This is hard for me to post, but, it's 1:00 AM and I just got back home from a date within which I broke someone's heart. Joni was there. I have been seeing this guy, a very cool guy that some would call a major catch. He's been with me since I started navigating some very choppy waters some six months ago. Tonight, I told him it appeared we should not see one another again in the way we have. I am planning to return to a special place left behind. Before us. He was so upset. We sat together, in the cold, in front of his Los Feliz apartment for an hour talking, doing a post mortem on our days together. His hazel eyes fixed on my every word. Suddenly, I realized BSN was in the CD player of the car. As we sat there in the awkwardness of the night, sad yet resolved, I punched on COY. The words came through so clear. The music so real. I found myself with tears filling my eyes (a very rare event) and he was spellbound. It was the perfect end to an enriched time. That song takes on a whole new meaning to me, having heard it all these years, it never had a place in my heart until now. I am ready to move on to a place I belong. And I think he's ready to let go. My dear JMDL friends and lurkers -- your presence has made this an easier night for me -- someway, somehow. If she doesn't win a Grammy on Wednesday - she certainly won one tonight. No real regrets, except a few, but still standing, Coyote Rick
