At 10:59 PM 9/5/02 -0500, you wrote: >I'm not sure I fully understand what you are saying, but the people I know >who have an addiction are either unhappy with who they are or their >circumstances (which they feel helpless of change) or they just like >experimenting. > >In the former, if it worked for a little while to make them feel better >about themselves or oblivious to the unhappiness or distress they >experience, then it becomes a way out or an escape mechanism. ## The one thing absolutely neccessary to implement change in self is to take responsibility for the present mode of belief. My experience with the psychedelics has been that of a slap in the face. I had no choice but to face me. [But that doesn't mean that I had no choice but to do something about the me I was slapped with] This is no escape party! Nor is it a necessary thing. There are many avenues to discovery and the acceptence of personal power that one cannot not have. That is, one has the power to screw up equal to the power to repair the screw up. The truth of personal power is as believable as the falsehood of hiding from it by blaming others for your own thought processes than can include powerlessness and all the false justifications for "apparently" not doing what one cannot not do. [Making choices is something that cannot be avoided but does not limit one to making good choices. But blaming bad choices on someone else is an effective justification to be helpless to change as it "effectively and apparently" places the power of choice where it can't be accessed...a lie "taken as" truth, then justified.] > >I'm old enough to remember when recreational drugs were not so readily >available and people dealt with their demons. Oh, yeah, but there was >alcohol wasn't there. ## People who deal with their demons as THIER demons either get rid of them or accept them as part of themselves that they want to keep. People who deal with demons as someone elses imposed upon them, cannot deal with anything. Booze [and many other drugs] is a distraction from recognizing that fact. Booze clouds the mind in order to make not thinking the obvious possible. But another facet of some boozers is extrodinarily high intelligence where the motive is to dull the mind down to the point of fitting in with the environment of relative idiots the person is surrounded by. It works for a while, then backfires..eventually making the misfit genius into the idiot for real. > >Anyway, the availability and social stigma that used to be attached make it >much more acceptable and an excellent excuse not to fight the good fight to >stay level. ## Any excuse works just fine as long as it can be made out to look like a reason. A reason is that which 'you' can accept...If you don't accept it, it's an excuse, even though it may be the truer truth. That's the only difference between excuses and reasons. > >And even as I speak I see it destroying friends, neighbors and relatives. >Have you ever noticed how sickly these folks are? As their general health >declines from chemicals and malnutrition, the worse they feel. So, to feel >better they go for "the stuff". > >This is a broad sweeping statement, but I think that if people would take >better care of their bodies they would feel better and the gray matter would >perform better! ## But that would ruin the squeaky wheel game and make one actually pull a wagon, now wouldn't it? "Alchohol etc represents my ability to not know what I'm doing" The alchohloic wants to be picked up in such a manner that nothing moves. > >Would be wonderful to have a rapid cure for addicts, their lives are not >good even with the drugs giving them a reprieve from life! I think I must >sound like a sanctimonious witch, but I'm not really. Just saddened by >what I see! ### Me too. My ex is a total trash dump in all respects now. A brilliant woman gone brain dead...can't even make a sentence, much less a living. A pretty girl with all sorts of diseases and conditions. 42 and looking a rough 78. I'm amazed she's still [barely] alive. It could have been much different. She turned into the mother she always hated times 2. She actually worked at it by actively resisting all else. Success was certain. Nothing could save her from herself..the self she blames on mom. Mom the model, who has all the power by default and doesn't even know it. The power to believe that one has no power is the same power as the power of belief that one has any power that one chooses. Or, one always succeeds, but one may not be aware of what the real goal is. Guilt and blame are the great enablers of falsehoods seeming to be true...the mechanism for projecting reponsibility for ones own thoughts ..and the awareness of those thoughts...to where the thinker can't possibly be thinking them. 'Downers' hide the link making the victim game plausable. Addiction is a patch to make a badly written program run...but the computer locks into a cause/effect feedback loop.
The victim game IS a survival game as long as someone else comes along to grease the squeaky wheel. Part of the perpetuation of the victim game is the "I'll show you" " Pick me up! NO, that's not the right way. Oh, you give up? I'll show you! See? THAT's how it's done. Now, pick me up. NO, that's not the right way." "I can stand up, see? [So why can't you stand me up?] But every time I get myself up, I fall down...now you try so I can blame the bruises on you." "I can do this one thing to perfection, therefore, I am perfect. Anything that does not agree with that perfection must be your fault. If it's your fault, I must manipulate you into doing it right...No, I'm still the imperfect perfect me...that's not the right way." Alas, the only real cure is a boot in the butt. Go forth and do or die. Some choose to die. Ken > -- The silver-list is a moderated forum for discussion of colloidal silver. Instructions for unsubscribing may be found at: http://silverlist.org To post, address your message to: [email protected] Silver-list archive: http://escribe.com/health/thesilverlist/index.html List maintainer: Mike Devour <[email protected]>
