hello Kids...hope all is well for young family
well I seem to be the poster child of failing in about all aspects of life.,..but I've been learning some ways to survive and ill share them in case you are. having issues.

when I was married we did not communicate well.. I tried to be as open as possible however my ex would say I didn't tell you I didntpay the taxes , bills etc.as you would yell at me..!!

as I would never spend it if we didnthave it

but we mounted like close to 100Gs on credit cards unsecured debt

however was making like 600K in sales but the employees were getting like400.00 a week at 10a hour ..this was 80s and I had 10 people..

also the utilities. gas electric.. taxes, and insurance ..all added up
The biz was doing ok but thepersonalspending was nuts...
I need to make clear it was not all her fault as ini was smart I would have monitored it more// myself not asked her to do it

I tried to have stop gaps like2 party sigsomchecksto stop fraud but that did network if you don't have honesty.

regardless..we went chapter 13 in1993 as the bank would not refimydebtpersonally as it was unsecured... no collateral

the funny part was the payments the same as I proposed from 93-97 we paid toff with after tax money

I even gota 75 cent refund from the trustee
so my lesson was to modifying its the same I do now being disabled at 66

I live on 1000 a month and my house payment alone is 618.00 plus utilities, Phone, PO box internet hosting..andcosts.. of misc

Ini had a wife and kids it would be harder

souls I gave my paid off 2006 Toyota Matrix to Tommy as I lost my drivers license

But now I take cabs or the bus and its ok as traffic is crazy plus gas prices and maintenance

I can get tarps a bus anywhere like ini want to go to shop or eat out or zoo , movies whatever and its like having driver,,its Justin cantata time if they are busy

If i need supplies I use Walmart, amazon or thermal ordering its here sometimes overnight I can get soap toilet paper anything walmarts or home depot, office max..etc,delivered and when covid happened they'll went mail order even delivered food

next ill get Kroger @59.00a year home delivery of food..mysons been doing pick up..theypullthegroceries andbagthem he just picksup and I put them away I used tofu mown buildingwheni could climbontheroofand do repairs.,,but now a social service group mows my lawn and they also offer small repairs.like my garage gutter fell down and they came outing fixed a friend replace my spilt rail fence post as he has a post diggerandfixed it

yesterday I fixed my bathroom faucet by tightening the stem as they get loose and drip.. I've been learning to be independent by just slowing down and doing less and living frugal


I used to think I would be missing things like social stuff and playing music and mold life but its like getting a tremendous weightlifter..

stress is the killer,,looking back the worry fall my debts and ego of my company , inventions and ideas getting infringed made me Crazy with anxiety and stress

I. felt great guilt selling kids pop culture of films and music that I could see was affecting them and making many get angry and rebellious to parents and hating many people and become racist. and the they all started to say they didn't believe in God orated religion and anything that was in my childhood considered Good or ethical

sure I also saw the hypocrisy of the educational system ,religionandpolitics but theansewer was Love and helping each other notate..and hurting

so my biggest vice was I loved women..starting in the bands I got into music asa saw musician got chicks like Beatles..so it drew me like a magnet and I was lucky as between age 15 -19 we got plenty..Johnny was 36 when got in the Hurricane and I was 17 so we played many gigs and I was wild... my 1stgf lefts I said she could wait but music needed me...I bet Greg know what I mean.. By grace of god..I dwdntlike cocaine or Potandrank seldom most remand coke.. but very little

I had a stepgrandfatherand stepfather Alcoholics so I saw what alcohol does topple...and what smoking cigs and reefer .. so 1st things did in 90s was stop smoking..yesy its hard but my monad grandma died flung cancers they smoke from like age 9 on....so that was a great lesson

I was motivated by this woman from Montreal I met who was vegan and worked out that I went goo goo over 21 years,,but we never. evened sex,,,,she ended up having boy autistic and 2 twin girls

we tried tasty platonic friends but she would keep unfriending men Facebook..isent Hera bible and said thesis the best thingsive learned,,thence contact means said she was postpartum depression..andinsomnia.. I said well the answers areinthe Bible..she said I ripped itup in a fit rage...her grandma died so she thought God was unfair..I notice many people get angered at god because they want him do what they want.. anddontconsider. he uses people tort each us all as I think when we retold we know its always been between us and god not us and people anyway...

so how doit liven 100 a month>>
well pay the bills as theyarriveand I modify my heat water, electric usage like a mixer..its actual spiritual and conserving just feels better..I feel bad when seethe east generate from food wrappers as so much can be recycled..I generate 2 bags of trash a week


my electric is good as I audit my usage..itwas little higher July aug but I keptitlowerand now its cooling,,,use the eld bulbs that are lower wattage and so the computer and tv and refrigerator and the gas water heater are the main culprits..but I willies like 4 comforters on my bed and wear sweats to bed in winter..now I wearshortsand t-shirt and have 2 sets so I seldom wear jeans or dress clothes..and do mynahs whinnied..and I bath less as I don't get dirty as often...andso thats what I get the benifitof a worm shower,,,,I thinktheutilies think I steal watering electric and gas as my bills are pretty low.. On Food I do the same budget ..and I try to focus nutritional food..not treat,, but I mix itup and once in a while eat some what food like a pizza or Boston chicken.. subway.. but a major cost thing that gets peopldrink alcohol..drink sugar soda pop ,candies,,and horrible fast food diestof quick food like mcDonals Wendy,tacobell,pizza and others that ads upandifthe person smokes even1 pack a day I was 2 its 10.00a mayor 300.00 a month!!!

then people waste moneyonTV Netflix and others and internet

when you can get the basic channels FREE with a antenna
anthers many government programs now for free phones and other lower programs\\I still pay for my phone butgota landline for thereof free clear caption..its great..it operates over the internet and the internet broadband is also free if you are inflow income bracket

so I share this as I care about you'll and know how hard if you have college kids..or are used to living a certain way..andi know how failing can crush us after working like 50 years but its really blessings we really don't need most the stuff.. we just get addicted by it like any vice..people think when they geta new car or new house its sign of sucess but the miliomnaires ive known actually gave it all way my friend was the Butler to the Stranahans who founded champion spark plug one of the wealthiest inToldeo

I got a tour of thier last home
they were at theta they donated thierestage and mansion to the city and its now a metro park called wildwood park..I was running therwhenmy foot 1st got infected inlike2011//

so when saw the home it was cleartheywere no longerinthehigh life but still had memories..andi sawtheyhad bibles everywhere..so I thoughtwowthey discovered there meaningofthis all

same with Queen Elizabeth I thinks was right withGod as wells Betty white... My moms born June 12,1927 as Elizabeth was 1926///Mom was a believer and when saw her theist time we joked about Death jokes..she said I am good with its I believe I will be with Jesus..I just dontlipe the form of transportation..whe w she took her last breath I was sayings ok mom you can go..as theheartstarts beatingrapidley

and then like a Spielberg movie clouds were circling the Hospice..and a clap of lightning and thunder wentoffand she was Gone - glory to Jesus !


I said all that was left was a chariot picking her upland groping off in the clods./.

Pray for your friends and loved ones while you can,Forgive everyone and pray for them all.. as the angered hate releases poison in the body and I think makes us ill and unhappy
 God bless you all and hope you are not stressed.

Tom
waiting for God to guide means iftheris more from to do so be it Gods will be done//
Hollywood dream factory®
since 1977

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