Jennifer
I am very sorry to hear that you had to say good-bye to Allie.
I think it's the hardest thing to do and as you said she was
ready I think you gave her love and she enjoyed her time with
you both. You will have found memories living in your hearts
and minds forever.
She will be watching over you both now as she jumps and plays
from cloud to cloud.
My heart goes out to you both
Carla
Message: 3
Date: Wed, 17 May 2006 11:38:07 -0700 (PDT)
From: Jennifer Ross <[EMAIL PROTECTED]>
Subject: Allie has said good-bye
To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org
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First of all, thank you all for all your prayers and good
wishes. You are an amazing group of people and Allie and I are
blessed to have had you in our lives.
As you know from my last post, we made the decision to help
Allie cross the bridge on Monday because she had declined so
much over the weekend. And I really think she was trying to
tell me no more (she hates vets, needles, pills, etc- always
has). It was probably also hard for her to be indoors as she
was always an outdoor cat
and loved everything about being outside. (She was quite the
hunter as well!)
So, I cherished Monday night and stayed up half the night
with her (for as long as she would sit and cuddle with me). We
sat in the big chair in the den together and watched Milo and
Otis (a movie about an orange cat and a dog- Allie was an
orange cat with white belly and paws). When Allie decided she
had had enough she jumped off my lap and almost fell over! One
of her back legs was hardly working- it broke my heart! It
almost looked neuro- and I definitely knew I was making the
right decision at that point. Allie was a very active cat-
loved to run around outside and hunt- she was never meant to be
incapacitated. (The vet told me later that the leg could have
been any number of things- a blood clot, menningitis, etc.-
with having both FELV and FIV you just never know)
I carried Allie upstairs and placed her on the bed where she
slept the rest of the night with me. Yesterday (Tuesday), her
back leg still wasn't working right and she was still sluggish.
She didn't want to cuddle and hid behind the couch most of the
day. We spent her last hour outside together walking around
the yard and going to all her favorite spots. She sat on her
favorite outdoor chair for a while feeling the sunshine and
breeze (and even a few raindrops!) I'm so glad she was able to
spend that time outside. I told her over and over again Monday
and Tuesday how much I love her and what a good kitty she is.
I told her I want her to be happy and not suffer anymore.
My husband and I brought Allie to the vet together for our
final good-bye. The vet was wonderful and explained everything
(since this is the first time we have had to do this it made a
big difference to know what was going to happen ahead of time).
I asked the vet to give Allie a sedative first since she
doesn't respond well to IV's, so she got a sedative and went to
sleep. Then at 4:30pm on Tuesday 5/16/06 Allie went to sleep
forever with me and my husband by her side. We stayed with her
for a while and I took a lock of her fur. She looked so
peaceful and I know she is in a better place now.
I know this was the right thing to do- she was really
suffering over the past few days, but it is still so hard. I
miss her so much! I have not been able to bring myself to put
away all the cat stuff yet. Last night my husband and I went
through old pictures of Allie and relived our favorite Allie
moments- there were so many!
So now it's one day at a time and one foot in front of the
other. I know I will continue to cry a lot and continue to
miss her terribly. But I know my baby girl is somewhere now
where there is no more suffering and she can run around and
chase mice, squirrels, birds, and rabbits all day long.
Thanks for listening!
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