Hello again,
In my struggle to understand and accept the fact that Scully is no longer around I have discovered a few things that give me comfort. Maybe this will comfort others too.
Cats are apparently notorious for hiding pain. I read somewhere that the stronger the bond between a cat and it's owner -the harder they will try to cover up any pain. Then I think about Scully in her last week with me. Despite the fact that she was quickly fading - she tried hard to be herself. She would continue to follow me around as always and to sit up on top of me. How loyal can you get? Reading through the archives there are countless stories of kitties in their last moments - it sounds as if every one of them fought hard to show you that they were okay the best that they could. That says a lot about how loved and how loving these kitties were.
I also take comfort in the fact that she would not have survived more than a year had I not taken her from the situation she was in. Maybe sticking around so long was her way of saying thanks for giving me a chance.
When I think of the past 9-10 years I couldn't imagine a better sidekick. She was with me through very rough times and very stressful times- both financially and emotionally. It has only been these past 3 years that I have really gotten things together. I met my husband and things have been stable for the first time in a very long time (if not in my life). I think that it was maybe part of her mission - to be a loyal and loving sidekick until I got it together. It's almost like she knew things would be fine with me now and she could go. When I think of the fact that Scully stuck around for 10 years - probably fighting more than I'll ever know I feel I was so lucky to have had her. I know humans that are not as loyal.
I know some people who think that it's crazy to spend your $, time or affection on "just a pet". It is also comforting to read through these emails and know that other people see the value and friendship that a furry family member provides. Also, that there are cats out there, pos. or neg., that are being so loved and cared for.
Thanks for listening. I had to get these thoughts off my chest. My husband works out of town all week and is only home on the week-ends.
Susan
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