Jim wrote:
<<When I first subscribed to the JMDL, I jumped in with both feet and posted
a lot. It didn't take long for me to retreat into lurk mode, by choice, but
I've faithfully read every JMDL Digest for about a year and a half now. Why
did I retreat?  The truth is that the high level of interpersonal
communication that exists here on the JMDL makes me uncomfortable, at least
from a participatory standpoint.>>

Thanks for your thoughts, Jim.  I always like hearing from the silent
majority that is the lurker contingent on the JMDL.  I remember your posts
well and have enjoyed them...I'm sorry you felt the need to retreat.
However, I've got to disagree with most of your conclusions regarding the
JMDL.  Lurking's fine, but it doesn't make you Sigmund Freud, B.F. Skinner
or Abraham Maslow.  Email is, by definition, an interpersonal medium.  I
can't fathom what you expected to read when you joined the list, but it
must've become obvious in short order that you weren't going to get it.  To
me, a post from you on why you stayed on the JMDL would be more illuminating
to read than why you retreated to lurkdom.

I've been on this list since it's inception, almost.  I'm here to tell you I
feel like I know almost all there is to know about one Roberta Joan Anderson
Mitchell.  Anyone who wants to think, post and read about Joni Mitchell and
her oeuvre, brilliant as it is, every single day of their lives, is
obsessive, compulsive and probably delusional.  I'm not.

This discussion list is predicated on the life and *times* of Joni, and to
me, that spells the people who appreciate her and *their* lives. How her
music finds expression in their relationships, and vice versa.  You can find
out all the Joni Mitchell facts you want on JoniMitchell.com or jmdl.com,
sonicnet.com or your local library.  The JMDL is not a Joni Mitchell wire
service.  It is not a Joni Mitchell fan club.  News flash!: It IS a social
club, of sorts.  That's not necessarily a bad thing, in view of the
alternatives.

> I think the personality you've allowed the JMDL to develop has its pros
and
> cons, but as a fan of Joni Mitchell's, I think it's mostly cons. I believe
> the "loving, caring community" you strive for sets you up for these
constant
> petty wars.

The JMDL is in a constant state of evolution and has a life of its own, Jim.
I laugh when I think of one, or a group of JMDLers trying to influence the
development of this forum one way or the other, as you're suggesting might
be possible.  Imagine.  Actually, I think the mysterious "inner circle" has
tried to guide with their consciences, but a lot of them have uns.ubscribed
lately, ironically.  At the end of the day, all you can do is kick someone
off to enforce any tenents.  All anyone can do to improve this list is start
with the man or woman in the mirror and try to put their best foot forward
when communicating here.  I wonder what your rules for the perfect JMDL
might be...and how you'd enforce them?  I think most of us are doing the
best we can to make the JMDL social club a pleasant and fulfilling set of
experiences, all according to our particular gifts.  But clearly, if you're
not into love, caring and community you've stumbled upon the wrong list, I
think.  I'm not sure it's being "strived" for, but I know it somehow thrives
here, and certainly these are some of the emotions that attracted me to Joni
and her music.

>Some people here have so much of their ego and self-image invested in their
"JMDL
> image" that slights are seen where none are intended. There's a constant
> need by some on the list to be seen as the most eloquent, or the most
> sensitive, or the most knowledgeable and well-read, or the most caring,
and,
> when there's so much, by so many, invested in that kind of thing, this
> circle game of war and peace on the list is bound to "reoccur" (intended
> Joni-related humor there). There's all this talk about how much everybody
> loves one another so much.
>
> With love and best wishes (say what you will, because I do care for you
> knuckleheads),
> Jim

This is where you really go overboard with the amateur psychology bit.  How
are you qualified to know what anyone else has "invested" in this list?  How
can you speak to someone else's motivation to be here or post here when you
can't even reconcile your own?  You can't, or won't, post with any
regularity out of protest over the quality of the communications here,
right?  But you can't bring yourself to leave either, the ultimate protest.
It's like complaining about the "Jerry Springer" show on the TV, how
apalling it is.  Turn the freaking channel, why don't you?  Don't read the
posts!  You say the list is too touchy-feely, but yet you close with how
much you love and care about us knuckleheads.  I'm not trying to be
insulting here, I swear, but you've got me confused.

For my part, I offer This List one guarantee: when I leave or "retreat" to
lurking, there will be no weepy farewell, no guilt to impart on everyone as
a parting shot because you all didn't soothe me when I cried out, or come to
my defense when I felt I had been slighted.  Nor will I complain that you
all didn't talk about Joni enough.  There will be no mass psychoanalysis, no
blanket aspirtions cast, nor value judgements rendered.  There will simply
be a few keystrokes from me to the listserver, and I will be gone.  I will
be missed, or I will be missed not.  But I will have no regrets and I will
not complain that I didn't get what I wanted or thought I was entitled to
from the JMDL.

With love,
Julius

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