and michael's call made me almost bawl, and lifted my heart on a day that was... actually a beautiful day.
and i've really been obsessing about 9/11, as several people who talked to me up at jonifest probably realized. but still, yesterday, for the first time, i felt a sense of rebirth. we had the morning off so i went, like i did last year on wednesday, sept 12, to take ballet. my teacher is a wise, spiritual person and the musician was magnificent, and class soothed my soul, just as it did on the morning after, last year. that's why i felt so cheery by noon. treated myself to a nice lunch, worked for six hours and then met some friends after. we went to grace church near union square for a special musical 9/11 service that included fauri's requiem, which has got to be one of the most beautiful pieces of music ever written. only organ, harp and solo violin for instruments this time, but full choruses, children's choruses on 'sanctus' and 'in paradisum', a soprano soloist who sang 'pie jesu' in the purest, most serene and most perfectly vibrato-less voice. it was perfect. then out to union square, tons of people gathered in what was one of the most important spaces in the weeks after the disaster. then the four of us went to grab a bite (and a $10 pitcher of beer!) at chat 'n' chew, incuding mac'n'cheese, sweet potato fries, a complete comfort food pigout. and i looked around and i felt, 'we're alright.' it's definitely naive, new york still has a great big target painted on it, but i seem to feel a little better, and i'm grateful for that. and michael's call was so welcome. recently i re-read most of the posts to this list written in the hours and days after the attack. there was strife, but there was so much care, care that i don't think i properly appreciated at the time. i feel that care much more this year. patrick np - a gershwin collection >Just a shout out to all my people in NYC. I sat on the couch tonight and >watched the concert for NYC and had a couple of martinis watered down with >tears. I thought about you all and remembered all the feelings >over the past >year. Tried to call a couple of ya's tonight to represent, but only managed >to talk to my boy Patrick who was a beacon of bright light and feeling like >it was a beautiful day again today. Hope all is well with you all. > >Love > >Paz
