Thank you, the weather's better now, it really was alarming for Azure. We're being a lot more careful. It's difficult here being trapped in asphalt but then it's difficult for everyone we know in this country, which is tending towards a pandemic apocalypse according to some authorities. This is what happens when you have a deeply uneducated and easily swayed electorate. I remember decades ago when a study was done - asking people what they thought of the Bill of Rights - and the majority thought it was a communist manifesto... love, Alan, hope you're doing well
On Mon, Jun 29, 2020 at 4:25 AM Edward Picot via NetBehaviour < [email protected]> wrote: > Alan, > > That's a very frightening thing. My son Ray had seizures about ten years > ago when he got a fever and a very high temperature in the night. It was > really scary: I can imagine how alarming it must have been for Azure - > but he's never had them again. Take it easy, stay as cool as you can, > and drink plenty of fluids. I hope the thunder you mention at the end > means that the weather's turning a bit cooler now. > > Edward > > On 29/06/2020 00:07, Alan Sondheim wrote: > > > > > > Seizure, > > > > night, insomnia, cactus, day, seizure > > > > http://www.alansondheim.org/torso1.jpg > > http://www.alansondheim.org/torso2.jpg > > http://www.alansondheim.org/torso3.jpg > > http://www.alansondheim.org/cactus1.jpg > > http://www.alansondheim.org/leg1.jpg > > > > (0 minutes ago) dictated > > > > Last night things started. I couldn't sleep I went out into the > > main room and I used a very old camera to take images of my body > > in an awake state and the anxious state and I did this using > > infrared. These are a few of the shots of the body. This morning > > I woke up anxious again. Azure and I went out later and decided > > to take a walk. The temperature was over 80 degrees and the > > humidity was through the roof. We walked for about a mile or mile > > and a half and then came back. By the time we came back I was > > really dizzy. We went upstairs and I started getting cramps and > > eventually sat down on the couch. I felt I couldn't breathe. > > Things started swimming around. I wasn't able to focus. Then I > > don't remember anything. Azure told me that I had had a seizure > > and for a minute or two minutes I had passed out. She kept > > asking, Can you hear me? Can you hear me? I woke up while she was > > calling 9-1-1. I asked her to hang up; I didn't need a doctor or > > an ambulance. I don't want to deal with the city. Besides, I was > > coming to. She was distraught. For me, I had no recollection of > > anything. She told me that my eyes were open and unfocused and > > widely dilated. My eyes were rolling back in my head. She told me > > that when I tried to speak that I was unable to speak but my lips > > were moving oddly and my hands both hands seem to be trembling > > with a kind of palsy. When I pulled out of it as I said I think I > > could not remember anything at all. We didn't know what to do as > > it was extremely upset. I had a blankness that's all I just had a > > blankness. She then called a relative of mine who had been a > > nurse and ask her about it and we realized that I had a seizure > > related to being overcome by the heat that it was heat-stroke. > > This is the first time this has ever happened to me. It was > > frightening. Azure was crying. I was shaking and scared. > > Eventually I lay down on the couch and had a lot of liquids and > > I'm okay now. I lay back on the couch and used an ice pack as > > well. But the thing is that a moment or it's a small interval of > > my life completely disappeared. I never connected it with > > covid-19. It's not related. It's related to bad heat and > > storminess and anxiety. It's related to depression. I also took > > my temperature my oxygen level and my pulse.. Everything was > > normal just as it should be. But this also indicates for us or at > > least for me how difficult it is to even try to function to a > > little bit normally in these times. I wasn't really able to go > > outside the way I would have liked to. We walk through parking > > lots. We avoid people. If we see somebody without a mask we cross > > to the other side of the street. If we see people who look > > problematic to us we cross to the other side of the street. We > > did a lot of that we always do a lot of that. So it's not a > > comfortable walk in green space it's a problematics walk in > > concrete space spaces of concrete spaces that are basically a > > wasteland basically wastelands. I worry about this because my > > anxiety level is increasing exponentially. I envy people with > > yards. I envy people who have access to trails or parks nearby. > > We can get in the car and go somewhere but that's always a > > difficulty. There's nothing right here right around us that gives > > us a sense of comfort. I worry that my life will become > > increasingly a set of blanks a set of forgetfulness a set of not > > recognizing things I said of walking around not knowing what I'm > > doing. This seems to be happening to everyone. But what I hadn't > > seen before was this absolute blankness. This seizure. This time > > of absence. Not forgetfulness. This time of nothing at all. Those > > images from last night reflect this. Infrared to tell me nothing > > about what my body was doing or thinking. Last night I sank into > > the couch. Today I sank into the couch. It's an older couch now. > > You sink into it you can't really sit upright in it. It becomes > > one of the centers of the room. There's not much else to do > > except stay indoors. I play music I go online I make art I write > > text I like to think of myself as smart. I like to think of > > myself as writing smart text. But in the middle of all of this it > > just seems useless. And for all I know I or you reading this may > > be passing out. In the middle of dictating this. In the middle of > > reading. > > > > -- dictated Sun Jun 28 18:35:52 EDT 2020 -- > > > > thunder out now > > > > ___ > > > > _______________________________________________ > > NetBehaviour mailing list > > [email protected] > > https://lists.netbehaviour.org/mailman/listinfo/netbehaviour > > > _______________________________________________ > NetBehaviour mailing list > [email protected] > https://lists.netbehaviour.org/mailman/listinfo/netbehaviour > -- *=====================================================* *directory http://www.alansondheim.org <http://www.alansondheim.org> tel 718-813-3285**email sondheim ut panix.com <http://panix.com>, sondheim ut gmail.com <http://gmail.com>* *=====================================================*
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