>From S. Brian Willson: [email protected] - www.brianwillson.com I sit alone in my home office in the wee morning hours of the anniversary of the crime that led to blood on the tracks twenty-six years ago, when I was 46 years old, more than eighteen years after my entire life perspective started changing radically while "serving" in Viet Nam's Mekong Delta at the age of 27. My learning curve has always been slow ever since I was in grade school, seemingly always the last kid in my small, rural class to learn handwriting, to learn reading (always in remedial reading), to read music (still cannot read music), to learn basic arithmetic, etc., though I was a good speller by 6th grade. The pattern began to significantly shift in 7th grade when I started to excel even though I remained a slow reader, which is true to this day. By 8th grade which was as high a grade as my small, rural village's school went in those days in the 1950s, I was the valedictorian. Then I took a bus to high school 10 miles away which in those days seemed like a long ways. My lower working class religious parents were proud that I might get a high school diploma.
I did not begin to see any of the Grand Lie of the US mythology from the Puritans to the Founding Fathers to the Constitution to Manifest Destiny, etc., until spring 1969 during my first few weeks in Viet Nam at an old age of 27. (I was drafted at age 25 out of graduate school, dumbed down to the hilt). It seemed, however, that as I began to see the first glimpses of the lie in the lives and bodies of Vietnamese villagers, its various and multiple layers began to rapidly unravel, like an avalanche, over a period of 4 months as I turned 28 while still in the war. It was as if a guillotine suddenly had chopped off my ideological head. I was no longer able to walk the line, even as I initially really wanted to continue walking the path of American bliss. Just couldn't put the lie back into the bottle as you all know in your own life experiences. My once proud parents were now embarrassed, resentful, and ashamed of their "lost" son. They were angry with my "bad attitude." But, still, it has taken many years to fully grasp the diabolical nature of western, industrial civilization, of nation-statism, of USA Disney, and it leaves me with grave questions as to how to recover my humanity while waking up each day in a culture of make believe and pretend, and bombings over and over and over. On September 1, 1987, many of my family and friends (nearly 50 of whom were present near the tracks at Concord as witnesses) fully expected routine arrests of us three vets blocking that day, facing a year in prison and $5,000 fine for interfering with movement of federal munitions trains. The lie of America, and all the moaning and suffering in its wake had been searing in my soul for 18 years by that time. I knew when that munitions train got by our block - the last obstacle to this death train being able to move lethal weapons to Central America with only one purpose, that of maiming and murdering impoverished people - real human beings worth no less than we, would be maimed, murdered, displaced, and only a few people in my own country cared or gave a shit. The 3 train crew members, civilian employees of the US Navy, as it turned out were also Viet Nam veterans but they were still following orders of the Man which on that day were to NOT stop for us veterans. (This is literally true). Unbeknownst to us at the time was that Duncan Murphy and I were on the FBI's domestic terrorist suspect list. And as I witness with all of you the continued historical pattern of US barbaric war making (well over 560 military interventions with troops since 1798, 28 countries bombed since 1945, Syria will be 29), I feel sickness in my stomach as I hear Obomber's lead cheerleader, John Forbes Kerry (JFK), who was in Viet Nam's Mekong Delta as a Navy Lt at the same time I was in the Delta as a USAF Lt, declare that the US must take the "moral high ground" to directly respond to Syrian "moral obscenity". Kerry and I first met in 1971 at VVAW's anti-war actions in DC in response to the moral obscenities being committed by the US in Southeast Asia. From 1982-1987 I associated with Kerry, first when he was Massachusetts Lt. Gov., then worked on his first campaign to become a US Senator in 1984, then served on his veteran's advisory council once elected. Once in office, I soon became disgruntled with Kerry such that by 1987 I resigned from his advisory council. Though he sent me condolence balloons to my hospital bed after nearly being killed by the train (this is true), we have never seen each other since, though his campaign staff asked if I would work on his 2004 presidential campaign to defeat Bush II, with a hint that if Kerry won I would be appointed to some position with the VA. Geez, these folks just don't get it. Such different paths, both anti-war when first out of that war. But here is a case where power and ego can so smoothly lead to one adhering to diabolical behavior equivalent or exceeding the behavior we once renounced with vigor. And, isn't it interesting that both our Secretary of State (a Delta Swift Boat cmdr) and Secretary of War (a Sgt in 9th Infantry Division, also in the Delta), are Viet Nam veterans who have said at various times that the US needs to learn from our "mistakes" in Viet Nam. The diabolical pattern continues, and in some ways we are all complicit unless and until we collectively amass in the streets making governing business as usual impossible, or in the alternative, totally withdraw our support by transitioning to local self reliant communities possessing some autonomy, or some combination of each. Our country is unreformable and irredeemable, founded on the forceful dispossession of hundreds of Indigenous nations of real human beings to steal land killing millions with total impunity; forceful kidnapping of hundreds of tribes of Africans comprised of real human beings to steal labor killing millions with total impunity; forceful theft of raw materials and resources from around the world killing and impoverishing millions with total impunity. Three holocausts enabling us to believe we are an "exceptional" society. We are like spoiled adolescents who have never been held to account for our systematic criminality. The wool has not been pulled over our eyes. The wool IS our eyes. The pattern of US history built on massive exploitation outsourcing the consequent pain and suffering out of our feeling field, out of our view, still remains unspeakable. Yet it is cracking, as the Occupy Movement represented, and the repressive crackdown of that movement revealed how terrified the system is of people power emerging outside the claustrophobic box. The revelations forcing dreaded transparency by acts such as those of Bradley (Chelsea) Manning and Edward Snowden show how really unbearable is truth to the system since it has always operated on the lie, on pretend. Pretty incredible. I celebrate 26 years of surviving a murder attempt that has left me walking upright on two prostheses, a plate in my skull protecting my damaged frontal lobe, with the grand opportunity of now having arm-powered myself more than 65,000 miles on handcycle. Today, Becky and I cycled to the rally against bombing Syria where we were inspired as we met many Syrians and other young people who totally get the lie. Yahoo! Find your tracks, define your train, find others, and make your stand. Dignity trumps longevity. Brian, Walking and hand cycling in my 73rd year. Hard to believe. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~ Message from Frank Dorrel: Dear Friends, If you would like to say hello to Brian, his email is: [email protected] Here is the 9-Minute Trailer for: "PAYING THE PRICE FOR PEACE: The Story of S. Brian Willson & The Peace Movement" - Directed by Bo Boudart - Associate Producer Frank Dorrel www.youtube.com/watch?v=cKIjfUAnPvY&feature=player_embedded# <http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cKIjfUAnPvY&feature=player_embedded> If you feel inspired to help get this important film finished, please send a donation to: Beau Monde Image Foundation PO Box 7395, Menlo Park, CA 94026 (This is a 501 C-3 organization. So it is Tax Deductable) Bo has already interviewed Daniel Ellsberg, Father Roy Bourgeois, Medea Benjamin, Col. Ann Wright, Martin Sheen, Alice Walker, Phil Donahue, Blase Bonpane, Ron Kovic, Ray McGovern, Kathy Kelly, Charlie Clements, Camila Mejia (Iraq War Vet), Bruce Gagnon, Charlie Liteky, Duncan Murphy, Leah Bolger (past president of Veterans For Peace), Elliot Adams (past president of VFP), David Swanson, Mike Prysner (Iraq War Vet), Jeff Paterson (Courage to Resist) & others. He still plans to interview Amy Goodman, Kris Kristofferson, Ed Asner, & Cindy Sheehan. Bo Boudart is a producer of wildlife, ecology, cultural, human rights, cultural, educational and science programs. He has initiated productions in Asia, Indonesia and Philippine Island Archipelagos, South America, Africa, Australia, the Arctic, the Caribbean, and throughout the United States. Boudart has produced documentaries, animations, educational, marketing and informational programs for distribution in all formats. Many of his programs have aired on the Discovery Channel, Public Television, Canadian Broadcasting, NHK Japan, French TV, and the Middle East. Bo Boudart Director of: "Paying The Price For Peace" 650-644-7228 [email protected] www.boboudartproductions.org Other Important Links for S. Brian Willson Here is Brian's interview on Democracy Now with Amy Goodman on October 28th, 2011: www.democracynow.org/2011/10/28/blood_on_the_tracks_brian_willsons You can watch Brian's 8-minute segment from my film: "What I've Learned About US Foreign Policy" at: www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Rkvl9XHCYU&feature=related All of Brian's essays on his website are well worth reading at: www.brianwillson.com Short Autobiography of S. Brian Willson: www.brianwillson.com/autobiography BLOOD ON THE TRACKS: The Life & Times of S. Brian Willson: www.addictedtowar.com/SBWillson.html <http://www.brianwillson.com/> In Peace, Frank Dorrel Associate Producer of: "Paying The Price For Peace" Publisher of: ADDICTED To WAR 310-838-8131 [email protected] [email protected] www.addictedtowar.com [Non-text portions of this message have been removed] ------------------------------------ --------------------------------------------------------------------------- LAAMN: Los Angeles Alternative Media Network --------------------------------------------------------------------------- Unsubscribe: <mailto:[email protected]> --------------------------------------------------------------------------- Subscribe: <mailto:[email protected]> --------------------------------------------------------------------------- Digest: <mailto:[email protected]> --------------------------------------------------------------------------- Help: <mailto:[email protected]?subject=laamn> --------------------------------------------------------------------------- Post: <mailto:[email protected]> --------------------------------------------------------------------------- Archive1: <http://www.egroups.com/messages/laamn> --------------------------------------------------------------------------- Archive2: <http://www.mail-archive.com/[email protected]> --------------------------------------------------------------------------- Yahoo! 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