Glad your taking SCI in stride, being so young when you were injuryed must
be hard. I was 42 when I broke my fool neck, so I had a lot that you've
missed.
Stay strong! Silas
----- Original Message -----
From: "Angelique Novak" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]>
To: <[EMAIL PROTECTED]>; "Quad List" <[email protected]>
Sent: Saturday, July 08, 2006 10:55 AM
Subject: [QUAD-L] Quality of Life and SCI ~~ Huh?
I would've rather, (by far), lived the life I feel was stolen from
me by a negligent man. Being a normal adolescent would've been fun, I
think, and was something I wanted to experience, among the other
countless things. It was very difficult adjusting to this way of life,
(at times I felt I was just existing), especially when I saw people my
age living their lives.
After a lot of emotional anguish for many years, (occasionally I hit
a patch of that, still), I've finally somewhat accepted being damned.
However, I make the best out of each day. It feels better to not dwell
on everything that's wrong, missed, my future, etc. That's helped.
Before my nephew was born, my mindset was very stagnant. I didn't
care about living, and was completely ok with the thought of my death.
Even though I've lived with my parents since the injury, (I was 13), and
they have every intention of keeping me, (as long as they can, I've
thought about when they won't be able to, they don't discuss that, but I
have to think about it), times still got rough. Especially when I was
in bed for four months with two pressure sores. That was terrible for
all of us.
My sister and brother-in-law's son has greatly increased my
interest in living, and I want to stick around so he'll know me. Also,
the man who introduced me to this list means just as much to me. We
probably wouldn't have "met" if not for our SCI. Well, maybe. It
wouldn't have been very likely, but you never know.
Without my nephew, that wonderful man, and my family, I wouldn't
care if I died. I probably wouldn't try keeping myself around. I still
miss the life I should've had, but it's not all I think about anymore.
Maybe someday they'll figure out how to fix us. For now, I've got
reasons to stay.
-Angelique
