Folks,
I
have been on and off of Rangernet for almost 5 years now. I have been
out of Rangers for about 2 -3 years. I want to thank you for each and
every post that I have read. Because it has taught me that people can
have a difference of opinion, It can be strong, but at the same time through
Christ it will still be between those that believe in Jesus as their Lord
and Savior. The posts here really do speak of Love for Jesus, Love for
the boys and Love for a purpose that has no other meaning than to Reach,
Teach and Keep boys for Christ.
This morning I read the story of the bridge that
went out and about the Alleys. How the Lord had helped them and how
The Alleys were determined to let others know what Jesus did for
them.
I
have just bowed my head and rededicated my self to Christ. I have
asked him to use my hands in whatever he wants me to do. I have asked
him to use my mind to understand his word and will for my life. I have
asked him to use my heart to Love him again in a way that I could never
understand before.
I
before today, I have been questioning myself and God. I have been
trying to sort of push out God's existence so that my life can become
simpler. I was trying to live a normal life with no large scale
events, if you know what I mean.
Well, I guess when you are a Christian, you are not
a normal person living a normal life. Your decisions should come from
God and your existence is from God. I forgot that you really are in
the Army of the Lord. Brothers and Sisters on here please pray for
me. That I may now and forever do God's will in my life. That I
may become a responsible adult. That when I start something that I
will follow through with it. Not to get gung ho and then die out
in the middle of it.
I
have been a very wishy washy Christian of late. Not wanting to go to
Church.
Right now I wish I could go to Church and holler
about Jesus. To tell everyone that Jesus has rescued me. And
that He could rescue everyone else. If they would
Listen.
I
have not read my bible in a long time. You see I have head knowledge,
but I don't have heart knowledge. I can tell you numerous fact about
the stories in the bible. But I need to transfer that knowledge into
my heart. Please pray for me that the Lord would help my heart to
devour that knowledge.
I
wish to ask for forgiveness from everyone on Rangernet for anything that I
may have said to anyone in the past that might have hurt or bothered
them. If there is anyone from the Indiana District that is on
Rangernet, I apologize to them for not being a better Ranger Leader for the
District and Nationally.
I
also apologize to any of the boys on the Rangernet that I might have taught
at Eagle Creek. I wish I was a better leader and truly a better
friend. I did not have patience, understanding, love like I should
have.
I
had pride in my heart to the point where everything should have been done my
way because I was there the longest.
I
look and and see not Christ as the leader of Rangers at my Church, but just
myself, allowing Christ to come only when I deemed it was necessary.
Foolish pride.
I ask Jesus to reinvent me, to make me the man
he wants me to be, not the man that I want to be. To be the tool
of his desire, not the tool of my own desire.
I
thank you all for this Rangernet. I can see the desires and love of
your hearts. I can see your visions and dreams. I truly share
them with you. But for now my vision can be only of God and his
will. If Jesus decides to place Rangers upon me again. That
is his will. If not, that is his will. No longer will my visions
and dreams be my own. They will come from God first, and with his
blessing , his dream and vision will be carried out by
me.
I
thank you again. I ask the Lord to give you all a double portion of
his blessing. And when the pow wows and Camparama is over, I ask that
the Lord will make it a time of renewal for all of you.
Thank You,
Scott Tobman
formally of Eagle Creek AOG
Indiana District.
