Having been layed-off for over a month, after dealing with my wife's
surgery, my daughters illness and keeping up with her school work
preparing meals and daily clean-up and the assistance and care for
my recovering spouse, I have taken up a job landscaping helping
my brother in-law. Back breaking, physically demanding.
After mourning my old job and my old life, I embraced the experience.
Mulching requires being alternately on you knees and loading wheelbarrels
as fast as you can, and spreading it evenly 1-2"thick around all manner of
plantings. On these cold mornings the mulch is steaming and hot, intermingled
with all types of interesting debris, lighter parts, condoms, and a wide range
of
unidentifyable pieces of metal and plastic. The smells of earth and grass, sweat
and body odor, muscle cramp soreness and burn, the sight of budding spring and
early mornings of restless nights with body aches have oddly enough provided
relief from my dire circumstance, the constant pain I endure relieves the
anxiety
of these uncertain times, my many past injuries reminds me of the story of my
life.
I do my work with harmony, I only accomplish what I am able to. I do my best
at all times, because my life requires it at his moment.
What I have learned, through self inquiry, through the books I have read and the
discussions I have had to develop and understand this has enabled me to survive
this time in my life with harmony. Where once I would have surely drown I now
swim and think nothing.
I simply am.
this simple act, has been a blessing.
confident that I may endure any trial.
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