so mope people..... its been a wierd weekend... after the kids in
sandy hook I ended up sleeping all weekedn in my 1st bigtime
depression in years... I would like to tank a few mopers who emailed
and posted that they too felt like I did.... I mean its a cosmic time
as we all wait and see if the Mayans where right or hopis or
nostradamous or revelation...
a guy emailed em and said Tom dont tell people your weakness as they
will be afraid...act confident... and dont let people know your real
feelings... I said well... really all that matters in the Big picture
is if there is a God.. otherwise.. Im pretty much not doing to well.
so my answer is prayer and talking to God.. and hoping hes there and
listening... so what i felt he taught me this weekend was not to
worry and that the kids familys had a much ahrder time then me with a
health ailment, some money woes and some stress,, as I was still
alive and could in theaory get back on my feet... so I tryed to list
but my head and body didnt want to go along... then i saw i have two
doctor appts in one day... OK more reason not tolist... tehn My Big
whammy .. a letter in the mail that the bank wouldnt modify my house
loan because the advocy group was late on sending papers in... after
4 monts wait.. they said we had to do it all over again... so thats
whan I thought GOD is testing me BIGTIME as I admit this is finally
getting to me and I became worried.. Right after God said well truts
me ... It was almost funny as I failed the test misrerabally and im
not going to even sleep as Im so wound and my 1st doctor is at 900am
so I thought ill just stay up... so I emailed MOPO and just best i
could rattled off my stuff as .. I need to get some gigs going..
Its been like a christmas movie.. like all the ones we see... how
there are people that inspie give you hope and those that walk away
and curse you and abandon.. But Ive still held on to thinking God
will help...otherwise... welll I thought maybe he wants me to change
directions, lose my home,, to teach me.. so Ill accept whatever...
but Im def not liking the ride.. well but in a way I thought the more
im tested themore ill learn and understand..otherwise how could i
understsnd others Loss??? so thats also why i feel i could help
peopel with disabilitys and finacial ruin , divorce, setbacks..
because i know all the reasons we get there and how some peopel treat
you like a bum or they think you cannot help yourself...I personally
have seen how it works... its just some peopel need help getting back
up aand its a big stress mentally when you lose a family member, or a
cat or dog, oryour home gets trashed in a flood.. or you lose a
Job...I can understand all the people who have been let go allof a
sudden...they need our help as many baby boomers are skilled good
workers and just want a break but are treated like obselete people..
so all i can think is I am being tempered byall this for a reason...
as just as I think the kids gave us all a wake up call to innocense,
fragilness and how people could step forward and be heros like
Victoria at a yound age... and that Life was so precious abouve
stuff, above financial success... because i bet so many would have
gien thir lives to save those kids if they could.. and there may be
many more like that young man that are plotting similar activitys...
if we could inspire them to have hope and not tirn to violent
extremes it would possible save others from that....
so in summery... I will continue to not give up and just try to get
some projects going so i can dig out... and hope that God has a use
for me...and be thankful that I can even try to get back up...I knew
the world was getting rough but I always thought that the Kids would
save the world before it ended up in destruction...when someone asked
what illbe doing on the 21st.. I sad I think Ill be praying and hope
that God does whatever he needs to to make the world and life better
for all... So I wish everyone Good health , happiness and all good
things..I really am not sure whats going to happen if anything so I
dont have anystrong predictions.... but the recent events and the
things happen keep telling me to Love as many peopel as possible,
healp them and honor them.....so thats what Ill do my best to do
regardless of the situations. Merry christmas and god bless everyones
familys.thanks forall the well wishes and positive LOve Mopo
family !
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