Sue Hartigan <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> writes: ABC NEWS "20/20 FRIDAY" INVESTIGATES THE CLAIM OF A RESPIRATORY THERAPIST THAT HE MURDERED DOZENS OF TERMINALLY ILL PATIENTS, IN REPORT AIRING APRIL 10 When 28-year-old respiratory therapist Efren Saldivar told police he had murdered dozens of terminally ill patients as they lay helpless in their beds, his shocking confession made headlines around the world. Is this soft-spoken, shy California man an ``Angel of Death'' and among the most horrific serial killers in recent history, or an innocent man who claimed responsibility for the murders as a desperate plea for help? Correspondent Elizabeth Vargas reports on ABC News ``20/20 Friday,'' FRIDAY, APRIL 10 (10:00-11:00 p.m., ET), on the ABC Television Network. In an exclusive interview with Ms. Vargas, Saldivar recants the March 11 confession which detailed the murders of forty to fifty patients over a nine-year period. ``It's not as . . . it's not as easy to kill a patient as it sounds,'' he says. ``Anytime a patient is that sick, there's always more than one person in the room. It's not easy to do that stuff.'' Saldivar says that he confessed to the murders in order to end his own life. ``I wanted the system to do to me what I couldn't do to me. I was looking to die, I wanted to die,'' he tells Ms. Vargas. ``. . . before I tried . . . but I didn't have the courage . . . I figured, you know, one death isn't gonna be enough for the death penalty so I said two. There was two patients. And then I started to cry because I was ending my life . . . I was ending everything else, finally doing it.'' He also claims that he had taken Valium before his police interrogation and that his statements were an elaborate lie. ``I couldn't believe how I started to embellish,'' he tells Ms. Vargas. ``The detectives asked me for a motive. I couldn't think of one. Then I thought of Jack Kevorkian. He has a lot of people who follow him, who believe in him . . . and then I made the split decision to go that route, right on the spot. To see them out of their misery.'' A co-worker's statement that he saw drugs in Saldivar's locker -- including a powerful paralyzing agent and morphine -- was, according to Saldivar, part of ``. . . a plan to get rid of me'' by a ``guy that hates me.'' Police, however, believe that Saldivar had plenty of opportunity to kill and that his initial confession was truthful. As a respiratory therapist at Glendale Adventist Medical Center as well as several other hospitals and nursing homes in Los Angeles, he cared for patients who were often comatose and in critical condition. ``Anytime someone confesses, it's usually very self-serving,'' says Sgt. Rick Young of the Glendale police department, who says that their investigation will link Saldivar to the murders. ``You know, it may be just the tip of the iceberg. We could find hundreds out there . . . At this point, we believe we have a strong case.'' Although Saldivar expresses sympathy for the families who believe their loved ones might have been his victims, he says he never harmed anyone. ``All I can say is that I'm sorry and it didn't happen, it's not true,'' he says. ``But if they died, they died 'cause it was God's will, not because of me.'' -- Two rules in life: 1. Don't tell people everything you know. 2. Subscribe/Unsubscribe, email: [EMAIL PROTECTED] In the body of the message enter: subscribe/unsubscribe law-issues