-Caveat Lector- Dear List, Below please find the url for this radio interview transcript. This may be heavy for survivors of abuse. Sincerely, Neil Brick excerpt from http://www.geocities.com/Area51/Shadowlands/6583/project192.html "WM: When you were receiving these memories, how did they come back? In different senses, or how did your memories come back to you? KS: A lot of times I might hear a sound that wasn't in the room and I recognized that because it wasn't in the room, that it was a sound memory starting to come up, or that part of a memory. Sometimes I would hear somebody talking to me ... my father or the voice of another person that a lot of times I could recognize from my childhood. Sometimes it would be a certain smell. Or I would be eating and all of a sudden the food looked extremely unappetizing. I had a lot of physical memories of being raped when nothing was happening physically at the current time, it was all body memory. I had a lot of visual memory and then I started having some recurring dreams. When I started writing them, and allowed myself to explore that part of what was coming up in my mind ... I would spend hours and hours ... sometimes half a day just sitting there and writing them up, and reliving them as I wrote, and believe me, that was not fun either. Even now, I can look back on a lot of that stuff, and go "wow" "yeah, this really did happen". It's been amazing. WM: What you are saying is that your father basically was carrying out trauma-based conditioning on you ... at what point did you become aware that this was being done for the purpose of mind control? KS: That again was in the summer of 1991. It wasn't until I remembered the government connection and remembered that I had been used as an assassin. I am fortunate on this in a way, because the memories came up and alter personalities came out before I was able to find information about these types of activities. I was feeling crazy when that stuff came out. I wanted to believe that I had made it all up, but I thought "omigosh if I made it all up", even subconsciously, then I am really crazy. It was a very difficult time. I went back and forth in denial a lot. When the information kept coming up, and the alter personalities kept coming out very consistently, I realized I couldn't keep denying it. If something that serious had been done to me and I had been used to do it, then I was in danger presently and the more I could accept this stuff, and accept the alter personalities and fuse with them, the better I would be aware of what was going on around me now." <A HREF="http://www.ctrl.org/">www.ctrl.org</A> DECLARATION & DISCLAIMER ========== CTRL is a discussion & informational exchange list. Proselytizing propagandic screeds are unwelcomed. Substance—not soap-boxing—please! These are sordid matters and 'conspiracy theory'—with its many half-truths, mis- directions and outright frauds—is used politically by different groups with major and minor effects spread throughout the spectrum of time and thought. That being said, CTRLgives no endorsement to the validity of posts, and always suggests to readers; be wary of what you read. CTRL gives no credence to Holocaust denial and nazi's need not apply. Let us please be civil and as always, Caveat Lector. ======================================================================== Archives Available at: http://peach.ease.lsoft.com/archives/ctrl.html <A HREF="http://peach.ease.lsoft.com/archives/ctrl.html">Archives of [EMAIL PROTECTED]</A> http:[EMAIL PROTECTED]/ <A HREF="http:[EMAIL PROTECTED]/">ctrl</A> ======================================================================== To subscribe to Conspiracy Theory Research List[CTRL] send email: SUBSCRIBE CTRL [to:] [EMAIL PROTECTED] To UNsubscribe to Conspiracy Theory Research List[CTRL] send email: SIGNOFF CTRL [to:] [EMAIL PROTECTED] Om
