The Long https://youtu.be/zbndUZBzNdc video Typing eyes closed: I try to convey what this form of covid feels like, everything in slow motion, odd sleep, odd anxiety, amazingly happy I can continue working. In the background of the video is an image of the qifteli or cifteli, this one an unusual 3-string instrument, I believe Albanian with an eagle pickguard. It's a bit rough in the making, but not bad and the frets are accurate. I try to convey the 'mood' or whatever I'm in pretty much all the time, not moving slowly, but having to focus, which isn't impossible at all, but behind it there's an absolute despair, just as on the surface, but penetrating, there's a joy in these long improvisations, even though mistakes may be made... it's a steading pulsation for me, a continuous murmur, humming and changing constantly, but not too much, i never know whether to capitalize the I or not, or whether it matters. long covid apparently has moments of imminent and black fatigue, i have that, it's random, i lie down for a while, maybe even an hour, day or night, then back to work, to thinking, to the joy of being with Azure, to walking somewhere which oddly affects the cycle and things are normal and happy for the outing, and so forth. i write this because everything i read about long covid talks in fragments, incompletions, the only thing that characterizes it, like perhaps a Duras film, is duration, and it may or may not go away, and treatments are localized, temporary, experimental, problematic. i think of it as the body's exhaustion with itself, as if a deep neutrality with the world settles in, but for me, the energy is there, the creativity, the nervousness, the obsessiveness, the working until i can't any longer, the care with shaping whatever it is i'm working on, no matter how many times i have to start again, the audio/visuals accompanying the writing or the writing accompanying the audio/ visuals, the writing gathers itself, turns inward, convolves, churns, something else, the mind at work with language itself, the stuff of it, and i hope i have something to say in these months and months, already these seven months of care above all, not Heidegger's, but ordinary care, daily care, and I thank Azure and my friends so much for that, as i we continue to collaborate, i'm never finished with anything, i'm never .. .. .. 7c7 Typing eyes closed: I try to convey what this form of covid --- Typing eyes closed: I try to convey what this forom of covid 10c10 video is an image of the qifteli or cifteli, this one an unusual --- video is an image of the gifteli or cifteli, this one an unuusal 12c12 It's a bit rough in the making, but not bad and the frets are --- It's a bit fough in the making, but not bad and the frets are 23c23 hour, day or night, then back to work, to thinking, to the joy --- hour, dayr or night, then back to work, to thinking, to thejoy 28c28 characterizes it, like perhaps a Duras film, is duration, and it --- characterizes it, like perhaps a Dura film, is duration, and it 31c31 exhaustion with itself, as if a deep neutrality with the world --- exhuastion with itself, as if a deep neutrality with the world 35c35 matter how many times i have to start again, the audio/visuals --- matter how many times i mave to start again, the audio/visuals 1c41 not Heidegger's, but ordinary care, daily care, and I thank --- not Heideggers, but ordinary care, daily care, and I thhank ___ _______________________________________________ NetBehaviour mailing list NetBehaviour@lists.netbehaviour.org https://lists.netbehaviour.org/mailman/listinfo/netbehaviour
