Mark E, Sherelle, Shane, Evian and others who have written - thank you. I
may be too simplistic for some people around here, but this tragedy
transcends politics to me. That doesn't mean that people shouldn't
politicize it if they want to, dissent it if they want to, be a pacifist if
they want to. Politics is not a religion to me and I will never let anyone
coerce me to make it so. I never called for vengence or bloody war and if
my remarks were interpreted that way, I did not mean that. I said how
literally sick I was at the first inkling of military action and how this is
a hellish situation we are in. Other expressed the same concerns that I have
and yet I am the one singled out and attacked. I think I know the reason
and it really scares me. Ironically, I agree in principle with many of the
thoughts expressed by Ric. However, we are being attacked and I am not
suicidal. When it's life or death I don't care about analyzing or blaming.
I am offended by journalists who had to leap to blame at a time when people
were still deeply in shock in this country. They are entitled to do what
they want but I don't find them compassionate and I felt compassion was what
was more important at this time. Just an emotional response, not a
perfectly constructed political one. Everyone I work with is fucked up, the
lawyers, everyone. They are bringing in a psychologist to work next week.
Everyone is having nightmares and is not functioning well at all. We are
getting several official FBI reports each day about warnings of possible
attacks at the movie studios, the oil refineries, the nuclear power plants
and our water supplies in L.A. and California. I've been amazed at all the
national and international authorities who are so quickly now rounding up so
many of the terrorists. They are finding all kinds of plans on them,
including plots for L.A. and airline tickets for L.A.
A friend of mine had plans to go to a gathering in New York before the
tragedy. He refused to change his plans and actually felt compelled to go
there, to just be there. Last night he talked to me on the phone for 2
hours relating what he saw and experienced. It is so horrible I cannot even
describe it. What the people are going through there can never be imagined.
It is unspeakably tragic and horrible. There is a long wall along the street
covered with hundreds, probably thousands of photos of people who are
missing. Their relatives are walking around handing out photo flyers asking
people if they have seen them. I am blown away by the courage of people
like Debra, Patrick, Kay and others to try to relate some of it to us. I
know that there is not much I can do to comfort them, but I hope they know
my heart is breaking for them and I hope they can heal from this.
Kakki
