Michael,
I have been rougher on you than you deserve and I'm very sorry for that.
Yesterday I expected to reread and rethink what you and I had said and
try to sort that out today. Instead of doing that I added to the
misunderstanding between us by losing it over one of your posts to the
list. My reaction toward you today was way overboard. You were not the
appropriate target for the anger and hurt and frustration I was feeling
when I sent that message.
I realized yesterday I'd given you the impression in an earlier message
that I think badly of you and that's never been the case. I've always
seen you as one of the most generous people on the list, one of the most
generous people I've ever known. The New Orleans Jonifest you organized
almost completely on your own, the shrimp, the writing to the list even
when you're overworked and exhausted... all those show your kind and
generous spirit.
So please be patient while I sort some things out and the stress of the
events in NYC lessen a bit, and know for now that even though I've
disagreed with you on a couple of points recently, and will perhaps
still disagree once I've thought things over, I've never thought badly
of you and am truly sorry that I've treated you so harshly.
And to other listmembers too... my message today was certainly not one
of my finest. Please forgive me for assaulting you all in that way.
Debra Shea
