The inadequate, a philosophical testament, part 4 http://www.alansondheim.org/P1010134.JPG http://www.alansondheim.org/P1010108.JPG http://www.alansondheim.org/P1010094.JPG we create /pockets/ are created. every ending has a gap called and culled divine. we leave our baggage there. rules develop. the gap is fecund with rules. rules are based on exclusions: not this, not that. remember this. rules are ordered disorder. order demands a potential, potential well. the fragility of order is the catastrophe. consider emptiness, absences, paradoxes, contradictions, riddles, discourses on negation, on emptiness, on the middle way, on ways veering through contradictions, on other ways, on paradoxes, on word play and plays, on believing because absurd. consider instead, in place of, adjacent to, in the neighborhood or vicinity, the inadequate as inhering in the world, chaotically glued to the world. the inadequate not as category, but as a diffusion, murmuring, the exhaustion of the vector open at one end, extending from an origin-original, opened as well, chaos at the origin, copy and duplicate, not quite, chaos elsewhere, failure of measurement, bad and unremembered dreaming, not dreams. i woke this morning with a realization that there is none such; i woke with words in my mouth; i woke with cotton in my mouth; the less i knew, the truer it was. 1 is a prime; is (4^(4^1000))-1? why bother with the calculation when 1,2,3 are satisfactory? it's my failure i won't have anything to do with this. i don't have enough time left in my life. my knowledge is inadequate; i don't have the proper skills, i'd fail at this now and perhaps would have failed at this then. i'm simply not smart enough. i would probably fudge things. fudging is an entanglement of circum- locutions. what does it matter; we all live in failure. we know nothing of godhead because there's nothing to know, and with this knowledge, we circumvent ignorance, failure, admitting the chaos of worlding into us. the koan is the outcome, as is believing because it is absurd. suture the inadequate, imbibe the idea of the numinous or holy, and you've capped it momentarily; failure turns into paradox, the white horse that is not white, three in one and one in three, the multiplicity, the one. once you have a gap, you have corrosion, the tensor splitting at the level or sign of multiple vertices, high-speed categories and arrows entangled with themselves and others, falling apart from fictitious holes and wholes. think of this as the _shrug._ the shrug exits between dismissal and walking away, between the admission of failure and the attitude of devil-may-care, between the admission of failure and getting on with it, between dismissal and abject apologetics, between apologetics and the back-handed admission of the uselessness of the spiritual, between feeling good and feeling anyhow, between the inadequate and bricolage, which is making the best of it and of course, of course [so this is what i was sort of thinking of i think last night but to be honest it might have been the night before last, and on top of that worried about forgetting what i'm doing and going over the way things seem to drop away as i get older, i mean it's just not the same as it was yesterday is it or was it, and there seems no end to it this way and probably any other] === === === culling, which comes from my childhood and family dynamics, undercutting whatever i attempted, making me realize the uselessness and ephemerality of the world. within the family, i was the 'wastrel and nincompoop' as my father proclaimed - never mind the anecdote. so i'd attempt something, withdraw from it at the same time, mentally attack myself for the project in the first place. this provided for example the improvised talk i'm giving in the blue tape with kathy acker, a talk which was broken by sex, a kind of self-mocking, theory giving way to the body. but now it's a form of automated culling, which breaks my thought up, rendering the inadequacy of my thought - and perhaps all thought - visible for anyone to read - breaking down work previously carefully crafted - the uselessness of the philosophical, the failure inherent in the very nature of thinking, a nature broken, ruptured, itself inadequate - culling, transforming + / - "intern inadequate. Monday Trocadero downstairs, showcase records. he was an intern who was completely inadequate. Last Monday night played burning cartload of bundles with a cup of water - an utterly inadequate gesture inadequate to explain... inadequate gratification. It was only post-coitum that the eye, as a life, where she was inadequate, felt inhibited and depressed. he was inadequate, felt inhibited and depressed.' that his work is inadequate and futile. His need to test his own limits, supplementation to our human needs remains always inadequate, Is sampling always inadequate? Don't we make these decisions in the first impedance western electric earphone, but these proved inadequate for ontologies - or ontology - is inadequate to deal same as .fact.ual and 'consciousness' (whatever is) apex contradict said, inadequate .fact.ual simply inadequate. If the basis changes. the landscape." "record was more than inadequate for what it was, and what it was/is certain and never having access to inadequate technology to explore this area augmentsments which preclude an inadequate knowledge of the species. Superficially, and never having access to inadequate technology to explore this area breaches, is an inadequate description. Holes appear in texts, in bodies, Since he is buried beneath the ground, since there is no inadequate mark or numbers can be inadequate for every application. In a similar vein, one may way - are we going to have inadequate strategies of interfacing with these is more than inadequate and reflects, in any case, what the _numbed_ is, is coherent, and empirically inadequate explanatory world-picture. This, never have conceived on my own. i think of inadequate health-care and no answer briefly: production. immediate possessing inadequate software which precludes an inadequate knowledge of the species. Superficially, and never having access to inadequate technology to explore this area _obdurate_ _numbed,_ away! believe that _sanctity,_ inadequate reflects, one way - are we going to have inadequate strategies of interfacing with these immediate access to computers possessing inadequate software for image/organism releasing the beyond as an inadequate horizon. is more than inadequate and reflects, in any case, what the _numbed_ is what is _numbed._" +++ the full text at http://www.alansondheim.org/inadequate.txt _______________________________________________ NetBehaviour mailing list NetBehaviour@lists.netbehaviour.org https://lists.netbehaviour.org/mailman/listinfo/netbehaviour
