Thank you On Sunday, December 28, 2014, <dlg...@windstream.net> wrote:
> I HAV GONE THROUGH THE BLAMING MYSELF TOO. YOU CANNOT BLAME YOURSELF FOR > DOING ONLY WHAT YOU KNEW TO DO. iT WILL NOT HELP lANCELOT, BUT YOU HAVE > LEARNED WHAT NOT TO DO AND WHAT TO DO. THE NEXT BABIES THAT COME INTO YOUR > HANDS WILL BENEFIT FROM THIS LESSON LEARNED. EACH TIME WE GO THROUGH > SOMETHING LIKE THIS, WE LEARN AND FUTURE CATS WILL BENEFIT FROM THAT > KNOWLEDGE. YOU KNOW AT LEAST, THAT HE IS NOW AT PEACE AND OUT OF PAIN. > DON'T BEAT YOURSELF UP TOO MUCH. IT DOESN'T HELP. I KNOW, BEEN THERE, > DONE THAT. WILL KEEP YOU IN MY PRAYERS AND YOUR SON. > > ---- Kat Parker <korruptaki...@gmail.com <javascript:;>> wrote: > > *Once upon a time, almost 4 years ago, I was fostering for a group, which > > incidentally had major problems later, called Guardian Angels. I was > also > > indie fostering myself, for cats from Downey high kill shelter in LA. I > > had recently pulled a mama with 3 babies that had raging URI, newborn > > kittens with pneumonia, and sadly lost two, though through the magic of > the > > nebulizer, one kitten, Kiwi, and Mama Goldie were saved. Mama was > > despondent for her babies gone, and Guardian Angels brought me two > babies, > > different litters. One, Angelina Jolie, was one day old. The other, who > > we named Mimi, was one week old. The woman who brought them to me said I > > should put them with Goldie to see if she would accept them I did. > Now, I > > am a very experienced bottle feeder, and I could have bottle fed them > both, > > and I did supplementally bottle feed them, but Goldie was so happy, and > > cared for the babies all so well, and it was quite a sight those three > all > > nursing. I will NEVER AGAIN place untested babies on an unrelated > nursing > > mom, again. Never. As you can guess, one of the babies was FeLV+, > > unbeknownst to us. About a month later, I took a cat who was about 8 > weeks > > old from Downey, who came with the name, Precious (we called her Isis, or > > just "the buzzsaw"),and that same week, GA brought me the saddest bunch > of > > siblings I had ever seem, pulled by our San Diego firefighters out of a > > well, during a rainstorm. From what I understand, somebody, apparently, > > had been walking in the rain, and heard some little frantic "mews" from > > somewhere nearby. Investigating, they found a covered well, with water > > rising to the top,and kittens inside. The fire dept responded and freed > > the kittens, turning them over to GA, and then to me. These babies had > > muck everywhere, and fleas on parts of their bodies you couldn't even > see, > > just overrun. I have pictures its amazing. But, these were some of the > > friendliest most endearing kittens I've ever had here, and it wasn't > long > > before the two black sisters were adopted out, through GA. Then, the > little > > Mimi kitten got really sick and tested positive for FeLV, finally > > euthanized at 8 weeks old. I tested all of the cats, then, and none who > > came into contact with her were positive. I didn't know much about the > > disease then. Boy, I do now. Well the orange boy, Stinky Lancelot, and > > Angelina Jolie as well as Isis were going to Rescue House, a terrific > local > > rescue org here, and they have wonderful protocol there, and tested all > > three kittens. Sadly, this time, two were positive, Isis neg. Isis was > > kept iso'd at their vet for an entire month to retest and be sure. > Stinky > > and Angelina came home, and didn't get into RH, although they did pay for > > retest in them, at 60 days, just to be sure they didn't "turn" negative, > as > > so many do. Isis stayed negative, as did Mama Goldie, and Angelina > Jolie, > > my little miracle baby, who later got FIP and died in my arms at a vet, > at > > 8 months old and Stinky Lancelot stayed positive. Stinky went to live > with > > my mom, who had no other animals then, after her 21 yr old rescued > Peekaboo > > kitty passed, and was a perfect fit. What a ham, what a life! My son > also > > lived there during this time, and the two became best friends. Two weeks > > ago, Stinky went to my vet as he was not feeling well, and had like > little > > pools of blood inside the bottom of both his eyes. Bloodwork was done, > > and it was found that he had raging leukemia cancer, severe anemia, with > > his white cell count, especially leukocytes, right through the roof. As > > this progressed, quickly, I wanted to take him in to gently help him > pass, > > but my son was having such a hard time letting go, I wasn't able to. > > Finally, about 1 am dec 26th, David was pounding on my front door, > ringing > > the bell like crazy, and woke me. He said, "Stinky is doing bad, he's in > > lots of pain and gramma can't find the pain meds, help him!" So I drove > > there and got him through the night, and next morning we got in to see my > > vet early for euthanization. But when they tried to put a catheter in, > dr > > could find no veins at all. We had waited too long. Stinky was > completely > > blind with thick cataracts, and one eye was totally filled with blood, om > > the inside. He was in bad shape, and I was glad we finally were going to > > release him from the suffering. But because my Doctor could not find a > > vein, they could only sedate him while we were there,and had to wait > till > > we left in order to finish the euthanization, which I have a strong > > suspicion was by heartstick, as there really was no other way due to him > > being so emaciated and so far gone. My son wanted to hold him, and thus > > get some closure, but of course that was not possible and he is > distraught, > > still. All of us are very affected, him the most. He was the last of > > many beautiful lives destroyed by my decision to take the lazy way out > and > > allow the mom cat to care for my bottle babies. I will never forgive > > myself for that, and will advocate against it whenever I hear anyone > > considering it, or looking for a nursing mom. Goodbye dear Stinky > > Lancelot. You were so loved, during you short life here with us. You > are > > gone, but will never be forgotten, and the love will live forever. * > > > > > > > > > > > > *Love and Katnip, ~Kat~ =^,,^= **"I'm Kat > > Parker. I park cats."* > > * "Spay & neuter your neighbors... maybe THAT will fix the problem."* > > *"Keep your kitties INSIDE, 24/7, 'cause an inside cat is a SAFE & HAPPY > > cat!"* > > > > *http://www.facebook.com/kat.theCRITTERprotector > > <http://www.facebook.com/kat.theCRITTERprotector>* > > -- *Love and Katnip, ~Kat~ =^,,^= **"I'm Kat Parker. I park cats."* * "Spay & neuter your neighbors... maybe THAT will fix the problem."* *"Keep your kitties INSIDE, 24/7, 'cause an inside cat is a SAFE & HAPPY cat!"* *http://www.facebook.com/kat.theCRITTERprotector <http://www.facebook.com/kat.theCRITTERprotector>*
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