Wednesday, 8 July 2015
With great love comes great tests - lifetime experience of Sai Krishna_Part 2
The beginning of the slide
Sai Krishna spent the days after Guru Poornima in blissful contemplation of the
beautiful opportunities Swami had given him. The joy he derived from thinking
about those moments over and over again never seemed to decrease. On the
contrary, each time he relived the moments, the joy only seemed to increase!
That was the critical difference between worldly joys and divine joys, he
noted. While worldly joys reduce with the passage of time, divine joy seems to
increase and mature with time!
By now, the Ramakatha had got deeply embedded in Sai Krishna’s consciousness.
He could sing those songs, fully immersed in them and without bothering to look
at the lyrics. Each time he sang those songs, he realized the magical poetry
the lyrics contained. The repeated singing had made him transcend the level of
the lyrics and rhythm into the level of feeling and experience. Lost in this
bliss, everything else that was part of his daily schedule felt so mundane and
unimportant. But was his bliss permanent? Had Sai Krishna developed equanimity
which is the surest sign of a true devotee? Only time would tell.
{This is the second part of a compelling story. If you have come here directly,
it is advised that you return after reading the first part at:
<http://aravindb1982.blogspot.in/2015/07/with-great-love-comes-great-tests-sai-krishna-om-prasad.html>
With great love comes great tests - lifetime experience of Sai Krishna_Part 1 }
It was the 7th of August in 2005 and it seemed like any other day in Prasanthi
Nilayam. It was a Sunday and that meant two opportunities for darshan. Swami
arrived in the hybrid Porte car for darshan and, after completing a round of
the Sai Kulwanth hall, drove on to the stage. From there, He looked at Sai
Krishna who was seated in the first row. (Such was the regularity with which
Swami interacted with Sai Krishna and Om Prasad that they would have reserved
seating in the front lines. It was a win-win situation where Swami seemed to
get ‘magnetically pulled’ to these boys and in that process, the other students
too could enjoy darshan, sparshan and sambhashan of the Lord.)
Swami beckoned to him and Sai Krishna rushed on to the stage, to his Lord.
Swami lowered the window of the car and asked,
“Where is the other? Your brother...”
Sai Krishna turned back and realized that Om Prasad had still not arrived to
the mandir.
“Swami, he must be on his way...”
Swami nodded and sent him back.
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Sai Krishna and Om Prasad rush to Swami when He beckons to them from the stage
in Sai Kulwant hall
on the 7th of August 2005.
News travelled at the speed of light among the students. Even before Sai
Krishna returned to his place, a few lads had sped out of the hall in search of
Om Prasad. The Lord was waiting for him. Sure enough, in a few minutes, Om
Prasad was in the mandir. As soon as he came, he was made to wriggle through
the seated students to the second row. Swami saw that both the boys were there
and He called them on stage. He told them to sing some songs.
Sai Krishna was thrilled - another opportunity! The mikes were in place and the
musical accompaniment was also ready in a few moments. The duo began to sing
Telugu songs which Swami had enjoyed a lot on previous occasions. The tune and
rhythm were perfect. The feelings in Sai Krishna’s heart were also at their
pinnacle. However, there was a difference in the Divine Script today. In
between a song, Swami just moved away from the stage, into the interview room!
This had never happened so far with Sai Krishna. He had not seen Swami get up
and go midway when he had been singing. It was apparent that Swami was upset
over something because, after a few minutes, a messenger came out of the
interview room and told the two lads to stop singing. After that, the evening
progressed as usual with bhajans at the stipulated time. Sai Krishna did not
understand what happened that evening. But it changed everything in a moment.
It reduced Sai Krishna from a ‘crown prince’ to a banished outlaw!
A fall that hit very hard
Everything came to a standstill from that day. Swami began to ignore Sai
Krishna completely and he was at a loss to understand why. He continued to
sincerely do all that he had been doing so far. His top priority was still
Swami and he religiously practiced all songs regularly. Yet, Swami did not even
acknowledge his existence, forget asking him to sing! Till that moment, Sai
Krishna had almost felt that Swami belonged only to them. Now, he felt that
everyone else except him belonged to Swami.
Notice that the word ‘him’ and not ‘them’ has been used in the previous
statement while talking about exceptions. This is because, in what could be
considered as a sprinkling of salt on love-wounds, Swami continued to speak to
and interact with Om Prasad as though nothing had happened. Sai Krishna seemed
to be the sole target of the cold shoulder! It was an unbearable agony for a
heart that thought it had offered itself completely at the lotus feet. From
that day onwards, everything seemed to slow down infinitely. The days seemed so
much longer. Nothing excited nor even interested Sai Krishna. He was a big heap
of sorrow and he secretly shed tears daily hoping that things would change.
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Once you enjoy a special place in your God's heart, you do not want to ever be
in any other place in the Universe.
Not knowing what to do, one day Sai Krishna opened up his heart to Prof. Anil
Kumar. The professor was Swami’s translator and often served as a friend,
mentor and guide to students like Sai Krishna who were in distress. He
patiently heard him out and then revealed a few exquisite diamonds from the
vast treasure of his experience with the divine. He asked Sai Krishna,
“What is it that you have done that Swami started speaking to you? Is it that
you are a great singer? Remember that there are hundreds out there who are much
better than you and are just yearning to sing in His presence.
<http://aravindb1982.blogspot.in/2013/11/no-reason-or-season-for-love-Sathya-Sai-Love-is-my-form.html>
There is no reason for His love. There is no reason why He showers love on
you. There is no reason for the seeming withdrawal of that love. God is beyond
reason. The moment you try to bind Him with reason, you will find yourself
woefully short of the logical rope! Surrender and prayer are the only two
things that can melt Him and I suggest that you adopt those.”
It is often said that with great power comes great responsibility. With great
love comes great tests! What then to say of Divine Love which is the pinnacle
of love? However, it should be remembered that these tests are not ‘conducted’
with the intention to ‘fail’ or ‘demote’ a soul. Though they might appear
painful, they are for the soul’s ‘promotion’ and ‘advancement’. This was Sai
Krishna’s realization too as the ‘cold treatment’ progressed - that with God,
the body and mind might seem to suffer but the soul is always given top
priority and taken care of! But this soul wisdom came at a great cost to the
body and mind.
Sai Krishna began the tough practice of surrender and prayer. It took a while
to understand
<http://aravindb1982.hubpages.com/hub/A-dialogue-on-Surrender-with-Swami> the
true meaning of surrender which is often mistaken as offering everything of
ours to Swami. He spent days in this manner which turned into weeks. The weeks
turned to months and still there was no respite. The academic year came to a
close in April 2006 but nothing had changed between the devotee and the Lord.
Another Kodaikanal visit - without Sai Krishna this time
The intensity of pining in Sai Krishna’s heart had grown to an all-time high
and he wanted nothing else in life but Swami. The summer vacation started but
he did not go home. Prasanthi Nilayam was his home and Swami was his everything
now. The air was filled with news of Swami’s impending departure to Kodaikanal.
Unlike the previous year, Sai Krishna had not stayed back for the vacation to
get an opportunity to accompany Swami to Kodai. He did not have even the least
of expectations about that. He had stayed back because that is the only thing
his heart wanted to do - seek Swami.
The ‘selection’ process had begun and everyday, the list of students to
accompany Swami was being changed and fine tuned. The 9th of April was the
D-Day when all the selected students would be notified of their good fortune.
Sai Krishna was seated at the back in the bhajan hall, his new ‘usual place’
for the last few months. A student walked and beckoned to him.
“Come, sit in the front.”
“You are talking to me?”
“Yes, Sai Krishna, you!”
He simply obeyed and went to the front.
In a few minutes, Swami came into the bhajan hall. He began to speak to the
students seated in the front about Kodaikanal. It was evident that this was the
group that would be accompanying Him. Swami spoke to almost all the students.
The word ‘almost’ has to be used because He didn’t speak to Sai Krishna. Those
sitting to his left got spoken to, those to his right got spoken to, those in
front of him and behind him also got spoken to. Swami did not even look at him!
Sai Krishna’s heart was ripped out of its place! He wondered why he had to be
called to the front at all. He just began to cry. That was when another student
came to him and said,
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Nearness to Swami does not actually guarantee dearness to Him!
It is dearness that all of us must seek.
“Get ready to take off for Kodaikanal.”
“I am not going there. Swami did not select me.”
“You are selected brother. See this...”
Sai Krishna saw ‘The List’. His name was indeed there. He would be going to
Kodaikanal after all!
It was the 9th of April 2006 when Sai Krishna boarded the aircraft at the
Prasanthi Nilayam airport along with the other students - including Om Prasad.
Soon, Swami was also in the flight. He walked up and down the aisle blessing
all the students. That was when Sai Krishna had a horrible realization. He
noticed that though Swami walked and talked with all students, he had been
ignored. He wanted to get up and apologise to Swami for whatever had irked Him.
Even as the thought entered his head, Swami turned and glared at him for two
seconds. Sai Krishna slunk back into his seat. He felt that the Kodai trip
would be more salt and chilli powder on his traumatised heart. He wondered
whether it would have been better had he not made it to The List because though
he was going to Kodai, he would not be experiencing what Kodai stood for!
The river’s struggle to find merger in the sea
His fears proved to be true and Swami’s cold shouldering continued. Sai
Krishna’s heart was now refusing to beat as per norm. He felt that either Swami
should accept him back or he could as well drop down dead because what was life
without Sai? Every moment in the trip, his thought was only Swami. He did not
join the others as they reveled in the choicest of foods that was being served.
Nor did he enjoy the outings and picnics. His heart would not find solace till
it could get Swami. Swami alone was the solution and the panacea for everything
now. Unknown to himself, Sai Krishna had developed the equanimity of Lord Rama
- the greatest of sorrows didn’t touch him; the greatest of pleasures did not
interest him. And it had happened because Swami had become the whole and sole
aim for him!
It was on the 11th of April that the unforgettable, magical moment took place.
The bhajans had just concluded and Swami was speaking to all the boys. Sai
Krishna, as usual, was seated at the back. Swami spoke looking at everyone else
except him but what He spoke was meant for Sai Krishna more than anyone else.
As Sai Krishna heard with bated breath and gratitude in his heart, Swami
showered words of strength and consolation via an analogy. He said,
“Sometimes I do not talk to the boys. They think that it is punishment. But it
is not. I never punish anyone. I only test. I do it for a purpose. I am never
angry with anyone. When the river wants to merge with the sea, it struggles.
The sea does not give in so easily. It wants to test the determination of the
river. However, after a lot of struggle, the sea gives way and the river merges
with the sea. That part of the river which gave up, eventually becomes the
backwaters.”
Sai Krishna’s heart now screamed out,
“Swami, I will never be backwaters. I will lose my existence by merging with
you. Please welcome me as I struggle to find that merger.”
But the struggle was not over yet. After the discourse, Swami asked for songs.
Everyone began to sing, one by one. Even Om Prasad was picked by Swami to sing
a song. After all but Sai Krishna had sung, Swami sat silently as if waiting
for something. From deep within, Sai Krishna could hear his Lord tell him,
“Now, my child... The time is now.”
The sea does not welcome the river. The river just keeps ramming itself into
the sea till the sea is touched and moves up to receive it. Swami would not be
inviting Sai Krishna to sing. But by now, the currents of love and devotion had
transformed into a swirling flood within Sai Krishna’s heart. He needed no
invitation. He spoke aloud,
“Swami, I will sing a Telugu song.”
“What?”
“A Telugu song...”
The Sea seemed to acknowledge the force of the river. What happened next is
history.
The magical moment of merger
Sai Krishna began to sing. All the love pent up in his heart flowed through a
beautiful song, the lyrics and meaning of which is given below. Before that,
rather than describe what happened, I shall present the video of that
unforgettable moment.
<https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B-8dtYa6Ox0&feature=player_embedded>
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B-8dtYa6Ox0&feature=player_embedded
O nestama Priyamaina bandhama Premaku roopama maa andari praanama
O My friend, my most cherished relation, you are the very embodiment of love
and the very life
O Nestama..
Gadiche prati kshanam neetone gadapaalani
We yearn to be in your company in every moment that passes by
Memu vine padaalanni nee maatale kaavalani
And every word be yours in all that we hear
Maa loni talapulanni neeku vivarinchaalani
With a desire to express all that encompasses our thoughts
Kriyalanni kartake ankitam cheyyalani Vechi vunnamu ee rojukai
We have been waiting to dedicate every act unto the creator
O Nestama…..
Jeevana Venuvulo mohana raagam palikinchi Prati manasulo nee prema sudhalu
ponginchi
Fill our lives with your sweet divine music (To translate literally, Life here
is symbolized with a flute – Jeevana Venuvu) and as every heart overflows with
your love
Anandamutho divi bhuvi pulakinchaga…maataladava..
In this beautiful moment when the earth and sky rejoice …..wont you speak to me?
Even as he sang the line, “Won't you speak to me”, Sai Krishna realized that
Swami had already spoken to him, several times during the song itself!
Closing thoughts
Nothing else needs to be said but Sai Krishna deserves the final word.
“Finally the sea let the river merge. And in that session Swami gave me the
opportunity to sing about seven songs. All the pain, the days of suffering, the
hunger, the sadness, everything had vanished. It was just that one moment.
I miss Him a lot even today. But I know that I need to yearn like I yearned
then. I need to be desperate for His love. I need to be focused to connect to
HIM. I am sure that one day, again, He will fill the void and fill it in such a
manner that the days and months of agony of missing him would vanish. He knows
how to stretch, when to stretch and exactly how much to stretch. I might think
I will break. But then He will never let that happen. Either He gives more
elasticity or He will embrace at once.”
sourced:
<http://aravindb1982.blogspot.in/2015/07/O-nesthama-best-friend-sai-krishna-best-experience.html>
http://aravindb1982.blogspot.in/2015/07/O-nesthama-best-friend-sai-krishna-best-experience.html
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Often we feel that we are ill-treated or disrespected by others. Why does it
happen? How can we avoid such situations? Bhagawan reminds us today.
Today’s Sai Inspires from Prasanthi Nilayam, Wednesday, July 8, 2015
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Everyone is liable to make mistakes without being aware of it. However bright a
fire may be, there will be smoke emanating from it. So also, whatever good a
person might do, there will be a minute trace of evil. Make every effort to
ensure that the bad or evil is minimised, and good is maximised. You may not
succeed in the first attempt. Carefully think over the consequences of whatever
you do or talk. In whatever way you want others to honour you, love you, or
behave with you, in the same way you should first behave with others, and love
and honour them. Then they will reciprocate. Instead, without you honouring or
loving others, if you complain that they are not treating you properly, it is
surely a wrong conclusion. Those who advise others about true and good conduct
must follow the advice themselves. Then there is no need for advice, others
would simply learn the lesson by example.
- Prema Vahini, Ch 63.
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is the surest means of winning divine grace. BABA
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Talk by Sri Tribhuvan Sachdeva at Dharmakshetra Mumbai on June 28th 2015
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<https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AD4M9nOKM10> Swami Message to Chithra Narayan
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