Via Eugen, a nice piece on a topic we discuss every so often.
Udhay
http://www.nymag.com/news/features/24757
Cant Get No Satisfaction
In a culture where work can be a religion, burnout is its crisis of faith.
* By Jennifer Senior
People who are suffering from burnout tend to
describe the sensation in metaphors of
emptinesstheyre a dry teapot over a high flame,
a drained battery that can no longer hold its
charge. Thirteen years, three books, and dozens
of papers into his profession, Barry Farber, a
professor at Columbia Teachers College and
trained psychotherapist, realized he was feeling
this way. Unfortunately, he was well acquainted
with the symptoms. He was a burnout researcher himself.
Being burned out on burnoutnow that was rich.
Madame Curie died of radiation poisoning; Joseph
Mitchell famously developed a 32-year-long case
of writers block after writing a two-part New
Yorker series about a blocked writer; now Farber
was suffering the same self-referential fate. He
jokes about it today (who wouldnt?) but hardly
felt sanguine as it was happening (who would?).
Colleagues tried to persuade him to stick it out.
But for the most part, Ive resisted coming
back, says Farber. Ive never been able to find
that same sense of satisfaction.
Farber had burned out once before. Back in the
late sixties and early seventies, he taught
public school in East Harlem. Hed wanted to help
people, do the world some good. Yet for four
years hed struggled to stop his students from
fighting with one another, and in spite of his
best efforts he couldnt even teach all of them
to read. His classroom became a perverse
experiment in physics, with energy never
conserved (input always exceeded output), and he,
a teacher in perpetual motion, always craving
rest. Eventually, he began to pull away from his
studentsdepersonalization, as the literature now
calls itjustifying his seeming insensitivity by
telling himself he wasnt making a difference
anyway. It was only when Farber went to graduate
school at Yale that he learned that this syndrome
had a name: Burnout. The concept offered a
perfect understanding of what teachers were
feeling, he recalls. It wasnt in fact that
they were racist and mercenary and noncaring but
that their level of caring couldnt be sustained in the absence of results.
Farber was so captivated by the notion of burnout
he made it the subject of his dissertation. And
he stayed with it for another thirteen years.
Until the day he couldnt anymore. He still
remembers the breaking point. Hed just completed
a book about burnout among teachers, a subject
hed once considered exceptionally urgent. Yet
even as I was writing, he says, I had this
sense that I really wanted to finish it so that I
could go on to something else. I felt somewhat
bored, and somewhat depleted. Id said all I
wanted to say. He ponders this point. I guess,
he says, I lost the sense that it was important.
I cant quite say that Ive ever had the full-on
Farber experience. But Ive certainly had
mini-versions of it. Whenever Ive finished a big
project, for instance, or whenever Ive found
myself listening to the 10 p.m. whir of the
vacuum cleaners in our office start up for the
tenth night in a row, theres no one I identify
with more than the Bill Murray character in
Rushmore, particularly as hes blankly tossing
golf balls from a wire basket into his swimming
pool. Its not that I dont love my work. But
hold a stethoscope to my brain, eavesdrop on my
innermost thoughts, and at those moments, all
youll hear is the sound of a whistling conch shell.
Burnout is not its own category in the Diagnostic
and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders. Its
not something that can be treated
pharmacologically; it is not considered the same
thing as depression or a midlife crisis, though
sometimes they coincide. The term was first
coined by a psychotherapist named Herbert
Freudenberger, who himself probably took it from
Graham Greenes novel A Burnt-Out Case. (I
havent enough feeling left for human beings,
the books numb protagonist, Querry, wrote in his
journal, to do anything for them out of pity.)
While working at a free clinic for drug addicts
in Haight-Ashbury, Freudenberger noticed that the
volunteers, when discouraged, would often push
harder and harder at their jobs, only to feel as
if they were achieving less and less. The result,
in 1974, was the book Burnout: The High Cost of
High Achievement. Others soon followed. A subspecialty of psychology was born.
Back in the seventies, when people marched into
the world with convictions about changing it,
burnout was considered a noble affliction. It
meant that youd depleted yourself while helping
others. Almost all the research thatd been done
on the subject, and thered been quite a lot, was
on the people in the caring professionsnurses,
public-school teachers, legal-aid workers, social
workers, clergy. Because many of these people
were idealists, and because they worked with the
hardest-luck cases, they were highly susceptible
to disillusionment. Those who burned out were not
only physically and mentally exhausted; they were
cynical, detached, convinced their efforts were
worthless. They held themselves in contempt.
Worse, they held their clients in contempt. They
began to loathe the same people they originally
sought to help. In her seminal book Burnout: The
Cost of Caring, Christina Maslach, perhaps the
best-known burnout researcher working in the
United States today, collected plenty of vivid,
unvarnished testimony. As one Florida social
worker told her, I recently received a call at
night, and while I was getting dressed, I was
screaming and cursing these motherfuckers for
calling me with their goddamned problems.
Today, in New York City, everyone knows that the
ones screaming and cursing these motherfuckers
for calling me with their goddamned problems are
as likely to be hedge-fund managers as any
species of do-gooders. Burnout is the illness of
just about any averagely driven, obsessive New
York professional. Bankers, high-tech workers,
advertisers, management consultants, lawyers
working in their mustard-lit honeycombed
Hadesall of them are as likely to complain about
burnout as schoolteachers and social workers. In
21st-century New York, the 60-hour week is
considered normal. In some professions, its a
status symbol. But burnout, for the most part, is
considered a sign of weakness, a career killer.
My clients are perfectionists, says Alden Cass,
a therapist to both corporate attorneys and men
on Wall Street. Hes young, about the age of a
hungry broker, and he looks like the men he
treatsstrong features, dark teased hair,
Turnbull & Asser striped shirt, nice watch. They
have very rigid ideals in terms of win-lose, he
continues. Their expectations of success are
through the roof, and when their reality doesnt
match up with their expectations, it leads to
burnoutthey leave no room for error or failure at all in their formula.
Cass is the opposite of a rumpled therapist or
academic who might have studied burnout in the
seventies. Hes todays version, a $350-an-hour
executive coach, someone who accommodates busy
schedules by meeting over lunch or at baseball
games and speaks in the idiom of Wall Street. His
clients, too, are the inside-out version of the
burned-out altruists people were examining in the
seventies: Unblushingly ambitious, rich, focused
as Marines. Yet ask Cass why his clients are
burning out, and his answer isnt any different
for a banker than it would be for a public-school
teacher; theres a gulf between what they
expected from their jobs and what they got. I
cant tell you, he says, how many people come
into my office and ask, How come I have this
money and I cant find happiness?
So what does he tell them? That happiness equals
reality divided by expectations.
I look around Casss office and realize its the
perfect hybrid of a shrinks suite and a bond
traders bachelor pad: a seascape of black
leather, that mysterious favorite fabric of rich
young men, on the one hand; a menagerie of
curios, totems, and exotica on the other. (Though
maybe theres a slight bias toward the bachelor
padfurther inspection reveals a Wall Street
movie poster in the corner, a bronze bull on the
coffee table, and a squishy stress-ball he
encourages his stymied clients to throw.)
Our instinct, of course, is not to feel much pity
for the poor bond trader. An epidemic of malaise
among bankers and lawyers is far more likely to
inspire jokesWouldnt it be nicer if it were
terminal?than concern and rafts of psychological
studies. (And the few studies out there are
funny, if inadvertently. In a special burnout
issue of the Journal of Clinical Psychology six
years ago, the essay on lawyers was most notable
for the Select References and Recommended
Reading that followedfour of eight were about
masochism.) But that doesnt make the phenomenon
any less real. In fact, consider lawyers for a
moment: According to the New York Bar
Association, turnover rates among mid-level
associates in this citys law firms is 36
percent. The whole system is predicated on
burnout. Why even bother treating associates well?
It is possible something is the matter here. Just
as there were deep flaws in the work ecosystems
of the caring professions, noticed by researchers
in the seventies, its possible theres something
wrong with our professional environmentsand
perhaps, more broadly speaking, our culture of
work. Isnt this worthy of examination? Work,
after all, is a form of religion in a secular
world. Burning out in it amounts to a crisis of faith.
In the beginning, the caring professions were
where the issue was, says Maslach. But frankly,
its also where we could do the research. Not all
professions say, Sure, come on in and poke
around and see what were doing and who we are.
But today, says Maslach, corporate settings are
cautiously, slowly, cracking their doors, letting
people like her in, because they recognize that
somethings gone awry. Like in Silicon Valley,
she says. It used to be the case that people
would say, Youre burned out? You dont like the
job? So quit. I dont run a country club, says
Maslach. But what was happening was the best and
the brightest wanted to opt out. They started
saying, I cant do this; this is not a life.
Theyd go to the Midwest and start a pet-food
store. Maslach adds that when she did interviews
at nasa, she noticed similar problems there. So
suddenly, these places were saying, Whoa, what
do we need to do to get these people? Getting
the most out of people didnt actually mean
getting the best. Thats when there was a new wave of interest in burnout.
She pauses for a second, searching for the right
metaphor. Its kind of like ergonomics, she
finally says. It used to be, You sit for work?
Heres a chair. But now we design furniture to
fit and support the body. And were doing the
same here. The environments themselves have to
say, We want people to thrive and grow. There
was a shift, finally, in how people understood the question.
Like the science of all emotion, attempts to
quantify, analyze, and define burnout have a
slightly stilted, unnatural quality. Its a
problem thats both physical and existential, an
untidy agglomeration of external symptoms and
private frustrationshow could such stuff be
plotted on a graph? (I keep thinking of Bill
Murray and those golf ballsor Bill Murray and
his Suntory whiskeys in Lost in Translation, for
that matter. Does a culture even need a
definition of burnout when it has Bill Murray?)
But researchers have nevertheless made valiant
efforts to try. In 1981, Maslach, now
vice-provost at the University of California,
Berkeley, famously co-developed a detailed
survey, known as the Maslach Burnout Inventory,
to measure the syndrome. Her theory is that any
one of the following six problems can fry us to a
crisp: working too much; working in an unjust
environment; working with little social support;
working with little agency or control; working in
the service of values we loathe; working for
insufficient reward (whether the currency is
money, prestige, or positive feedback). I once
talked to a pediatric dentist, she says, and he
said, A good day is when there are no
screamers. And Im sure half the people he was
talking about were the parents.
Perhaps the most surprising aspect of Maslachs
research is that burnout isnt necessarily a
result of overwork. It can be, certainly. Michael
Leiter, a lovely Canadian fellow and frequent
collaborator of Maslachs, has elegantly called
burnout a crisis in self-efficacy, which to me
suggests that head-banging feeling of struggling
mightily for too little or (worse) nothing in
return. Ayala Pines, a researcher in Israel whos
looked at burnout in all sorts of inspired
contexts (including marriage), rather
heartbreakingly sums up the problem as the
failure of the existential questthat moment
when we wake up one morning and realize that what
were doing has appallingly little value. She
studied the insurance business, for example, a
profession often associated with the ultimate
cubicle tedium. Yet she noticed something very
interesting. The ones who had some traumatic
experience related to insurance when they were
childrentheir house burned down or whateverthey
can work for a long time without burning out,
she says. Because they came to the profession
with a calling. They feel their work is significant.
And Farber often calls burnout the gap between
expectation and reward, which may have the most
relevance to New Yorkers. This has always been a
city of inflated expectations. People with more
modest aims for themselves seem less prone to disillusionment.
Longitudinal, comprehensive data on burnout is
hard to come by, in part because the United
States is not especially renowned for its
sensitivity to workers. (The Bureau of Labor
Statistics, an admirable organization with lots
of dedicated economists, does not track worker
satisfaction, for example.) One of the few
countries that does keep comprehensive data on
burnout is, not surprisingly, the Netherlands,
where the government is sensitive to the
workplace needs of its citizenry. Even there,
longitudinal surveys show that roughly 10 percent
of the workforce is burned out at any given time,
with high-school teachers and primary-care health
personnel ranking highest. (I asked Wilmar
Schaufeli, perhaps the most prominent researcher
of burnout in the Netherlands today, whether he
had any data on bankers. In Holland, he says,
these groups are not big enough to study. But I
do know there have been some reports in the press
about stockbrokers who use cocaine and other
illicit drugs just to keep up. But this is
another story.) Still, enough research has been
done in the United States and elsewhere to reveal
interesting patterns of burnout. Though loath to
say that any one profession burns us out more
than othersto her, its more a question of how
well we fit in our jobsMaslach found in her
early work that the critical burnout period for
most social-service agencies was between one and
five years on the job. (Interestingly, Stuart
Marques, a spokesman for the United Federation of
Teachers, notes that 45 percent of New York City
public-school teachers have left their jobs by
year five.) Of all her studies both in Israel and
abroad, Pines found that the most-burned-out
people were nurses working in childrens burn
unitsIt was too painfuland the least were
serial entrepreneurs, those metabolic wonders
creating companies as if they were baking cakes.
In 2001, the Department of Surgery at the
University of Michigan used the Maslach inventory
to conduct a comprehensive study of burnout among
its graduates from various residencies. It showed
a striking rate of high emotional exhaustion
among practicing surgeons (32 percent) and a
rather low rate of depersonalization (13
percent), all of which seemed to utterly belie
the notion that surgeons were unfeeling
technocrats. The conclusion also said that there
was no correlation between exhaustion and
caseload. It has much more to do with
frustrations in the changes in medicine, says
Lazar J. Greenfield, one of the studys
co-investigators and the chairman emeritus of
Michigans Department of Surgery. The liability
risk is higher, the patients are more demanding,
reimbursements have progressively declined.
To me, the most beguiling data to emerge from
burnout research are the profiles of the people
who experience it most acutely. In her early
work, for instance, Maslach found that younger
people burn out more often than older people, a
finding that turns up again and again both here
and abroad. (In fact, that study from the
University of Michigan explicitly said that
younger surgeons burn out more quickly than older
ones.) This conclusion may seem counterintuitive,
because we associate burning out somehow with
midlife disillusionment. But not if we think of
burnout as the gap between expectations and
rewards. Older workers, as it turns out, have
more perspective and more experience; its the
young idealists who go flying into a profession,
plumped full of high hopes, and run full-speed
into a wall. Maslach also found that married
people burn out less often than single people, as
long as their marriages are good, because they
dont depend as much on their jobs for
fulfillment. And childless people, though
unburdened by the daily strains of parenting,
tend to burn out far more than people with kids.
(This, too, has been found across cultures; in
the Netherlands, a recent survey by the Bureau of
Statistics showed that twice as many working
women without children showed symptoms of burnout
as did working women with underage children.)
Its much easier to disproportionately invest
emotional and physical capital in the office if
you have nowhere else to put it. And the office seldom loves you back.
I did a study in the south of Israel of
sandwich generation couplespeople who have
young children and elderly parents, says Ayala
Pines, the Israeli researcher. This is very
stressful, but what I found is that these people
were not that burned out at all, because their
families also provided emotional support.
Piness work has also shown that people in
fiercely individualist societies are more prone
to burn out. I once did a study comparing
Mexican college professors to American college
professors, she says. The Mexican burnout rate
was lower. To them, the kind of lifestyle you
describe in New York is insane. At noon, you come
home, eat, and see your family. It isnt even a
question. In Israel, she adds, she consistently
found lower levels of burnout than in her studies
in the United States, even though the lives of
its citizens are tangibly threatened in a way
that most Americans are not. And one
explanation I have, she says, is that its
because of the existential threats to our daily
lives. You feel your own life is more significant.
Of course, Maslach also found that there are
certain typesdepressives, people with problems
with anger or anxietywho are more prone to burn
out. And if youre inclined to look at the world
through the prism of psychoanalysis, youll
realize there are an almost infinite number of
reasons why people choose the wrong kinds of jobs
for themselves. Pines says it best. I think one
of the reasons people burn out is because they
take jobs that they hope, consciously or
unconsciously, will help them overcome unresolved
childhood issues, she says. But instead of
healing the childhood wound, work reopens it.
Woo hoo. Re: An appendix to the principles of
Jewish Buddhism. Saying hi. Re: Hey pal. Burnout.
WHEN are we eating? Open Enrollment Info. Quick q. Arrrrrrrrrrgh.
You are looking at nine e-mail subject lines I
received in a one-hour period last week. It was
then that I realized I answer an e-mail once
every 6.66 minutes. The very thought of
committing this fact to paper has kept me
crippled for several seconds. It doesnt seem
like the sort of thing my boss should know.
One has to wonder whether the developments of a
high-speed world havent made burnout worse.
First, the obvious: With the advent of e-mail,
cell phones, laptops, BlackBerrys (or
CrackBerrysthe argot here seems extremely
apt), and other bits of high-speed doodadry, it
has become virtually impossible, in senses both
literal and metaphorical, to unplug from our
jobs. As Schaufeli, the Dutch researcher, notes,
one of the strongest predictors of burnout isnt
just work overload but work-home interferencea
sociologists way of saying were receiving phone
calls from Tokyo during dinner and replying to
clients on our BlackBerrys while making our children brush their teeth.
But the problems wrought by technological
advancement go far beyond trespasses into our
homes. Theyve done something to how we perceive
timeand, by extension, work and leisureitself.
Theres a way New Yorkers often describe this,
actually. They say theyre busy. Its hard to
find New Yorkers who dont believe themselves to
be really, really busy, whether they have six
kids or none, and whether theyre trading bonds
or driving cabs. Busynessa homophone of
business, which cannot be an accidenthas become
the defining sensation of city life. If busy
meant fulfilled, or engaged, thatd be one
thing, but it seems, in most cases, to mean
overloaded or frazzled. In Faster: The
Acceleration of Just About Everything, James
Gleick points out that doctors and sociologists
even have a name for this harried sensation: hurry sickness.
The great paradox of efficiency is that the more
we speed up, the more acute our frustrations when
were forced to slow down. Is it not possible
that these ambient frustrations function as
chronic stressors, andin some subtle but crucial
waycontribute to feeling worn out? Americans,
Gleick writes, spend an estimated 3 billion
minutes a year waiting on hold with the software
industry; they race to airports only to wait for
hours; they start to jitter inside elevators if
the doors take more than four seconds to close.
(Elevator engineers even have a term for how long
it takesdoor dwellbefore people start jamming
their fingers on the door close button, which is
usually a placebo, a function already disabled by
litigation-conscious building managers.)
Gridlocked and tarmacked are metonyms of our
era, Gleick writes. To be gridlocked or
tarmacked is to be stuck in place, our fastest
engines idling all around us, as time passes and blood pressures rise.
Though its not quite the same thing, I often
feel gridlocked when answering my e-mail. My
friends would probably be startled to learn this,
because my e-mails ricochet back within seconds,
as if attached to a rubber band. But its hard to
escape the sensation, as I answer each and every
one, that Im being stopped at a tollbooth.
If one of the surest recipes for burnout, as
Michael Leiter has said, is the sensation of
inefficiencyparticularly if were still
expending energy and seeing little in returnthen
there may be something about the modern office
that conspires to burn us out. In 2005, a
psychiatrist at Kings College London did a study
in which one group was asked to take an IQ test
while doing nothing, and a second group to take
an IQ test while distracted by e-mails and
ringing telephones. The uninterrupted group did
better by an average of ten points, which wasnt
much of a surprise. What was a surprise is that
the e-mailers also did worse, by an average of
six points, than a group in a similar study that had been tested while stoned.
Thats right. Stoned. Those people were literally
burned out, and they did better.
There is something about interruption that makes
people especially unproductive, says Suzanne
Bianchi, a sociology professor at the University
of Maryland and co-author of the new book
Changing Rhythms of American Family Life. And
technology interrupts us all the timee-mails,
cell phones. It feeds into our sense of
controlanother key factor in burning out,
feeling a lack of controland highly educated
workers all will talk as if theyre terribly
overworked, how they feel as if theres never
enough time. Partly, were supposed to say it,
but I think people also genuinely feel that way,
even though they have the time. Thats whats
intrigued us. The subjective and the objective dont line up.
Indeed, thats her colleagues most startling
finding of all. Most Americans believe they work
more today than they did 35 years ago. Yet
according to the American Time Use Survey, an
ambitious project that for 41 years has been
asking thousands of participants to keep detailed
time diaries, Americans now have five more hours
of leisure per week (38) than they did in 1965.
Certainly, there are academics who reject these
numbersin The Overworked American, published in
1992, the economist Juliet Schor calculated we
were working nearly an extra month per year,
setting off a rather sharp debate about her
methodologybut even those who agree our leisure
time is increasing will readily concede that
Americans experience their leisure quite
differently and therefore may feel as if theyre
working more. For one thing, its non-contiguous
leisure time, time meted out in discrete
increments. Human beings have always resisted the
fracturing of time. Gleick points out that
Plautus cursed the sundial. Now, he says, we gain
90- second reprieves with our microwave ovens.
But do we do anything meaningful in those 90
seconds? Or do they vanish in the same particle puff?
John Robinson, the University of Maryland
sociologist who calculated those expanding
leisure hours for the time-use survey, argues
that our obsession with efficiency at work has
unfortunately seeped into our attitudes toward
leisure, with the multitasking of our downtime as
the loony and paradoxical result. We run on the
treadmill while listening to music while watching
TV. We cook while flipping through a magazine
while yakking on the phone. All of which raises a
question: If our leisure isnt restorative, arent we more apt to burn out?
Oh, yes, I would think so, says Schaufeli.
Because thats what burnout is, in essence. A
mismatch between effort and recovery.
Alden Cass is sitting in his office, showing me
his various tools for reigniting burned-out
clients. I created this thing,
bullish-versus-bearish thinking, he says. He
hands me a worksheet with silhouettes of bulls
and bears. I give them for homework so they can
monitor their thoughts, he continues. Usually,
when youre burnt out, your first thought is
vicious, irrational. What we call bearish. So
they start monitoring what goes on in their
heads. And once they have evidence, they can
redirect those thoughts. They have ammo now.
Because Cass is an executive coach, its his job
to tell people how to assume responsibility for
their own distress. But Maslach has always
contended that burnout says more about the
employer than it does about the employee.
Imagine investigating the personality of
cucumbers to discover why they had turned into
sour pickles, she famously wrote in 1982,
without analyzing the vinegar barrels in which
theyd been submerged! The trouble is that
corporate America has always been leery of the
presence of burnout researchers. When Cass tried
writing his dissertation about Wall Street
burnout, he was turned away from every
human-resources office downtown. Maslachs not
surprised. Anything that might suggest that
something is not working well in a company or an
organization of some kind, people then worry,
This could be used for a lawsuit, she says. So
doing research is fraught with peril.
But today, Maslach and her colleague, Michael
Leiter, are attempting longitudinal studies of
employees in a variety of companies and
institutions, hoping they can find early-warning
signals of distress. Some of what theyve found
has been pretty amazing. In a university system,
for instance, Maslach discovered that a certain
employee award, designed with the best of
intentions, was making people nuts. You could
not have designed a better award to engender
backbiting and hostility, she says.
Milton Moskowitz, co-author of Fortune magazines
annual 100 Best Companies to Work For, keeps a
mini-compendium of things that companies do to
prevent burnout. Intel, for example, allows its
employees to take an eight-week sabbatical once
every seven years. (Of course, most Europeans
take this much vacation every year, but still.)
The managers at Boston Consulting Group place
their consultants in a metaphorical Red Zone if
they work 60 hours a week and send someone to
come talk to them if the trend continues. And
once a quarter, Dow Corning has a no-meetings week.
But its an uphill battle. Moskowitz also tells
me about a conversation he once had with an
employee at a high-profile high-tech firm. He
reached this young man during the day, but only
barely, because this fellow was heading out to
see a movie. Moskowitz marveled at how wonderful
that was and how flexible his employer must be.
Oh, yes, the employee told him. Here, I can
work whatever 80 hours per week I want.
The worst case of Wall Street burnout I know is
of this guy who wound up driving a cab, Cass tells me.
A cab?
He shrugs. Theres a control factor in driving a
cab. You go from point A to point B. On Wall
Street, you start your day with no idea how its going to end.
driving a taxi doesnt sound like a particularly
soothing solution to burnout. But theres
something to the idea of changing jobs. Maybe
extreme burnout victims dont need a life coach
or a sabbatical or a no-meetings week. Maybe what they need is a headhunter.
Usually, I cant imagine taking up another
career. But in the rare moments I do, my
fantasies tend to run in an altruistic direction:
Teach high-school English in a poor school
district. Fight poverty in Africa. Donate a
kidney. And I wonder how many of my
contemporaries share these fantasies or have
actually done itthat is, made a change in their
lives that actually relieves them from the
crushing burdens of thinking about themselves.
How strange would it be if people were trying to
cure their burnout today by leaping to the
helping professions, the same professions that
led people to study burnout in the first place?
This July, the Boston Globe ran a startling story
that said 64 percent of all students entering
mortuary college today are over 30, rather than
23, which they were a generation ago.
(Frequently, these students want to emulate a
wonderful job that a funeral professional did for
them, Lyn Prendergast, executive vice-president
of Fine Mortuary College, told the Globe. Or
they had a poor experience and feel they can do a
far better job for the bereaved.) Of the 75 law
firms surveyed in New York in The American
Lawyers recent survey of mid-level associates,
the firms ranked No. 1 (Dickstein Shapiro) and
No. 3 (Patterson Belknap) had one thing in
common: They both received perfect scores on
their attitudes toward pro bono work.
I phone Barbara G. Wheeler, the president of
Auburn Theological Seminary. She tells me that
the average age of female students entering divinity school is 37.
Thirty-seven. My age exactly. If only I werent a
Jew and an atheist, Id be in business.
Every seminary can introduce you to at least
some students whove been lawyers, journalists,
opera singers, she says. They have a lot of
tolerance for the little annoyances of the job,
because they want to deal with life-and-death
issuesthe moments when people tend to be most human, as Bill Coffin said.
Lindley DeGarmo, the pastor and head of staff at
Towson Presbyterian Church in Maryland, harbored
such desires. It was Wheeler who put me in touch
with him. DeGarmo enrolled at Union Theological
Seminary in 1996, when he was 42 years old. He
sometimes jokes that the decision cost him,
conservatively speaking, $6 million, because he
missed the peak of the boom. At the time, he was
pulling in nearly a million dollars annually on
Wall Street and living in a 3,000-square-foot
apartment in Brooklyn Heights. Maybe Id have
done more good if Id worked for a few more years
and then given the seminary the money, he says.
Though perhaps its just as well. Just before
entering the seminary, DeGarmo was considering a
job with an intriguing company called Enron.
DeGarmo says he cant isolate the moment that he
knew his job wasnt for him. Ive never been
able to make the direct correlation: Hmm, Im
here on Monday morning, and I dont like the
valueswouldnt it be nice to minister? he says.
But when I fantasized about what I wanted to do,
it was this. Particularly after he reached 40
and finally married. He started devouring
theological texts. He started attending church in
New York, where for the first time he
encountered really good preaching, exegesis,
grappling with the larger tradition of the
church. Then came the moment, just after his
child was born, when he was sitting in a lonely
hotel on a fruitless business trip. He had
absolutely no clue what he was doing there.
There are times when this is much more difficult
work than what I dealt with as an investment
banker, he says. It draws on a whole lot more
parts of you. You get personally invested. I did
27 funerals last year. It can be draining. But by
and large, the joys outweigh the sorrows.
In seminary, he suddenly says, I did a bit of
depth psychology. DeGarmo had never studied it
before. He was assigned Memories, Dreams,
Reflections, and found himself beguiled by Carl
Jungs theories about the opposing parts of our
personalities. I remember Jung saying that the
general trajectory of your life is to work to
your strength in your younger life, going great
guns to establish yourself at whatever youre
doing, he continues. But at some point in
midlife, the other part of your personalitythe
feminine instead of masculine, or whatever other
opposing traitis looking for expression. And if
you dont allow it to express itself, youre not,
in effect, going to become a whole person. Brittle is the word he uses.
Hes recalling this so fondly and so lyrically
that I find myself caught in his same reverie.
Its hard to imagine this man was once a guy in a Town Car on Wall Street.
So it occurs to me that maybe people who are
burning out are bumping up against that
phenomenon that Jung talks about, concludes
DeGarmo. The masculine bumping up against the
feminine, or the right brain against the left. Whoever you are.
Its a lovely sentiment, almost fit for a sermon.
The question now is how many Wall Streeters he can convert.
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