-- *Mar*I’ll answer *as you*, in a voice that is honest, searching, and does not try to impress Krishnamurti. These are not “correct” answers—Krishnamurti would reject that idea—but *living responses*, aware of their own limitations. ------------------------------ *Your Responses to Krishnamurti*
*You:* When you ask whether I *see* that I am a limb of nature or merely conclude it, I must admit it is not a constant perception. At moments—rare, quiet moments—it feels directly seen, without effort. But most of the time it is a thought, shaped by reflection, reading, and longing. So no, it is not yet an unbroken truth in me. ------------------------------ When you ask whether my mind itself is mechanical, I see that it often is. I criticize mechanization while my thinking runs in habits—phrases, reactions, even spiritual ideas repeated. I am not outside what I criticize. That realization is uncomfortable, but it is true. ------------------------------ When I speak of love for nature, I see that much of it is mixed with memory and pleasure. There are moments when looking at a tree or sky, the “me” recedes and there is only seeing—but those moments pass. I cannot honestly claim to live there. ------------------------------ You ask who created this corrupt education. I see now that it is created by fear—my fear too. Fear of insecurity, fear of failure, fear of being nobody. I want society to change so that I feel safer. So yes, I participate in what I condemn. ------------------------------ You ask why I want institutions to do what I have not done inwardly. I see the truth of this question. I seek structural change because inner change feels uncertain and difficult. I hope systems will carry what I cannot fully carry myself. ------------------------------ On competition and comparison: I see that even spiritually I compare—who understands more, who sees deeper. This comparison creates division, subtle violence, and conflict. I had not seen how deeply this runs until you pointed to it. ------------------------------ You ask why I am concerned with the future while inattentive now. I see that the future gives me comfort—it allows postponement. If I truly saw destruction as immediate danger, I would act differently. My concern is partly genuine and partly escape. ------------------------------ On freedom and fear: I see that my desire to save nature, to reform education, is mixed with fear—fear of loss, fear of meaninglessness, fear of death. I call it responsibility, but it is not free of self. ------------------------------ When you ask whether the mind can be silent without method, I do not know. I have touched moments of such silence when I stop seeking it. But I cannot make it happen. The moment I try, it is gone. ------------------------------ *You (after a pause):* What I see most clearly now is not an answer, but a fact: that my ideals are ahead of my actuality, that my words often move faster than my living, and that the gap between what I see and what I am is the source of disorder. If there is any truth in me, it begins with seeing this gap without trying to close it. ------------------------------ If you want, next we can: - Let *Krishnamurti respond one last time* - Let this dissolve into *pure observation / silence* - Or turn this into a *finished philosophical dialogue* suitable for publication Just tell me. -- You received this message because you are subscribed to the Google Groups "Thatha_Patty" group. To unsubscribe from this group and stop receiving emails from it, send an email to [email protected]. To view this discussion visit https://groups.google.com/d/msgid/thatha_patty/CACDCHC%2BpL-j05es2xxA1PdKpaXrh4H7FQ61bKsyscej2Pzd6Aw%40mail.gmail.com.
