Re: OT: Can't sleep

[Jeffery Johnson | Photo Captures by Jeffery]

I hope so John. I can't go into a lot of detail here but still having 
issues with some persons. So stressed that I am starting to get a sick 
head ache.


On 4/29/2020 6:55 PM, John wrote:

On 4/29/2020 01:58:01, Jeffery Johnson | Photo Captures by Jeffery wrote:
Tried to go to bed but tossed and turned as I have a lot on my mind. 
For the past week or so been going through stuff. I am packing up 
what I will be taking and placing into storage. I at times have to 
stop cause something will bring back a memory and even if it is a 
happy one I start crying.  It feels like it was just yesterday I was 
packing up our stuff from a home we were in for 22 years for the move 
down here and then unpacking and getting our new home settled. Just 
wish we could reverse 2020 and choose a different 2020. I will be 
moving in with my brother and his wife for a bit until I get back on 
my feet again. I am hoping I can afford a small to medium sized home 
to buy instead of renting as I don't want to deal with a chance the 
rent goes up. Maybe I will be able to get out with my camera more 
than I have for several months. Still stressing over monies and still 
miss my late partner every single day.


Well I have rambled on long enough... Thanks for reading ...

Jeffery




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Re: OT: Can't sleep

[John]

On 4/29/2020 01:58:01, Jeffery Johnson | Photo Captures by Jeffery wrote:
Tried to go to bed but tossed and turned as I have a lot on my mind. For the 
past week or so been going through stuff. I am packing up what I will be taking 
and placing into storage. I at times have to stop cause something will bring 
back a memory and even if it is a happy one I start crying.  It feels like it 
was just yesterday I was packing up our stuff from a home we were in for 22 
years for the move down here and then unpacking and getting our new home 
settled. Just wish we could reverse 2020 and choose a different 2020. I will be 
moving in with my brother and his wife for a bit until I get back on my feet 
again. I am hoping I can afford a small to medium sized home to buy instead of 
renting as I don't want to deal with a chance the rent goes up. Maybe I will be 
able to get out with my camera more than I have for several months. Still 
stressing over monies and still miss my late partner every single day.


Well I have rambled on long enough... Thanks for reading ...

Jeffery




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Re: OT: Can't sleep

[ann sanfedele]

Jeffery - eventually you will be able to cope and lapse into fond 
remembrances - but you will undoubtedly always remember him.. I'm still 
"in touch" with Richard though it has been 27 years.


Travel helps but Xanax helps even more... even a small amount.. I'm sure 
you could get a prescription for the generic.. especially in these days 
of COVID.


Best,
ann

On 4/29/2020 12:21 PM, Jeffery Johnson | Photo Captures by Jeffery wrote:
The morning he passed on I laid down on the couch for a bit to get a 
few hours of sleep. I had a dream of him waiting in a line and holding 
a teddy bear that I had gotten him for his birthday and I was standing 
in another line across the way watching. Then I woke up and went in to 
check on him. Oh me my dear friend was not there any more. He had 
gotten to where he didn't want to attempt to even get out of bed. His 
last time at the hospital they set up hospice to come to our house as 
to keep him from having to go back and forth to the hospital. Again I 
know he is not in any discomfort now but I will be very very selfish 
and say I still want him here with me.


On 4/29/2020 11:11 AM, Paul Stenquist wrote:
I think the signs you will experience will be subtle and general and 
will encourage you to pursue a brighter future. My wife died as I 
held her hand after 44 years of marriage. I was crushed at the 
thought of losing her but relieved that her pain and suffering had 
come to an end. I think her spiritual presence guides my actions. Of 
course after so many years, her psyche is part of mine. By moving 
forward I am carrying on for both of us.



On Apr 29, 2020, at 11:51 AM, Jeffery Johnson | Photo Captures by 
Jeffery  wrote:


Thanks Paul. I was up until 6 this morning and laid down for a few 
hours. We were together for 30 years. I am still talking to him even 
though he isn't physically here and either I am not noticing the 
signs he is sending but as he laid in non-responsive in his final 
days I asked him to send me signs.

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Re: OT: Can't sleep

[Jeffery Johnson | Photo Captures by Jeffery]

The morning he passed on I laid down on the couch for a bit to get a few 
hours of sleep. I had a dream of him waiting in a line and holding a 
teddy bear that I had gotten him for his birthday and I was standing in 
another line across the way watching. Then I woke up and went in to 
check on him. Oh me my dear friend was not there any more. He had gotten 
to where he didn't want to attempt to even get out of bed. His last time 
at the hospital they set up hospice to come to our house as to keep him 
from having to go back and forth to the hospital. Again I know he is not 
in any discomfort now but I will be very very selfish and say I still 
want him here with me.


On 4/29/2020 11:11 AM, Paul Stenquist wrote:

I think the signs you will experience will be subtle and general and will 
encourage you to pursue a brighter future. My wife died as I held her hand 
after 44 years of marriage. I was crushed at the thought of losing her but 
relieved that her pain and suffering had come to an end. I think her spiritual 
presence guides my actions. Of course after so many years, her psyche is part 
of mine. By moving forward I am carrying on for both of us.



On Apr 29, 2020, at 11:51 AM, Jeffery Johnson | Photo Captures by Jeffery 
 wrote:

Thanks Paul. I was up until 6 this morning and laid down for a few hours. We 
were together for 30 years. I am still talking to him even though he isn't 
physically here and either I am not noticing the signs he is sending but as he 
laid in non-responsive in his final days I asked him to send me signs.

On 4/29/2020 10:40 AM, Paul Stenquist wrote:

So sorry for your loss. I lost my partner five years ago, and I understand the 
traumatic decisions that follow such a tragedy. I believe that thehe “where do 
I go from here” questions eventually work themselves out. And while nothing can 
replace a beloved partner, there is always a new path somewhere on the horizon. 
Stay strong and carry on!

On 29/04/2020 06:58, Jeffery Johnson | Photo Captures by Jeffery wrote:

Tried to go to bed but tossed and turned as I have a lot on my mind. For the 
past week or so been going through stuff. I am packing up what I will be taking 
and placing into storage. I at times have to stop cause something will bring 
back a memory and even if it is a happy one I start crying.  It feels like it 
was just yesterday I was packing up our stuff from a home we were in for 22 
years for the move down here and then unpacking and getting our new home 
settled. Just wish we could reverse 2020 and choose a different 2020. I will be 
moving in with my brother and his wife for a bit until I get back on my feet 
again. I am hoping I can afford a small to medium sized home to buy instead of 
renting as I don't want to deal with a chance the rent goes up. Maybe I will be 
able to get out with my camera more than I have for several months. Still 
stressing over monies and still miss my late partner every single day.

Well I have rambled on long enough... Thanks for reading ...

Jeffery



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Re: OT: Can't sleep

[Jeffery Johnson | Photo Captures by Jeffery]

Thank you Christine.

On 4/29/2020 11:08 AM, Christine Aguila wrote:

Very sorry for your loss, Jeffery.  Christine


On Apr 29, 2020, at 12:58 AM, Jeffery Johnson | Photo Captures by Jeffery 
 wrote:

Tried to go to bed but tossed and turned as I have a lot on my mind. For the 
past week or so been going through stuff. I am packing up what I will be taking 
and placing into storage. I at times have to stop cause something will bring 
back a memory and even if it is a happy one I start crying.  It feels like it 
was just yesterday I was packing up our stuff from a home we were in for 22 
years for the move down here and then unpacking and getting our new home 
settled. Just wish we could reverse 2020 and choose a different 2020. I will be 
moving in with my brother and his wife for a bit until I get back on my feet 
again. I am hoping I can afford a small to medium sized home to buy instead of 
renting as I don't want to deal with a chance the rent goes up. Maybe I will be 
able to get out with my camera more than I have for several months. Still 
stressing over monies and still miss my late partner every single day.

Well I have rambled on long enough... Thanks for reading ...

Jeffery


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Re: OT: Can't sleep

[Paul Stenquist]

I think the signs you will experience will be subtle and general and will 
encourage you to pursue a brighter future. My wife died as I held her hand 
after 44 years of marriage. I was crushed at the thought of losing her but 
relieved that her pain and suffering had come to an end. I think her spiritual 
presence guides my actions. Of course after so many years, her psyche is part 
of mine. By moving forward I am carrying on for both of us.


> On Apr 29, 2020, at 11:51 AM, Jeffery Johnson | Photo Captures by Jeffery 
>  wrote:
> 
> Thanks Paul. I was up until 6 this morning and laid down for a few hours. We 
> were together for 30 years. I am still talking to him even though he isn't 
> physically here and either I am not noticing the signs he is sending but as 
> he laid in non-responsive in his final days I asked him to send me signs.
> 
> On 4/29/2020 10:40 AM, Paul Stenquist wrote:
>> So sorry for your loss. I lost my partner five years ago, and I understand 
>> the traumatic decisions that follow such a tragedy. I believe that thehe 
>> “where do I go from here” questions eventually work themselves out. And 
>> while nothing can replace a beloved partner, there is always a new path 
>> somewhere on the horizon. Stay strong and carry on!
>>> On 29/04/2020 06:58, Jeffery Johnson | Photo Captures by Jeffery wrote:
 Tried to go to bed but tossed and turned as I have a lot on my mind. For 
 the past week or so been going through stuff. I am packing up what I will 
 be taking and placing into storage. I at times have to stop cause 
 something will bring back a memory and even if it is a happy one I start 
 crying.  It feels like it was just yesterday I was packing up our stuff 
 from a home we were in for 22 years for the move down here and then 
 unpacking and getting our new home settled. Just wish we could reverse 
 2020 and choose a different 2020. I will be moving in with my brother and 
 his wife for a bit until I get back on my feet again. I am hoping I can 
 afford a small to medium sized home to buy instead of renting as I don't 
 want to deal with a chance the rent goes up. Maybe I will be able to get 
 out with my camera more than I have for several months. Still stressing 
 over monies and still miss my late partner every single day.
 
 Well I have rambled on long enough... Thanks for reading ...
 
 Jeffery
 
 
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Re: OT: Can't sleep

[Christine Aguila]

Very sorry for your loss, Jeffery.  Christine

> On Apr 29, 2020, at 12:58 AM, Jeffery Johnson | Photo Captures by Jeffery 
>  wrote:
> 
> Tried to go to bed but tossed and turned as I have a lot on my mind. For the 
> past week or so been going through stuff. I am packing up what I will be 
> taking and placing into storage. I at times have to stop cause something will 
> bring back a memory and even if it is a happy one I start crying.  It feels 
> like it was just yesterday I was packing up our stuff from a home we were in 
> for 22 years for the move down here and then unpacking and getting our new 
> home settled. Just wish we could reverse 2020 and choose a different 2020. I 
> will be moving in with my brother and his wife for a bit until I get back on 
> my feet again. I am hoping I can afford a small to medium sized home to buy 
> instead of renting as I don't want to deal with a chance the rent goes up. 
> Maybe I will be able to get out with my camera more than I have for several 
> months. Still stressing over monies and still miss my late partner every 
> single day.
> 
> Well I have rambled on long enough... Thanks for reading ...
> 
> Jeffery
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[Jeffery Johnson | Photo Captures by Jeffery]

Thanks Paul. I was up until 6 this morning and laid down for a few 
hours. We were together for 30 years. I am still talking to him even 
though he isn't physically here and either I am not noticing the signs 
he is sending but as he laid in non-responsive in his final days I asked 
him to send me signs.


On 4/29/2020 10:40 AM, Paul Stenquist wrote:

So sorry for your loss. I lost my partner five years ago, and I understand the 
traumatic decisions that follow such a tragedy. I believe that thehe “where do 
I go from here” questions eventually work themselves out. And while nothing can 
replace a beloved partner, there is always a new path somewhere on the horizon. 
Stay strong and carry on!

On 29/04/2020 06:58, Jeffery Johnson | Photo Captures by Jeffery wrote:

Tried to go to bed but tossed and turned as I have a lot on my mind. For the 
past week or so been going through stuff. I am packing up what I will be taking 
and placing into storage. I at times have to stop cause something will bring 
back a memory and even if it is a happy one I start crying.  It feels like it 
was just yesterday I was packing up our stuff from a home we were in for 22 
years for the move down here and then unpacking and getting our new home 
settled. Just wish we could reverse 2020 and choose a different 2020. I will be 
moving in with my brother and his wife for a bit until I get back on my feet 
again. I am hoping I can afford a small to medium sized home to buy instead of 
renting as I don't want to deal with a chance the rent goes up. Maybe I will be 
able to get out with my camera more than I have for several months. Still 
stressing over monies and still miss my late partner every single day.

Well I have rambled on long enough... Thanks for reading ...

Jeffery



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Re: OT: Can't sleep

[Paul Stenquist]

So sorry for your loss. I lost my partner five years ago, and I understand the 
traumatic decisions that follow such a tragedy. I believe that thehe “where do 
I go from here” questions eventually work themselves out. And while nothing can 
replace a beloved partner, there is always a new path somewhere on the horizon. 
Stay strong and carry on!
> 
> On 29/04/2020 06:58, Jeffery Johnson | Photo Captures by Jeffery wrote:
>> Tried to go to bed but tossed and turned as I have a lot on my mind. For the 
>> past week or so been going through stuff. I am packing up what I will be 
>> taking and placing into storage. I at times have to stop cause something 
>> will bring back a memory and even if it is a happy one I start crying.  It 
>> feels like it was just yesterday I was packing up our stuff from a home we 
>> were in for 22 years for the move down here and then unpacking and getting 
>> our new home settled. Just wish we could reverse 2020 and choose a different 
>> 2020. I will be moving in with my brother and his wife for a bit until I get 
>> back on my feet again. I am hoping I can afford a small to medium sized home 
>> to buy instead of renting as I don't want to deal with a chance the rent 
>> goes up. Maybe I will be able to get out with my camera more than I have for 
>> several months. Still stressing over monies and still miss my late partner 
>> every single day.
>> 
>> Well I have rambled on long enough... Thanks for reading ...
>> 
>> Jeffery
>> 
>> 
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Re: OT: Can't sleep

[Pat Temmerman]

Be well. Stay strong.

On 29/04/2020 06:58, Jeffery Johnson | Photo Captures by Jeffery wrote:
Tried to go to bed but tossed and turned as I have a lot on my mind. 
For the past week or so been going through stuff. I am packing up what 
I will be taking and placing into storage. I at times have to stop 
cause something will bring back a memory and even if it is a happy one 
I start crying.  It feels like it was just yesterday I was packing up 
our stuff from a home we were in for 22 years for the move down here 
and then unpacking and getting our new home settled. Just wish we 
could reverse 2020 and choose a different 2020. I will be moving in 
with my brother and his wife for a bit until I get back on my feet 
again. I am hoping I can afford a small to medium sized home to buy 
instead of renting as I don't want to deal with a chance the rent goes 
up. Maybe I will be able to get out with my camera more than I have 
for several months. Still stressing over monies and still miss my late 
partner every single day.


Well I have rambled on long enough... Thanks for reading ...

Jeffery




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[Daniel J. Matyola]

I am again sorry for your loss.  It may be painful at times, but keep the
good memories of times with your partner alive.  It will help you go
forward.
We all are here when you need to vent, and we will pray for better times
for you.

2020 sucks, doesn't it?

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On Wed, Apr 29, 2020 at 1:58 AM Jeffery Johnson | Photo Captures by Jeffery
 wrote:

> Tried to go to bed but tossed and turned as I have a lot on my mind. For
> the past week or so been going through stuff. I am packing up what I
> will be taking and placing into storage. I at times have to stop cause
> something will bring back a memory and even if it is a happy one I start
> crying.  It feels like it was just yesterday I was packing up our stuff
> from a home we were in for 22 years for the move down here and then
> unpacking and getting our new home settled. Just wish we could reverse
> 2020 and choose a different 2020. I will be moving in with my brother
> and his wife for a bit until I get back on my feet again. I am hoping I
> can afford a small to medium sized home to buy instead of renting as I
> don't want to deal with a chance the rent goes up. Maybe I will be able
> to get out with my camera more than I have for several months. Still
> stressing over monies and still miss my late partner every single day.
>
> Well I have rambled on long enough... Thanks for reading ...
>
> Jeffery
>
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[Jeffery Johnson | Photo Captures by Jeffery]

Coty,

Thank you. It hasn't been easy at all and many a time I just wanted to 
give up and to be honest some days I still do but I am trying my best to 
take it one day at a time.


Jeffery

On 4/29/2020 3:56 AM, Steve Cottrell wrote:

Jeffery

Pain is something we all go through at one time or another - it's part of human 
life unfortunately. The only certainty is that coming out of it on the other 
side, you *can* be stronger and learn to cherish the memories - and learn from 
the mistakes. I know I did!! The thing that keeps us all going is not giving 
up, not relinquishing hope and optimism for the future. Follow your heart !

Strength, friend. Take care.





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Jeffery

Pain is something we all go through at one time or another - it's part of human 
life unfortunately. The only certainty is that coming out of it on the other 
side, you *can* be stronger and learn to cherish the memories - and learn from 
the mistakes. I know I did!! The thing that keeps us all going is not giving 
up, not relinquishing hope and optimism for the future. Follow your heart !

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[Jeffery Johnson | Photo Captures by Jeffery]

Tried to go to bed but tossed and turned as I have a lot on my mind. For 
the past week or so been going through stuff. I am packing up what I 
will be taking and placing into storage. I at times have to stop cause 
something will bring back a memory and even if it is a happy one I start 
crying.  It feels like it was just yesterday I was packing up our stuff 
from a home we were in for 22 years for the move down here and then 
unpacking and getting our new home settled. Just wish we could reverse 
2020 and choose a different 2020. I will be moving in with my brother 
and his wife for a bit until I get back on my feet again. I am hoping I 
can afford a small to medium sized home to buy instead of renting as I 
don't want to deal with a chance the rent goes up. Maybe I will be able 
to get out with my camera more than I have for several months. Still 
stressing over monies and still miss my late partner every single day.


Well I have rambled on long enough... Thanks for reading ...

Jeffery


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