reading, fasting ... http://www.alansondheim.org/history.jpg Yahrzeit candle in its early life i am an early riser no religions will save us no ululations mourning becomes electric some Buchenwald across the cantilevered world some Talmud takes refuge underneath the table where boarders of atonement lie within me always already before my time reading listening to nothing weighing heavily this dark gray mourning some Torah and so forth some Primo Levi some Prelude to the Holocaust, November 1938 seeing nothing seeing our fruitfly is black she crawls across Simon Wiesenthal The Sunflower underneath the table disappears we await her some Wiesenthal the dull sky the racism the epidemic the fascism listening to nothing i say i drink i sleep never closer never farther father never farther never closer mother i breathe Amery and the limits Arendt Jabes Levinas Celan Levi the doctors the dark traversals i flee from secrets and fires liquids no solids the pills no wait something to breathe something not to breathe to flee something to fear the illuminations of the secrets of conspiracy and heavens the patients the skewed elections the lies the conspiracies the fabrications where i think Baraka and my disordered relations and i never knew my neighbors where i am out of borders to cross the illuminated keys of the computers and the secrets peers under Amery At the Mind's Limits some Leviticus the mothers spoke thus some Kristallnacht we await her presence in the present always sleepless gray day some place some body some Amery some Nehama Leibowitz early memories and no time like the present annihilation to the limit what have i done too much Genesis too much in the beginning fallback the quenching of desire now here i am in this prisonhouse of fasting ready for nothing burrowed in useless history fires next time are now dis/ease take us dis/ease devour us we are always history we are always now +++ +++ +++ +++ +++ _______________________________________________ NetBehaviour mailing list NetBehaviour@lists.netbehaviour.org https://lists.netbehaviour.org/mailman/listinfo/netbehaviour
