you know i didn't realise how good that was. i may have to read lila again cheers marsha....have you ever seen 'angel-a' by luc besson?
--- On Thu, 28/5/09, MarshaV <[email protected]> wrote: > From: MarshaV <[email protected]> > Subject: [MD] Lila says: > To: "MD Forum" <[email protected]> > Received: Thursday, 28 May, 2009, 7:55 PM > > Greetings, > > For me, these words from Lila were, and still are, the most > profound in the entire book. It's what ever you think > it is, there's no way you can lie. > > ------------- > > 'What?' > > 'I'm not going to answer any more of your questions.' > > 'Why not?' > > 'You're the detective. That's what you are. You think > you're going to learn something. I don't know what, but > you're not going to learn anything . . . You'll never find > out who I am because I'm not anything.' > > 'What do you mean?' > > 'I'm not anybody. All these questions you're asking are > just a waste of time. I know you're trying to find out what > kind of a person I am but you're never going to find out > anything because there's nothing to know.' > > Her voice was getting slushy. She could tell it was getting > slushy. > 'I mean, I used to play I was this kind of person and that > kind of person but I got so tired of playing all those > games. It's such work and it doesn't do any good. There's > just all these pictures of who I am and they don't hold > together. They're all different people I'm supposed to be > but none of them are me. I'm not anybody. I'm not here. Like > you now. I can see you've got a lot of bad impressions about > me in your mind. And you think that what's in your mind is > here talking to you but nobody's here. You know what I mean? > Nobody's home. That's Lila. Nobody's home. > 'You know what?' Lila said. > > 'What?' > > 'What you want to do is make me into something I'm not.' > > 'Just the opposite.' > > 'You think just the opposite. But you're really trying to > do something to me that I don't like.' > > 'What's that?' > > 'You're trying to . . . you're trying to destroy me.' > > 'No.' > > 'Yes.' > > 'Well, you've completely misunderstood what I'm asking > these questions for,' the Captain said. > > 'No, I haven't. I've completely understood it just exactly > right,' Lila said. 'All men do that. You're no big > exception. Jerry did it. Every man does it. But you know > something? It won't work.' > > 'I'm not trying to destroy you,' he said. > > 'That's what you think. You're just playing around the > edges, aren't you! You can't go to the center of me. You > don't know where the center of me is!' > > That set him back. > > 'You're not a woman. You don't know. When men make love > they're really trying to destroy you. A woman's got to be > real quiet inside because if she shows a man anything > they'll try to kill it. > 'But they all get fooled because there's nothing to destroy > but what's in their own mind. And so they destroy that and > then they hate what's left and they call what's left, > "Lila," and they hate Lila. But Lila isn't anybody. That's > true. You don't believe it, but it's true. > 'Women are very deep,' Lila said. 'But men never see it. > They're too selfish. They always want women to understand > them. And that's all they ever care about. That's why they > always have to try to destroy them.' > > 'I'm just asking questions,' the Captain said. > > 'Fuck your questions! I'm whatever your questions turn me > into. You don't see that. It's your questions that make me > who I am. If you think I'm an angel then that's what I am. > If you think I'm a whore then that's what I am. I'm whatever > you think. And if you change your mind about me then I > change too. So whatever Richard tells you, it's true. > There's no way he can lie about me.' > > Lila took the bottle and took a swig down straight. 'The > hell with glasses,' she said. 'Everybody wants to turn Lila > into somebody else. And most women put up with that, because > they want the kids and the money and the good-looking > clothes. But it won't work with me. I'm just Lila and I > always will be. And if men don't like me the way I am, then > men can just get out. I don't need them. I don't need > anyone. I'll die first. That's just the way I am.' > > After a while Lila looked around and saw that all the boats > were lying straight in line just like the Captain said they > would be. That's pretty good. He'd figured that out. She > told him about it. He didn't say anything. He hadn't said > anything for a long time. > > > (LILA, Chapter 14) > > > > > > > . > _____________ > > The self is a thought-flow of ever-changing, interrelated > and interconnected, inorganic, biological, social and > intellectual, static patterns of value responding to Dynamic > Quality. > > . > . > > > > Moq_Discuss mailing list > Listinfo, Unsubscribing etc. > http://lists.moqtalk.org/listinfo.cgi/moq_discuss-moqtalk.org > Archives: > http://lists.moqtalk.org/pipermail/moq_discuss-moqtalk.org/ > http://moq.org.uk/pipermail/moq_discuss_archive/ > Need a Holiday? Win a $10,000 Holiday of your choice. Enter now.http://us.lrd.yahoo.com/_ylc=X3oDMTJxN2x2ZmNpBF9zAzIwMjM2MTY2MTMEdG1fZG1lY2gDVGV4dCBMaW5rBHRtX2xuawNVMTEwMzk3NwR0bV9uZXQDWWFob28hBHRtX3BvcwN0YWdsaW5lBHRtX3BwdHkDYXVueg--/SIG=14600t3ni/**http%3A//au.rd.yahoo.com/mail/tagline/creativeholidays/*http%3A//au.docs.yahoo.com/homepageset/%3Fp1=other%26p2=au%26p3=mailtagline Moq_Discuss mailing list Listinfo, Unsubscribing etc. http://lists.moqtalk.org/listinfo.cgi/moq_discuss-moqtalk.org Archives: http://lists.moqtalk.org/pipermail/moq_discuss-moqtalk.org/ http://moq.org.uk/pipermail/moq_discuss_archive/
