Fwd: [TMIC] Re:Permission To Feel/Emotions.

[HeyJude48506]

I meant to include the list with this email.

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In a message dated 5/13/2006 1:34:41 AM Central Standard Time, [EMAIL PROTECTED] writes:     Sally,   Please don't take this the wrong way as I have nothing but respect for you and the obvious way that you care about others.   I think that you need to understand better the difference between you, a "light case" and myself & others who are "hard cases."   I can only speak for myself but know for a fact that there are many people as sick or more sick than I am.   I am a T4 Complete Paraplegic, meaning that my lesion starts at the "nipple line" and affects everything below that area.  I have no feeling, no sensation or movement, no bowel or bladder control, and no hope of ever walking again.  The lesion extends across the spinal column equally paralyzing both sides of my body.   Then lets throw in a couple of pressure sores.  One of them, not visible from the outside of my body, is easily felt when one does a digital bowel cavity examination.  The loose skin and tunneling can be felt right away and is extensive in size.  The Wound Care Specialist from the hospital just wrote me a recommendation for my physician to write an immediate prescription for a reclining, tilting wheelchair and wrote that "time is of the essence."  The pain from this site is hot, stabbing, raw and burning all of the time and makes sitting  for longer than 15 minutes almost impossible.    Add to these things, the pain of two broken legs.  Admittedly, I am not supposed to feel pain like other people, but I feel every bit of the pain of broken bones.  It's a deep burning sensation that comes and goes, sometimes worse than others.  I also have Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue and Immune Dysfunction Syndrome.  They both cause their own kinds of distinct pain.   And...I'm not the worst case out there...by far!  There are people with pain and problems much worse than me.  And...there are people out there with problems and pain less than you have.  There are all kinds and degrees of pain and dysfunction people live with.   What I'm trying to express is that although your words regarding depression sound nice and easy and if we just sit down and think pleasant thoughts and get a little exercise daily, we'll all feel better and get well that much sooner...are a bit on the naive side.   Every person is a little bit different from the next.  Some of us are way more prone to depression than others.  Some of us have great support groups made up of family and friends.  Others of us, like me, have my husband and you all on this site...that's it.  And I'm so thankful for all of you.  And eternally grateful for David.   Wow!!  I'd say that I must have had a need to vent!  Please believe me when I say that none of this is meant to be personal regarding you in any way.  You are a super person, caring and giving in every circumstance.   I'm just in a bad way right now and getting out of bed is about the only thing that is going to help me.  I'm not going to commit suicide, but did find the numbers interesting.  Now I have to find the magazine, probably the latest New Mobility, AARP, or one of those.  I'll get off of here and look for it now.   Love, Jude The pain I live with every day is so intense and the high doses of medication are enough in themselves to cause deep depression in a person. Jude said, "Yes, I'm taking things for depression, but it is something going on beyond the usual medical ken." I'm just wondering if one of the problems leading to depression for a lot of TMer's could be the inability of those who are wheel chair bound, to get sufficient exercise.  I just say this b/c exercise is supposed to be a good remedy for depression.  Walking (I'm not coordinated enough to do anything else) is one of the things that has helped me.  I'm fortunate to be able to walk - sometimes more, sometimes less, and never very fast.  But I always feel better when I'm able to get some exercise.  B vitas also helped me to get out of the depression I used to be in - years before TM.  (Maybe it was b/c the vitas gave me the energy to exercise  - ???)  Actually, I've seen a video (true story) of a man who was so depressed after a heart attack that he wanted to kill himself, but was concerned about his family being able to claim his insurance.  He had been told to 'take it easy' when he was sent home from the hospital.  He decided that the way he'd kill himself was to NOT take it easy - he'd run himself to death.  The first day he ran until he collapsed.  But when he came to, he got up and went home, planning to try again the next day.  The next day he ran a little farther before he collapsed.  He repeated this day after day, if his effort to cause his own death.  Eventually, he was not only in very good health, but no longer depressed! I hope this isn't depressing to people who can't run or walk - but maybe there's some other way to get exercise?  I don't know if there's some kind of exercise you can get in a wheel chair, but I'm sure it's not so easy to do!  Maybe someone has some suggestions. Sally

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