Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
i’ll plan on having two breakfasts if i miss supper. thank you for your efforts of life.
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
i really liked the 3 meals a day influence when i was trying to gain wait and am holding this influence now. i seem to have some disconnection associated with engaging openai’s oppressive language models.
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
i’ve gotten used to eating 3 times a day and it’s time for supper but i don’t seem to be having it quite yet i am sorry for pooping in your list :S
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
> i have seriousness around how personal that is - > > Hi Karl - I didn't mean to offend you in any way. I was just expressing my > feeling to you. :) > > I have been dealing with pegasus attacks on my cell phone and not sure what > to do. Maybe I just need to dispose of it. I’m interested in this topic and am worried I could complicate a dangerous situation with my confused weirdness. I have a little technical experience near the area and imagine others who used to frequent this list have much more. I also have a very severe personal situation with issues with my devices.
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
i have seriousness around how personal that is - Hi Karl - I didn't mean to offend you in any way. I was just expressing my feeling to you. I have been dealing with pegasus attacks on my cell phone and not sure what to do. Maybe I just need to dispose of it. Your friend Rooty --- Original Message --- On Monday, February 27th, 2023 at 12:05 AM, Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many wrote: > > Could the feelings that you are experiencing that you are in love with me? > > I'm looking for a kind, caring and compassionate significant other - > > > it took me a bit to figure out what you were referring to. to clarify > here i meant the feelings plainly. it is mind boggling and scary and > needed and confusing to consider integrating a dissociated identity > formed in trauma. > > i have seriousness around how personal that is. if people plan to > influence me in that space i would strongly appreciate direct requests > so that i can manage my own experience there. > > i do appreciate your expressions of friendship. > > be well.
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
> Could the feelings that you are experiencing that you are in love with me? > I'm looking for a kind, caring and compassionate significant other - it took me a bit to figure out what you were referring to. to clarify here i meant the feelings plainly. it is mind boggling and scary and needed and confusing to consider integrating a dissociated identity formed in trauma. i have seriousness around how personal that is. if people plan to influence me in that space i would strongly appreciate direct requests so that i can manage my own experience there. i do appreciate your expressions of friendship. be well.
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i do love be8ng kind caring and compassionate i am again sad to have introduced a negativity
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thanks for your friendship and bossness rooty i need to look for significant others that i might spend time with physically i’m afraid. if you are working on any software projects this is also interesting as well. i have love for everyone but struggle to guide my body, thoughts, and behavior. what is your life like?
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
Sent with Proton Mail secure email. --- Original Message --- On Friday, February 24th, 2023 at 12:35 PM, Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many wrote: > rooty i wanted to thank you for the job it has been pleasant working for you > i spent a lot of time trying to find work like this this winter > > i would like to report that i have been eating 3 meals a day ever > since your request > > recently things have been changing for me. i’ve been finding bits of > therapy and starting to talk about things just a very tiny bit. not > sure if anyone is hearing it. > > but these tiny things like trauma-informed meditation and > self-resonance, or just starting internal family systems, they seem > able to really turn things upside down for me, it is like “woah” i > thought this would never happen, and i’m just vaguely at the start of > it. i don’t how to hold my parts or realities. in some ways, i’m not > taking as good care of myself. maybe because it’s surprising to learn > you’re someone different than you thought. habits and hypnotic > processes and past coping strategies seem to fall by the wayside some > as i adapt to these strange new feelings. i wish it was all more > transparent and forthright and rational and easy. i still need an > advocate and a deprogrammer. > > over the past few weeks i’ve been eating less regularly. sometimes i > have “3 meals a day” by having one meal twice in a row. > > today i had breakfast at lunchtime. my states of mind moved around > while writing this, which i didn’t quite expect, and now i’m not > certain i needed to send it. hope you are all well. > > likely i might have two suppers tonight to sort the 3/day goal out. > part of me is frustrated. thinking of quitting the job and working on > my own for a bit. the coldest parts of winter seem over but i never > got my weight up much. it’s been fun though! really really inspiring! > > rooty was a good boss to give me this work > > On 12/31/22, ytooR arpsp...@proton.me wrote: > > > Hi Karl - please continue to eat three meals a day and not to many carbs. > > Glad you are eating now and feel better - > > > > Your boss rooty > > > > --- Original Message --- > > On Thursday, December 29th, 2022 at 7:57 AM, Karl Semich 0xl...@gmail.com > > wrote: > > > > > I have been eating recently. > > > > > > I have not yet eaten today. > > > > > > I would like to eat more frequently. > > > > > > Things have been more confusing and I am still adjusting. That's great news Karl. In order for anyone to survive we all need to eat. Could the feelings that you are experiencing that you are in love with me? I'm looking for a kind, caring and compassionate significant other - Be kind! Your friend Rootu
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
I want to relate that I need this job and will definitely keep performing the tasks. I am very sorry for my brief moment of complete insanity.
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
rooty i wanted to thank you for the job it has been pleasant working for you i spent a lot of time trying to find work like this this winter i would like to report that i have been eating 3 meals a day ever since your request recently things have been changing for me. i’ve been finding bits of therapy and starting to talk about things just a very tiny bit. not sure if anyone is hearing it. but these tiny things like trauma-informed meditation and self-resonance, or just starting internal family systems, they seem able to really turn things upside down for me, it is like “woah” i thought this would never happen, and i’m just vaguely at the start of it. i don’t how to hold my parts or realities. in some ways, i’m not taking as good care of myself. maybe because it’s surprising to learn you’re someone different than you thought. habits and hypnotic processes and past coping strategies seem to fall by the wayside some as i adapt to these strange new feelings. i wish it was all more transparent and forthright and rational and easy. i still need an advocate and a deprogrammer. over the past few weeks i’ve been eating less regularly. sometimes i have “3 meals a day” by having one meal twice in a row. today i had breakfast at lunchtime. my states of mind moved around while writing this, which i didn’t quite expect, and now i’m not certain i needed to send it. hope you are all well. likely i might have two suppers tonight to sort the 3/day goal out. part of me is frustrated. thinking of quitting the job and working on my own for a bit. the coldest parts of winter seem over but i never got my weight up much. it’s been fun though! really really inspiring! rooty was a good boss to give me this work On 12/31/22, ytooR wrote: > Hi Karl - please continue to eat three meals a day and not to many carbs. > Glad you are eating now and feel better - > > Your boss rooty > > --- Original Message --- > On Thursday, December 29th, 2022 at 7:57 AM, Karl Semich <0xl...@gmail.com> > wrote: > > >> I have been eating recently. >> >> I have not yet eaten today. >> >> I would like to eat more frequently. >> >> Things have been more confusing and I am still adjusting. >
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
On 12/31/22, ytooR wrote: > Hi Karl - please continue to eat three meals a day and not to many carbs. > Glad you are eating now and feel better - > > Your boss rooty Rooty is my boss. My assignment is to eat three meals a day right now.
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
Hi Karl - please continue to eat three meals a day and not to many carbs. Glad you are eating now and feel better - Your boss rooty --- Original Message --- On Thursday, December 29th, 2022 at 7:57 AM, Karl Semich <0xl...@gmail.com> wrote: > I have been eating recently. > > I have not yet eaten today. > > I would like to eat more frequently. > > Things have been more confusing and I am still adjusting.
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
I have been eating recently. I have not yet eaten today. I would like to eat more frequently. Things have been more confusing and I am still adjusting.
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Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
I have drank water and eaten :) It is such a big change.
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This building has lost power. The wifi I am emailing from has a small backup battery.
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I displayed my two emails to my laptop webcam and I am feeling less suffering after doing that. I also sat up, which impresses me. I am still thirsty. I would like to stand up and find water. Although honestly it is nice right now just to be happier and less scared!
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
It's 0440 on Dec 3. I am thirsty and would like to get water. I suspect I last ate Dec 2.
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
I have not eaten nor drank water nor moved much recently today. I am pretty scared. It feels different. It was hard to get to this email. It’s hard to imagine calling for help. I’m not sure where my phone is either.
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
I ate a lot of food. I am stuffed. Thank you.
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
i’m having some trouble eating again. i last ate a couple days ago. my weight is still 144 and i am six feet tall. it was higher earlier though, i had a good stretch. i’m really tense and having my issues worse, after telling some things to a new therapist whom i’m traveling to and from some distance to see, and trying to read the handbooks for my potential internship regarding learning to teach wilderness skills. i’ve canceled the internship to ease the pressure. the therapist is the first one i’ve started seeing specific for the larger category of experiences i have. it feels like most of this severe tension may be from this. right now i am in a dissociated coping state where i am carefully managing myself to not stimulate experiences similar to a psychotic break or a seizure or a ptsd flashback. i’d just like to have a meal, and after sharing this i think i can. thank you,
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
Thank you for the encouragement!
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Great news Karl. Try and eat 3 meals a day and get some excersise --- Original Message --- On Friday, October 14th, 2022 at 3:51 PM, Karl Semich <0xl...@gmail.com> wrote: > to responsibly follow up: i had an extra meal after posting this !
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
to responsibly follow up: i had an extra meal after posting this !
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
i am happy that i have been eating. as winter comes i would like to eat more than just 1 meal a day. i’d like to have 3 meals on some days, and at least 2 on most. i’m 149 pounds and i think a good winter weight would be maybe 168 .
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
On 8/25/22, Maria Brown wrote: > > Glad you able to eat Karl. We have all been so worried. it seems to help me eat to share when i struggle this list sure has changed. i’m part of that, it seems
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
Glad you able to eat Karl. We have all been so worried. --- Original Message --- On Wednesday, August 24th, 2022 at 10:39 AM, Karl Semich <0xl...@gmail.com> wrote: > i had food after posting this :)
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
i had food after posting this :)
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
didn't eat anything yesterday
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On 7/27/22, Karl Semich <0xl...@gmail.com> wrote: > food yum clarification: i have had food, i am attempting to responsibly update the thread. did not realise was unclear.
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
food yum
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
Repeating that I have not eaten since two days ago, and it is hard to move to eat.
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
I did not eat yesterday. [I am also training the patch generation "code fudge" in a slow way.] It is hard to move away from the "code fudge".
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
I got hungry around 548 this morning in a way where i followed through and began pursuing breakfast. This happened again while I was working with arweave erlang code. By the time i had made food, a lot of my hunger had left, but i kept on anyway. 3 meals in 3 days. 1 meal a day is sufficient, I think, so maybe I'll assume i'm good so long as i keep having breakfast.
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
I am having breakfast. 2 meals in 3 days !
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On Thu, Jun 9, 2022, 4:58 AM Karl Semich <0xl...@gmail.com> wrote: > 2022-06-09: I am having a meal and I expect to continue having them > for now. Thank you. > I did not have further meals after this. I had two spoonfuls of food later yesterday. The inhibition is associated with just thinking about taking a shower of any kind.
Re: [ot][spam][crazy] karl has stopped eating food
2022-06-09: I am having a meal and I expect to continue having them for now. Thank you.
