I went out for a walk on Monday night.  I went around to the water front and 
went out on the dock and once out there I looked back at the shore line and I 
saw fire.  So on my way back in I stopped off at my neighbor's house where 
the fire was.  This neighbor is a home builder.  He built my home and lived 
in it with his family for a few years and then sold it to me at a discount 
because he liked my children and he knew our kids would play together and I'm 
always appreciative of that.  I went back into his yard which overlooks the 
marsh and I saw the fire.  It was underbrush which he had gathered from his 
property and it was burning in a fire that was easily about ten feet square. 

So I said, jesus Stephen, that's a big fire for a Monday night.  He said, 
yea...i was pissed off today so I came home early and cleaned up the brush 
and now I'm burning it.  He said he got his financials in from his accountant 
and they were so bad that he couldn't even show them to his bank for fear 
they'd call in his loans.  He said, are you feeling the pressure now?

I said hell yes.  Interest rates are so high, my lenders won't give me money 
for even rock solid deals cause they can return better in more secure 
markets.  I lost three major deals late last year because of it.  But the 
rates are lowering some.  Stephen said, yea and I could feel it immediately.  
He said, I'm going to tell my kids to get a job in a company when they grow 
up so the get these paid vacations and these 401ks and things.  This self 
employment is a bitch.  I said, you're right.  It's a bitch.  You always have 
time but you can never rest.  I said to him that I've been reading some email 
from some music friends wanting to go the other way, to get out of their 
jobs.  He said, they should see it from this side for a while.  

So he said, you want a beer?  I said, no.  I've got to go.  It's after 9 and 
I'd like to tuck the kids in and Cheryl will think I fell off the dock.  He 
said, come on, have a beer.  I said, Stephen, I can't.  I need to go.  He 
said, I know. It's late.  But if you change your mind, come back, the size of 
that fire means I'll be here for a few hours.  

And when I got around the corner I could tell it was really cold away from 
the fire and when I put my hands in my pockets I could still feel the warmth 
in my clothes from where I was facing the heat.  And I thought, I never sat 
down and I never took off my coat.  But!!!  I did stop by to warm myself, 
even if it was just for 15 minutes.  So ....that's better than nothing.

"I'm a burning hearth," he said
  "People see the smoke
  But no-one comes to warm themselves
  Sloughing off a coat

patrick
np. dmb-what would you say

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