Yes Jude I have had the feeling that I no longer have a purpose in life creep over me since TM changed my past to my present. It's a tough feeling to admit to others and even hard to admit to yourself. However, we can't let it define our future.
I do have a purpose and so do you. Have you read any of Joni Erickson Tada's books? She is a Christian, parapalygic who broke her neck around the age of 19 and is now about 56. I won't go into detail of her ministry - it can be found at JoniAndFriends.org. I read one of her books before TM so I knew the feeling of purposelessness was common in those of us whose lives change as ours did. My advice is the same as you are getting from others and the same as remind myself when I start thinking that way. Do something about that it! You write well, have good computer skills, and can be an encourager. You could use your telephone to encourage others, to check on the welfare of others, or to read to others. When I was first sick, I had a 9 year old come to my house 2 afternoons per week for after-school time. I taught him how to use a stove because he wanted macaroni and cheese as soon as he walked in the door. We did puzzles, read, played legos, cards, battle-ship, etc. He did so much for my healing and it gave me a purpose. I taught him table manners and to respect his elders and the handicapped. His parents saw an improvement in his school-work and his behavior at home and school improved. He looked forward to comming to my home and even asked if he cound bring a friend. A couple of times he stopped by while out playing to hint that he was really hungry or thirsty. I loved it! Clayton came for two years and it would have never happened if I hadn't had TM. What a purpose! Clayton out-grew me, however, he waves or hugs when out paths cross. Could you have a visitor like Clayton? Maybe a young boy or girl who could use a couple of hours of quality time with an adult. Just a thought. Patti - Michigan
