Maybe, I wouldn't visit me if I wasn't getting paid to. I have no friends
from before my accident and very few relatives. Most are busy with their own
lives. I have made attempts to make more contact and I find we have very
little in common. I've always been leary of women that play up to me as I'm
not pretty or very talkative. I have had aids for very long times that seem to
fall off the Earth when they quit. I don't stalk or search for people that
know where I'm at. I'll leave two messages and stop trying if they aren't
answered. I send xmas cards to about 30+people and recieve about 10. I have
tutored and mentored children for over 15 years and they don't visit.
I use to visit a rehab hospital near here and frankly, they don't seem to
want to stay in touch either.
It's a good thing that I enjoy my privacy. I don't think I'd trust any
woman that wanted me as a soul mate or lover. I don't believe in one and I'm
awfull at the other. My sister thinks it is sad that this computer is my best
friend. I'm thankfull for a best friend.
Maybe life isn't the flow of social epiphanies that folks watch on
TV.
I'd like to find one person that was just happy with being around me. I'm
not a sad person inside. I like who I am deep down. I just hope to find
someone to hold my hand when time has run out.
Whatever happens I intend
to live my life on terms that make me comfortable. I love a lot of you folks
but I doubt I'll visit you. When I pray (yes Liberals pray) I mention you all.
I think I have dug my own cave on the slippery slope. Lonliness is a time I
try to use for learning but, yes, I do feel alone.
I understand what each of you have said and I wish you all peace of mind
and just one person you can love in this life.
john
In a message dated 5/4/2006 2:37:25 PM Eastern Daylight Time,
[EMAIL PROTECTED] writes:
Aint that the truth!
Mark
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Message-------
Date: 05/04/06
10:03:44
Subject: Re:
[QUAD-L] Living alone and the future- slippery slope
WIN THE LOTTERY------EVERYONE WILL CALL AND SHOW
UP
LOL
Dan-
[EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote:
Living as a quad, one is always on a slippery slope.
One learns in time that being pro-active vs reactive is just part
of being a quad as others do not know on a minute by minute basis, how
you are doing that day. When living in a chair,
friends are not going to stop by and say lets go for a
ride. (like they can transport your chair in their cars)
So survival means learning to be pro-active and making the
calls. "I'll meet you at......... "
just might be your means of meeting others. Granted, it
takes time. It won't happen overnite.
Best Wishes
W
In a message dated 5/4/2006 8:34:46 AM Central Standard Time,
[EMAIL PROTECTED] writes:
Everybody always tells me that we need to get together and I tell
them to give me a call but they never do.
Jim |
