> Jude,
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> The first time that I found myself paralyzed, the ER physician *decided*
> (After doing an MRI but not high enough.) that I had hysterical paralysis,
> or a conversion disorder brought on by overwork. I can remember lying there
> and thinking: *Hmmmm, I guess that I am crazy. But how could one be so
> overwrought by work, that they would soil and urinate in their pants? Oh
> well, he's the doctor so he MUST know.* Of course, I continued to get
> worse and eventually got my NMO diagnosis. Still, the pain and humiliation
> that I experienced at the inital ER has never gone away. Today still, I am
> shocked by peoples insensitivity and their almost rabid desire to jump
> to conclusions. Whenever I am having a bad day, my spasticity acts up,
> leaving me with a very stiff unbendable right side. Yes, I DO walk like a
> drunk on occasion, but why are strangers so eager to jump to conclusions and
> assume that I am (Either a drunk or mentally deficient.), whenever they
> don't know me, or my circumstances? And no, I will never forget lying on
> that floor in the local Walmart. You're right, people are generally
> insensitive to our inner pain.
>
> I love you.
> Don't forget to mail.
> Grace
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