> well it is such a relief as honestly I thought I had finally went over the edge Folks..
the last few years I was so amazed I made it from being near dead, all the world issues and well it isnt dec21 yet but I thought maybe i would see Tommys 26th birthday on the dec23... Its been a long hard road.. but I was stsring to think I could help non profits, and I was getting my passion back to create and love of memorabilia...and wanted tostsrt moving and excercizeing... I was actually at my computer try to list Books to a guy that called me from washingto state and wanted books on cameras and projection..... when the news break came on... 27 people killed by young man at school... well... My mind just froze... and i started to think about all the kids..... see on facebook my enjoyment was to hear about people babaies, the accomplishments of their kids, photos , milestones, achievments... that and pets and peoples vacatins... became my homebound way to see life and livings Joy.... esp proud pap Bruce who has so many kids and they all seem to do all kinds of stuff.. My own son who I remember so vivid as a small wonder of creatitivity who Tonight is haveinga CD release party downtown... So I deceide I would sleep it off... well my body decided.. and i just turned off the TV and slept.. then 12 non as i was still in bed my next door neighbor called me... they are like norman rockwell family and i had the luxery of seeing them since 2007 grow a familyof two Daughters,,, Grace and Olivia... believe it or not.. movie actress names... they are so sweet and so energetic... well the dad wanted to stach thier Christmas gifts with me !! a Guita and a keybpard.... well.. Icould barely answer th door as i was still in my depressed stupor... so when he came I asked him how he felt and was there anything we could do to prevent this from happening at his kids school... we agreed we could do nothing... so I told him how i felt and asked if i seemed like i was going overboard..... he said NO we all feel that way.... then a customer called me on the phone... I said well im not doing real good.. im tring to list on ebay but it aint happening yet.. because im in a vapor lock .. Im sorry... as I could use the money badly... so I asked my neighbor if its normal not to be baele to cry... and whats odd// is I have no answers... no questions other then why are people so angry to harm kids... and whats the answer?? all I could think was God and prayer yet people have been scoofing like Bill Maher and saying there is no God.... so Ive thought well since march ive been asking God for guidence if there is No God... then the world is Toast my logical critaical thinking brain says... as none of this movie makes sense to me... other then God s plan of salvation.. nothing... so anyways... then I thought of my neighbors again .. they are good people just want to live, play and share memories..they even have a dog that looks like TOTO from wiz of oz.. in the sumer they go o the lake... the Girls take all kinds of sports, they came by at halloween and are very considerate... and I thought what if it was them taken out by some kid like those in CT.. yo not hear their morning gigles and hear them playing would be such a loss.. ... well I dont drink, or di drugs,, and i dont wish to harm anyone, I am not angery at anyone.... I am at a loss...of words of what I can say... except my feeble attempt to tell my poster friends my concerns about my own sanity from all these experiences... my own belief is that I simply pray to God as all thats sounded like a good plan was based on Gods words.. IF that means nothing then.. who knows // if it matters then hopefully we all can find peace and hope and love and meaning..heck I was a volunteer for Barack obama and thought the republicans gave me a hard time.... But the worldwide distaters and the unbalance of Society and world leaders just seems more intense then ever and the earth does seem to be turbulant more then I ever have felt in my heart and soul... My question is.. is it just me or can others feel it also...?? I have seen it in people who dont answer calls... dont seem to be spiritually careing and have lost hope and become cynical... yet ive seen many who are aattempting to help others and share love and kindness... like it is a war between spiritual powers that be... I can understand how people woudl doubt me as I fit the criteria of what society calls a loser... but what about the rest??? what do you see is happening and where your world is going.? I plan to keep on my path and hope to help others and do positive things and not allow the world to unravel.. and I dont ever want to lose sight of kids and elderly and those in need... I just wish I could do more...then Rant.. Bless everyone and your families.. > I refuse to give up !!! I will Pray !If possible please pray also for all mankind and the earth and for peace thank YOU > >---- Original Message ---- >From: [email protected] >To: [email protected] >Subject: Re: [MOPO] mopo -regard the shooting in CT. >Date: Sat, 15 Dec 2012 11:41:11 -0800 > >>I've been in shock over these poor sweet babies. It's horrible. >> >>Sent from my iPhone >> >>On Dec 15, 2012, at 9:25 AM, Richard Del Belso <[email protected]> >wrote: >> >>> As usual, Tom's words come straight from the heart...and express >the feelings many of us share. >>> >>> Richard Del Belso >>> >>> >>> >>> >>> Date: Sat, 15 Dec 2012 07:40:32 -0800 >>> From: [email protected] >>> Subject: Re: [MOPO] mopo -regard the shooting in CT. >>> To: [email protected] >>> >>> Tom, your eloquence has said it all. Thanks. Joe B in NOLA >>> >>> From: Tom Martin <[email protected]> >>> To: [email protected] >>> Sent: Friday, December 14, 2012 10:53 PM >>> Subject: [MOPO] mopo -regard the shooting in CT. >>> >>> wow folks..... this hit me so wired today.. I was sitting at my >>> computer when the news break came on... unlike any recent news >event >>> this hit me so strange... I thought of all you out therewith >Kids.. >>> as the innocense of the age of children is so horrific as they >were >>> defenceless and fresh little kids.. I thought of my son and how he >>> was at that age.. so trusting and so innocent... and i thought of >the >>> parents.. i already was concerned of east coat people that lost >homes >>> but this was over the top.. as the kids suffered... >>> so all day ive been so unfocused and ive never cried but teared >and >>> feel like crying but its a feeling that i cant explain as we all >sit >>> on the edge of the financial cliff, the recent election woes, the >end >>> of year uncertainty the recent hurricane, and lifes typical >blues.. >>> >>> I had just been spending the last week counting my blessings and >>> thinking I would heal up and just carry on that even though the >DEC21 >>> end of world ending was predicted that I felt I would still be >here >>> to celebrat my sons Birthday on the Dec 23 and Christmas/// >>> so when this happened today and I even saw the President wipe >tears >>> and newscasters choke up.... and the facebook people liht up with >>> prayers .. I thought simply as a parent and what that kind of >shock >>> would do to a family as our kids are the most sensitive parts to >>> life.. and future,,, all I could think was that God must have a >plan >>> and this must be to show us how senseless killing is at any age or >>> anyplace on earth at any time...for any reason.. but syill I >couldnt >>> answer and i know i am noone to give advice as im in shock also >... >>> so all I can think is sadness to this event.. I wish everyone >peace >>> and love and comfort from this meaninglless sensless event...I >hope >>> we an all pray for those familys that are suffering today.. God >bless >>> well im at a loss to explain why this type stuff happenes except >its >>> a reflection of our worlds state or despair >>> >>> Visit the MoPo Mailing List Web Site at >http://www.filmfan.com/ >>> >___________________________________________________________________ >>> How to UNSUBSCRIBE from the MoPo Mailing List >>> >>> Send a message addressed to: [email protected] >>> In the BODY of your message type: SIGNOFF MOPO-L >>> >>> The author of this message is solely responsible for its >content. >>> >>> >>> Visit the MoPo Mailing List Web Site at www.filmfan.com >>> >___________________________________________________________________ >>> How to UNSUBSCRIBE from the MoPo Mailing List >>> Send a message addressed to: [email protected] >>> In the BODY of your message type: SIGNOFF MOPO-L >>> The author of this message is solely responsible for its content. >>> >>> Visit the MoPo Mailing List Web Site at www.filmfan.com >>> >___________________________________________________________________ >>> How to UNSUBSCRIBE from the MoPo Mailing List >>> Send a message addressed to: [email protected] >>> In the BODY of your message type: SIGNOFF MOPO-L >>> The author of this message is solely responsible for its content. >> >> Visit the MoPo Mailing List Web Site at www.filmfan.com >> >___________________________________________________________________ >> How to UNSUBSCRIBE from the MoPo Mailing List >> >> Send a message addressed to: [email protected] >> In the BODY of your message type: SIGNOFF MOPO-L >> >> The author of this message is solely responsible for its content >. >> >> > > >---- Original Message ---- >From: [email protected] >To: [email protected] >Subject: Re: [MOPO] mopo -regard the shooting in CT. >Date: Sat, 15 Dec 2012 11:41:11 -0800 > >>I've been in shock over these poor sweet babies. It's horrible. >> >>Sent from my iPhone >> >>On Dec 15, 2012, at 9:25 AM, Richard Del Belso <[email protected]> >wrote: >> >>> As usual, Tom's words come straight from the heart...and express >the feelings many of us share. >>> >>> Richard Del Belso >>> >>> >>> >>> >>> Date: Sat, 15 Dec 2012 07:40:32 -0800 >>> From: [email protected] >>> Subject: Re: [MOPO] mopo -regard the shooting in CT. >>> To: [email protected] >>> >>> Tom, your eloquence has said it all. Thanks. Joe B in NOLA >>> >>> From: Tom Martin <[email protected]> >>> To: [email protected] >>> Sent: Friday, December 14, 2012 10:53 PM >>> Subject: [MOPO] mopo -regard the shooting in CT. >>> >>> wow folks..... this hit me so wired today.. I was sitting at my >>> computer when the news break came on... unlike any recent news >event >>> this hit me so strange... I thought of all you out therewith >Kids.. >>> as the innocense of the age of children is so horrific as they >were >>> defenceless and fresh little kids.. I thought of my son and how he >>> was at that age.. so trusting and so innocent... and i thought of >the >>> parents.. i already was concerned of east coat people that lost >homes >>> but this was over the top.. as the kids suffered... >>> so all day ive been so unfocused and ive never cried but teared >and >>> feel like crying but its a feeling that i cant explain as we all >sit >>> on the edge of the financial cliff, the recent election woes, the >end >>> of year uncertainty the recent hurricane, and lifes typical >blues.. >>> >>> I had just been spending the last week counting my blessings and >>> thinking I would heal up and just carry on that even though the >DEC21 >>> end of world ending was predicted that I felt I would still be >here >>> to celebrat my sons Birthday on the Dec 23 and Christmas/// >>> so when this happened today and I even saw the President wipe >tears >>> and newscasters choke up.... and the facebook people liht up with >>> prayers .. I thought simply as a parent and what that kind of >shock >>> would do to a family as our kids are the most sensitive parts to >>> life.. and future,,, all I could think was that God must have a >plan >>> and this must be to show us how senseless killing is at any age or >>> anyplace on earth at any time...for any reason.. but syill I >couldnt >>> answer and i know i am noone to give advice as im in shock also >... >>> so all I can think is sadness to this event.. I wish everyone >peace >>> and love and comfort from this meaninglless sensless event...I >hope >>> we an all pray for those familys that are suffering today.. God >bless >>> well im at a loss to explain why this type stuff happenes except >its >>> a reflection of our worlds state or despair >>> >>> Visit the MoPo Mailing List Web Site at >http://www.filmfan.com/ >>> >___________________________________________________________________ >>> How to UNSUBSCRIBE from the MoPo Mailing List >>> >>> Send a message addressed to: [email protected] >>> In the BODY of your message type: SIGNOFF MOPO-L >>> >>> The author of this message is solely responsible for its >content. >>> >>> >>> Visit the MoPo Mailing List Web Site at www.filmfan.com >>> >___________________________________________________________________ >>> How to UNSUBSCRIBE from the MoPo Mailing List >>> Send a message addressed to: [email protected] >>> In the BODY of your message type: SIGNOFF MOPO-L >>> The author of this message is solely responsible for its content. >>> >>> Visit the MoPo Mailing List Web Site at www.filmfan.com >>> >___________________________________________________________________ >>> How to UNSUBSCRIBE from the MoPo Mailing List >>> Send a message addressed to: [email protected] >>> In the BODY of your message type: SIGNOFF MOPO-L >>> The author of this message is solely responsible for its content. >> >> Visit the MoPo Mailing List Web Site at www.filmfan.com >> >___________________________________________________________________ >> How to UNSUBSCRIBE from the MoPo Mailing List >> >> Send a message addressed to: [email protected] >> In the BODY of your message type: SIGNOFF MOPO-L >> >> The author of this message is solely responsible for its content >. >> >> Visit the MoPo Mailing List Web Site at www.filmfan.com ___________________________________________________________________ How to UNSUBSCRIBE from the MoPo Mailing List Send a message addressed to: [email protected] In the BODY of your message type: SIGNOFF MOPO-L The author of this message is solely responsible for its content.
