Just a fast topic for discussion. In my case TM is like a box of
chocolates...you never know what you are going to get!
It seems to me that how I feel from day to day is never the same!
Some days are just terrible and some days are not so bad. I cannot point
to the weather because that does not always have an effect on me. I do
know if I get sick, even with a cold, my symptoms are always worse.
Today is a beautiful day in sunny New Jersey and yet I feel
terrible...why?
For me the biggest problem is the "banding" on my right leg just
above the knee. When it gets very bad (like today) it makes walking much
more difficult and I walk with an even stiffer leg than usual. Is it
possible that as our spine regenerates (even though it is a very long
process...decades) we still experience changes all the time, because the
feelings are somewhat different, and for TM'rs change is never good. It
seems that when I start to get used to the feelings I have, and try to
accept them, they suddenly change.
I try to live with TM as best as I can. I try to keep a positive
attitude and give thanks that I am able to work, walk and drive which so
many of my fellow TM'rs cannot do....but some days are harder than
others!
Last week I heard from one of our group who after 11 years had a
relapse. For me this is truly scary. I don't know what I would do if
this happened to me. I have had TM for more than 10 years and I am now
60, which means that on top of TM I am starting to experience the
problems that come with aging such as arthritis. Sometimes I feel that
the only place we can go is down!
Sorry for the depressing attitude...I just need to talk to the group
when I feel this way and then forget about it, get back my positive
attitude, and move on.
Thank you for letting me vent!
Rob in New Jersey
