[NetBehaviour] Shadows, Viola, Migraine and Phenomena

[Alan Sondheim via NetBehaviour]

Shadows, Viola, Migraine and Phenomena

https://youtu.be/Ai88iK6X5Eo VIDEO

Shadows by Azure Carter, viola by Alan Sondheim

Eyes clothed/closed; this is hardly the result I was looking
for, attempting to sleep again, breathing to one hundred and
then that was slowly and then that came again to an end,
nothing. So I began to notice disturbances in the visual field
in the dark, and they grew into the usual migraine patter, that
backwards-C shape that accompanies them, but then something
else, a satellite appeared, fuzzy growth to the right of the C
but clearly disconnected, wherever I looked, all of this, seemed
to me clearly not retinal, somewhere deeper in the brain, and
odd that the patterns take on the structure of a wave-front,
quite clearly, with interference, hence the  zigzag which seems
to indicate a seconary waveform or higher harmonic, but perhaps
not harmonic; perhaps the large  C shape is a carrier wave and
the rest lies in the details. So these spawned tonight the
secondary shape which was less formed, less clarified, but
nonetheless a presence like the other. No explanation. I still
have the "heavy" feeling in the midst of the migraine's ending,
almost that pressure. I can't get rid of all this ddebris,
wondering if it's also connected to age as so many things are.
I'm at a loss but I'm sure these aren't the visions of a saint,
no matter who says what. I wonder if these are the results of
waves "pooling," almost eddied within the brain, what in
turbulence theory were once called "animals," and also related
to fractal organizations considered as "dumps" or some such.
Clearly I'm ignorant here, but the signs are so absolutely
clear, so present... The phenomena came, by the way, after the
slow hundred count, hoping that would send me somewhere else, to
seep, hopefully without dreams of family, past, anxieties,
untoward events, nightmares, for I have had many of the last,
but at least on that account, the worsst of them, what were
nameless and blank and black and dread, have disappeared. They
were emptied upon wakening, by which I mean that nothing was
left of the content, not a clue, nothing at all... Eyes open
now, content dissipated, too early in the morning, worn.

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