Alluring Shivaratri Spectacle of Yesteryears
by Ms. Janet Bock Bicker
I was born in Los Angeles, California on November 24, 1941. My father was
an immigrant from a timber producing region of Northern Sweden, where he was a
founding member of a men's choir. Music was his great love. Although I never
learned to speak his native language, I did develop an ear for 'foreign' sounds
that later helped me learn to sing bhajans in Telugu and Sanskrit. My mother's
family were also immigrants, and they farmed in the state of Nebraska. Both
sides of the family belonged to the Lutheran Church, and although my parents
mainly attended church on the holidays, they took my younger brother and me to
Sunday school every week. I inherited my father's love of music and, after
beginning piano lessons before my fifth birthday, I went on to eventually earn
a Bachelor's degree in piano performance from the University of California at
Santa Barbara. While at college, I also studied voice and participated in
choirs, plays, operas and musical comedies. The summer before my Senior year I
was part of a group of sixteen students selected to travel for two months to
Japan, Korea, Okinawa and Taiwan to entertain American military troops and
local college students.
The trip had many elements I later began to recognize as part of a karmic
path to my later focus on Ahimsa (non-violence). The flight across the Pacific
coincided with an atmospheric test firing of Starfish Prime, one of the largest
hydrogen bombs ever detonated by the United States; I found myself the
overnight guest of a lovely family in the Japanese city of Hiroshima, site of
the World War II atomic bomb explosion which destroyed the city and many of its
people; in Korea I stood at the southern boundary of the Demilitarised Zone
between North and South and, unbeknownst to me at the time, our group performed
at a military base just miles away from the place where my older half-brother
had been killed during a battle in the Korean War.
After graduation I was offered a job with an American university which
provided college courses for American military stationed in Europe, the middle
east, North Africa, and both East and West Pakistan. For two and a half years I
worked as an assistant for logistics in offices in Heidelberg, Germany. I
traveled by military train to Berlin, and through the Berlin Wall at Check
Point Charlie to East Berlin. Driving alone in my little green Volkswagen, I
visited Sweden, France, Austria, Switzerland, Italy and, in one three week
trip, I drove through Communist Yugoslavia and Bulgaria to Turkey and Greece.
A book inspired by a discourse by Bhagawan in the year 1978, on
the
years Jesus spent in India
Upon returning to Southern California, I discovered the wonders of the
Vedanta Temple bookstore and became absorbed in accounts of the life of
Ramakrishna and the writings of Swami Vivekananda. I found a job at Liberty
Records and, after eighteen months, met Richard Bock who was producing records
of Pandit Ravi Shankar (Sitar maestro). Our common interest in things Indian
led us to a lecture given by Indra Devi where she told of her experiences and
showed black and white newsreel films of Bhagawan Sri Sathya Sai Baba. (You can
read about her first experience HERE) I had one photo and a few borrowed books
from Markell and Bob Raymer, who had just returned from travels in Africa as
part of Baba's party. Richard joined Indra Devi in India for Baba's forty-third
birthday in November 1968, and returned with eight millimeter film and the
recordings of Baba which became the LP entitled, 'Sathya Sai Baba Chants the
Bhajans'. We joined with Indra Devi to start the SAI Foundation in 1969 and
opened the Sathya Sai Baba Center of Hollywood in October that year.
My desire for Baba's darshan intensified until I chose to stop waiting
for others and go on my own. The following article describes my experience of
the two days of Shivaratri, 1970, during my month-long stay with Bhagawan.
After I returned, Richard and I married and went on to make extended trips and
more films about Baba, such as, His Life is His Message, Celebration, Aura of
Divinity, The Universal Teacher (Part 1, Part 2 & Part 3), The Endless Stream,
until Richard passed away in 1988. The Shivaratri account was later published
in 'The Jesus Mystery, Of Lost Years and Unknown Travels', which Bhagawan
inspired and blessed, about the years in Jesus' life between the ages of twelve
and thirty, which are not spoken of in the Bible.
Baba has continued to guide my life, through graduate school for a
Master's Degree in psychology, and through my twenty-five year marriage to
Dennis Bicker, my partner in the creation of the SAI Foundation film, audio and
photographic archive which now resides at Prasanthi Nilayam.
Baba once answered a question about how He knew so much about the
questioner with the words, "I know things about you which you do not know,
yet". (from Prasanthi, N. Kasturi, p. 71, 1985) My experience has been that not
only does Baba know things about us we do not know, yet, but He inspires us to
face the events in our lives and, when we do that, He leads us onward towards
their deepest meanings.
My final physical darshan of Bhagawan occurred when Dennis and I made our
'gratitude pilgrimage' in Nov. of 2010, just months before his Mahasamadhi. The
power of His glance was as strong and life-enhancing in 2010 as it was the
first time in 1970.
Excerpt from the book, 'The Jesus Mystery', pp. 176-180, by Janet Bock, Aura
Books, Los Angeles, CA. 1980.
Towards the end of my first week people began arriving for the festival called
Maha Shivaratri, one of the major holy days of the year. It is held all over
India on the day of the new moon between February and March. The dark of the
moon is important because the moon is recognized as the presiding deity of the
mind and, when it is full, the mind is rampant, hence the Western use of the
word lunatic. When the reflected light from the moon is reduced to a slender
arc the mind is calm and worldly tendencies can be more easily overcome through
spiritual practices. Each year this day and night are set aside for meditation,
fasting and singing the name of God.
At Prasanthi Nilayam, in Sai Baba's presence, Shivaratri takes on added
meaning. For many years a unique ceremony has taken place called the
Lingodbhava, at which time Baba brings forth the one or more lingams
materialized inside His body. These lingams have appeared as
elliptically-shaped stones of varying clarity and colour, sometimes as much as
three or four inches in length. They symbolize the manifestation of the
un-manifest, that moment when the infinite becomes finite in the form
recognized as the seed or egg out of which new life, in this case new spiritual
life, is born.
Bhagawan at Dharmakshetra, Mumbai, with Richard and Janet Bock
During an afternoon visit with Balbir she told me of the Shivaratri festival
two years earlier when Baba gave the lingam to her stepdaughter, Her Highness,
Maharani Prithivi Bir Kaur of Jind, whom she was expecting to arrive at any
time. Several things struck me about Prithivi when we met, her name in Sanskrit
meaning earth or world, primarily her great vitality expressed through an
impish wit, a pair of dark flashing eyes and a beautiful smile. It seems
strange even now to think that someone like myself from a working class family
in Southern California could have much in common with someone raised as royalty
in an exotic Eastern land, but soon we were talking and laughing, sharing past
joys and sorrows like a pair of reunited college roommates.
The first function of the festival day was the ceremonial flag-raising from the
top of the mandir, followed by the Vibhuti Abhishekam in the rectangular
pavilion with open sides called the auditorium. I had responded to a call for
volunteers to help with the festival crowds, and after two days of chopping
vegetables in the canteen and sweeping the grounds with a short handled broom,
I was now positioned in the auditorium on the ladies' side of the centre aisle,
about ten rows from the front with instructions to see the crowds did not push
forward.
(Left) Early morning Shivaratri Darshan followed by flag raising (right)
with flower petals dropping as the flag unfurls
The auditorium filled up for the morning ceremony and still more people came. I
saw Prithivi on the outside and signalled for her to join me. She managed to
pass through the crowd and I inched over to give her the seat on the aisle. The
bhajan leaders began to sing. All eyes held to the spot where Baba was to
enter. It was then my emotional catch-basin began to overflow. The part of my
mind which was viewing the symbolism and pageantry, and trying to keep a
rational perspective, came face-to-face with something much more powerful. I
suddenly felt as well as saw the overwhelming outpouring of silent spiritual
energy generated between Baba and the immense crowd.
He appeared in the distance, walking slowly to the centre aisle, than back to
the far end of the pavilion, all the while turning from side to side, hands
raised in blessing. Tears began to flow and try as I might they would not be
stopped. The best I could manage was to pull the end of my sari up over my head
and wipe my eyes with the end of it.
Baba approached, His glance sweeping the crowds. Next to me, Prithivi was
hoping for some special recognition and I thought I would at least be there to
see it. I gave my eyes one last swipe with the sari and looked up as He stepped
past us, His glance taking in the vast numbers. Then, before I knew what
happened, His head turned and, for an instant His eyes riveted mine with a look
of undiluted power. As I felt the charge my emotion was transmuted into calm.
Prithivi, turning to me with a look of mock indignation, laughingly whispered,
"You gave me your seat and you got my look."
But there was no time to wonder or comment. Baba had reached the centre of the
stage and was standing next to a silver statue of Sai Baba of Shirdi. One of
the pundits was holding a basin of water and Baba had rolled up both of His
sleeves to the elbow and begun ceremonially bathing the statue before wiping it
dry.
Ceremonial bathing of the silver image of Sai Baba of Shirdi
Prithivi had prepared me for the possibility Baba might manifest some talisman
to place on the statue as He had done before. She had come prepared with a
small pair of binoculars and was watching His every move. At what seemed to be
a lull she handed them to me for a quick look. As I raised them to my eyes
Baba's hand began to move and as the statue came into focus I clearly saw
manifest in the space between the thumb and forefinger of His empty right hand
a small gold setting of eight deep red stones, surrounding a ninth stone in the
centre. As soon as it appeared Baba pressed it against the forehead of the
statue, where it remained. I immediately returned the binoculars.
Bhagawan manifests vibuthi from the previously empty vessel
Now Mr. Kasturi appeared holding an urn about eighteen inches tall. This was to
be the Vibhuti Abhishekam, the ceremonial bathing of the statue with ash to
symbolize the ultimate state of all physical matter.
The empty urn was upturned over the statue. Nothing happened. Then Baba
inserted His right hand into it and Vibhuti began to flow and flow and flow.
The ash first covered the statue, then the base it rested on, and finally was
even streaming into the audience; the lucky ones in front hurriedly collecting
it, while the rest of us inhaled its fragrance.
When, after several more minutes, the soft, sweet-smelling ash seemed to be
everywhere and Baba's arms and robe were white with it, He raised His right
hand to the audience, smiled and disappeared through the back curtain. When the
audience realized He had gone, there was a wave-like motion rising and pressing
toward the stage, with all of us carried in its wake.
Throughout the ashram a sense of gathering prevailed, like the mainspring of
some enormous timepiece, the universe itself perhaps. Buses had arrived in the
night and whole villages had walked for miles. Shivaratri is also a day for
silence and fasting, so instead of the midday meal we rested and waited for the
birth of the lingam.
The evening function was to take place outdoors before a raised octagonal
platform called the Shanti Vedika, beautifully painted with scenes from the
Bhagavad Gita. It began with speeches by devotees. Then Baba spoke about the
unifying aspect of God at the core of each atom in the universe. He spoke also
of the elimination of the ego. He said:
The elimination of the identification with body and its needs, satisfiable
through the senses, is the main point of life. For you get the joy when these
needs are fulfilled; grief when they are not, anger when something comes in the
way, pride when you win over that opposition.
Bhagawan with various Shivaratri lingams
To eliminate the ego, strengthen the belief that all objects belong to God, and
that you are holding them on trust. This would prevent pride, it is also the
truth. Then, when you lose a thing you would not grieve. God gave, God took
away. Of course, you hear almost all.
Talking in this strain and advising this reaction. But very few follow that
advice themselves. This is the sin of all sins: saying one thing and acting
quite the opposite, denying in practice what you assert as precept.
After the speech was concluded Baba began to sing. A few minutes later He
coughed, then sat down. The bhajans leaders took up the chant. He sipped water
from a cup, occasionally wiping His brow. The spasms Baba was feeling were now
visible as His throat constricted again and again. Then, as He held a white
handkerchief in His outstretched hands we all saw a stream of light emerge from
His mouth. He caught it and held it up. It was the lingam. Opalescent, smooth,
lit from within, alive with the essence as well as the symbolism of Divinity.
Bhagawan distributes vibuthi on the ladies side
After the birth of the lingam devotees maintained an all-night vigil of bhajan
singing. At dawn Baba appeared for darshan and later in the morning He returned
to distribute the ash from the Vibhuti Abhishekam which had been wrapped in
small folded squares of paper by volunteers. Hour after hour He walked through
the curving rows of devotees seated in front of the prayer hall and everywhere
the ground was flat. I watched on and off during those hours. The immense
numbers of people no longer impressed me, what moved me was Baba, giving, hand
to hand, to the thousands who sat in silence. The sleeves of His robe were
rolled up to His elbows, perspiration was causing the fabric to cling to His
chest and back, as He moved relentlessly through the crowd. I had heard Him
say, "I am your servant." Now I saw this was true.
- Janet Bock Bicker
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