Hi Lori Ann,
Welcome to the Quad-List. The fact that you are here tells me that you're a fighter, so don't give up the fight. Being addicted to pain meds before your SCI makes the fight harder but not impossible to win against. Your brain will create more pain for every new pain med you use. That's not to say the pain isn't real because it is very real. I'm sure you know all this, but it is true. It sounds like you may need to clean the meds out of your system so your mind can start to fight your pain that it has created. It's tough battle but never give up the fight because we'll always be here to help you fight it.
With Love,
CtrlAltDel aka Dave
C4/5 Complete - 30 Years Post
lori <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote:
Hi,
My name is lori ann and I'm a C-6 complete, just over 13 months post. My
biggist problem is PAIN,PAIN,PAIN!
It is so severe it colors every aspect of my life and I know it has held me
back from recovering some independence in my life.
I was in a car accident on my way to the meth clinic, where I was trying to
beat an addiction to prescription pain meds, that was completely out of
control.
I was being treated for chronic pain.boy if I'd have only known
what was in store for me!!!! Now we can't find a pain med that comes close
to even touching the pain. It's so ironic too, 'cause the pain keeps getting
worse and worse. Everyday I'm astonished at the intensity. You just can't
prepare yourself against it. I'm very depressed, I wish I wouldn't wake up,
I'm ready to die..
Being a quad though, I'd have to have someone assisst me with suicide. I'm
almost ready to ask my fiancee' of 12 1/2 years if he would do it. I don't
think he would, though. Even if I begged.
I have all kinds, the hellfire burning, which for some reason is getting A
LOTworse., I Also have shoulder and hip and knee pain.but the biggest worse
pain I have is in my buttocks. It is SO severe that I can't stay in my
chair for more than 4 hours at a time. Even in bed I have to be rolled onto
my side, and then my shoulders and hips ache. And that's in an air
mattrress. I try to work through the pain, it just wears me down,
Here's what meds I take for pain:
3900 mgs neurontin split in 4 doses
120 mgs methadone a day
70mgs of baclofin a day (for spasms, which I never had, dr.tells me it
helps w/pain) does it?
1mg klonopin 3 x day
75 mgs trazodone at bedtime ( to help me sleep though the pain) hah!
Well, I've whined enough, just wanted to get it out, thanks for listening
and any suggestions greatly appreciated,
Hi, again everyone,
Lori ann
