struggle for survival in research field had been > very hectic due to many reasons, all of them outside eflora. Dr. Rawat also > used to read mails and he used to calm me down and boost my moral knowing > that I was going through some bad phase of life. I always tried to help > people but in return what I got were some very bad experiences. I lost many > things, both at professional level as well as personal level. At the same > time, I saw very mediocre people getting success for whatever they were > doing. All those reasons made me so much frustrated that I almost lost my > hopes to achieve anything significant in life and then pressure from family > and expectations of my boss and friends..... Those were really some of the > disheartening moments of my life. I always tried to give the best I can but > nothing seemed to have went into my favour. These frustrations started > showing up and I was like READY TO FIGHT guy on minor issues on eflora > mostly with respected Gurcharan sir. It was like I had nothing in my hands > and so I didnt even go home to meet my parents at Ranchi for nearly 6 years. > > But as it is said, things really happen for good. I lost many things and > then what I received through a long round of interviews, question and > answers and presentations, was really better than what I had lost before > and I shifted to Hong Kong. What I am doing here is EXACTLY what I wanted > to do in life, but yes, I never expected to move to HK, rather I was > dreaming that I will go to Kew. Even Dr. Rawat and my boss here Dr. Gunter > knows that Kew is my dream destination. So I was also looking towards > Europe. But yeah, I think I have some mroe days to live so this may not be > my penultimate destination !!! > > I hereby take this opportunity to to apologies for my behaviour with the > members hence at eflora. I am really thankful to my boss, Dr. Rawat and > many members who interacted with me here to boost up my morals, especially > Dinesh sir for calling me every time I was upset, Balkar sir and Gunjan Sud > (they actually asked me for my birthdate and they showed it to some fortune > teller too, which was too considerate of them), Tabish sir and many silent > members like Yazdy sir, Shrikant sir, Mani Sir, Usha Page mam and then some > who had been my very good friends from before and some who became friends > later, Vijayshankar, Ritesh, Navendu, Swapna, Aparna, Neha, Sweta, Amit > Kotia, Ninad, Raju Das, Prasad and many more names. I know people who may > not for eflora posts regularly but they follow any mails sent by me. I may > not be able to recall, but for sure you credits goes to all above 1600 > members on eflora who have helped me in coming to this stage in life. I owe > this all to you. > > I really hope to do some good work and make you all proud. > > Frankly speaking I am really not able to write to express properly what I > mean. This group has been more like a family than just a group. > > Regards > Pankaj > > I am still thinking what too reply. Main bahut bhao-bivhor ho gaya hoon > :)!!! I would like to forward this message to my boss, Rawat sir too, > because he is very well aware what I have been through and he is one person > who was closest to me during all these phase, and also to Ninad Raut who > knows everything. > I am not sure if thats the right word. But its really too kind of the > members and especially Gurcharan sir to write this. > > I know I had been bad before. When I look back, I was thinking for the > whole night why and what was wrong with me. > > I had been in research field just even after my finished my MSc and its > over 9 years that I spent at WII. I have faced very odd days but by grace > of god my supervisor was Dr. G.S.Rawat who is one of the most wonderful > person on earth. But my struggle for survival in research field had been > very hectic due to many reasons, all of them outside eflora. Dr. Rawat also > used to read mails and he used to calm me down and boost my moral knowing > that I was going through some bad phase of life. I always tried to help > people but in return what I got were some very bad experiences. I lost many > things, both at professional level as well as personal level. At the same > time, I saw very mediocre people getting success for whatever they were > doing. All those reasons made me so much frustrated that I almost lost my > hopes to achieve anything significant in life and then pressure from family > and expectations of my boss and friends..... Those were really some of the > disheartening moments of my life. I always tried to give the best I can but > nothing seemed to have went into my favour. These frustrations started > showing up and I was like READY TO FIGHT guy on minor issues on eflora > mostly with respected Gurcharan sir. It was like I had nothing in my hands > and so I didnt even go home to meet my parents at Ranchi for nearly 6 years. > > But as it is said, things really happen for good. I lost many things and > then what I received through a long round of interviews, question and > answers and presentations, was really better than what I had lost before > and I shifted to Hong Kong. What I am doing here is EXACTLY what I wanted > to do in life, but yes, I never expected to move to HK, rather I was > dreaming that I will go to Kew. Even Dr. Rawat and my boss here Dr. Gunter > knows that Kew is my dream destination. So I was also looking towards > Europe. But yeah, I think I have some mroe days to live so this may not be > my penultimate destination !!! > > I hereby take this opportunity to to apologies for my behaviour with the > members hence at eflora. I am really thankful to my boss, Dr. Rawat and > many members who interacted with me here to boost up my morals, especially > Dinesh sir for calling me every time I was upset, Balkar sir and Gunjan Sud > (they actually asked me for my birthdate and they showed it to some fortune > teller too, which was too considerate of them), Tabish sir and many silent > members like Yazdy sir, Shrikant sir, Mani Sir, Usha Page mam and then some > who had been my very good friends from before and some who became friends > later, Vijayshankar, Ritesh, Navendu, Swapna, Aparna, Neha, Sweta, Amit > Kotia, Ninad, Raju Das, Prasad and many more names. I know people who may > not for eflora posts regularly but they follow any mails sent by me. I may > not be able to recall, but for sure you credits goes to all above 1600 > members on eflora who have helped me in coming to this stage in life. I owe > this all to you. > > I really hope to do some good work and make you all proud. > > Frankly speaking I am really not able to write to express properly what I > mean. This group has been more like a family than just a group. > > Regards > Pankaj > -- ********************************************************************** "Taxonomists getting Extinct and Species Data Deficient !!"
Pankaj Kumar, Ph.D. Conservation Officer Office: Orchid Conservation Section Flora Conservation Department Kadoorie Farm and Botanic Garden (KFBG) Corporation Lam Kam Road, Tai Po, New Territories, Hong Kong. Residence: 36C, Ng Tung Chai, Lam Tseun Tai Po, New Territories, Hong Kong. email: [email protected]; [email protected]; [email protected] Phone: +852 2483 7128 (office - 8:30am to 5:00pm); +852 9436 6251 (mobile). Fax: +852 2483 7194
