I don't really have
the answers or self medication wouldn't be my answer. I don't know really Rick,
I've never had the support of a coherent group of people backing me up. I've
been all alone here in NOLA for the past fifteen, until I found some Buddhists,
but I really don't care about group practices any longer at this point except as
a retreat. Rick, I have to make that transition someday to a straight spiritual
type who represents what he stands for without weaknesses. But yes, the
unboundedness is a big problem, but more of a problem is the dire necessity to
be able to function successfully when I don't feel like it, against all odds.
Like 'All That Jazz.' But in a few years the pressure might ease a bit as I
reach the top scale of my profession here in the city. Yes, I need too learn to
integrate. But needing to and doing it are two different things. I don't
integrate very well, which is why I picked up the other techniques and practices
that I do, they help. Chanting helps alot I find, after meditation. And so
on.
If it wasn't drugs
it would have to be sex. Excercise never did work for me for grounding. I
am seriously pitta so grounding equals dulling out.
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Title: Unboundedness