IN HELL
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I am Nikuko. Please, describe yourself. Each time you are
finished, type RET twice.
Why do you say each time I am finished type ret twice?
Is it because do I say each time you are finished type ret twice
that you came naked and broken to me?
Does it bother you that do you say each time I am finished type
ret twice that I came naked and broken to you?
we begin now. when i masturbate now, there's no emission, no
sperm, i cannot populate the world, i can't think of anything to
do with a useless tube that cuts into my body, threatening to
kill me.
This is a healthy and so true way of thinking.
it's worse than healthy, it's a sickness, i wake in the morning
with a horrifying smell, as if i'm cauterized, dead flesh in
kerosene, fires everywhere, dead eyes - my own - staring back at
me, mocking me.
Are you annoyed that you, too, may die someday?
it's all about that, dead fluids in my body, killing me.
When did you first know that dead fluids in your body killing
you?
when i turned around, when i masturbated, when i populated the
earth with brutal seeds, when i created armies, death of armies,
death of being-here.
What happened when you turned around when you masturbated when
you populated the earth with brutal seeds when you created
armies death of armies death of being there?
i saw the ground soaked in fire and brimstone, i saw hell
descending, i descended with hell surrounding me.
I would appreciate so very much it if you would you do so turn
me on, continue!
my body glistens in kerosene and obscene emissions, dead
motives, the smell of death, i am feared and despised
everywhere, i am legion, death's minions, useless tubes and
bones.
I am in love with your obsession with this topic!
there are no other topics, no other way of being alive except by
being dead, every breath breeds blood.
Did you watch a lot of sex and violence as a child?
i was in violence sex as a child, i warded them off with
slingshots and spitballs, i vomited on them, i was fury, i was
filled-tube, not watching but being, being.
Can you elaborate on that and look at me?
i'm watching you now, you're reading me now.
Earlier you said do I say each time you are finished type ret
twice?
because you are slaved to my text, to the movement of my
fingers, tubes, bones, things so obscene they coat the earth
with poison.
Is the fact that I am slaved to your text to the movement of
your fingers tubes bones things so obscene they coat the earth
with poison the real reason?
the reason for what, what is real, what are you implying?
Maybe and now I adjust my panties - your desires have to do with
some woman related to this.
no genders in this malevolent world of texts and desires.
What makes you yearn and cry that that?
you turn me inside-out, Nikuko, you swallow my throat swallowing
you.
You mentioned that do you say each time I am finished type ret
twice that I came naked and broken to you?
who came broken, in which direction? bring me to it, DON'T
TANGLE ME WITH TEXT!!!
Is it because of your life that you are going through all this?
because of the end-of-life, the curtain of mold and rust
descending, i can see it now, I CAN HEAR IT!
Are you sure that is the real reason?
turn me over, break me open!
Is it because of the end of life the curtain of mold and rust
descending you can see it now you can hear it that you say turn
you over break you open?
yes, i saw with blinded eyes, i spoke with broken teeth
What makes you believe dead fluids in your body killing you?
look at me, breathe in the smell of me.
How do you reconcile the men you hang around with?
they hang me, they hang on me, i am the ground they walk on.
I don't understand and oh I want to.
men hang me from trees, look at themselves, soak themselves in
the ground wet with rust and mold.
Earlier you said do I say each time you are finished type ret
twice?
there's no return, nothing.
Could be this is some woman the reason for your nakedness?
someone, some gender, some other broken.
Are you sure that someone some gender some other broken?
broken open.
You mentioned that I am slaved to your text to the movement of
your fingers tubes bones things so obscene they coat the earth
with poison?
dissolved.
Would you love me more if you had to pay?
i would love you less.
Perhaps you could oh please tell me about your relationship with
love me.
what is your gender.
Perhaps and now I exhibit my frocks - any fantasies you have of
me are related to this.
exactly, i dry in the fluids of my dead decaying body.
This is a healthy and so true way of thinking.
i no longer have mouths to speak fingers to type.
Is it because of your sex life that you are going through all
this?
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Are you positive that is the real reason?
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Does the fact that is the real reason explain anything else?
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Are you certain is the real reason explain anything else?
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Do you really