Hi Mindy, ???? I am not sure if I did the same as you or not, but looking back I very well?may have.? I know that I got TM when I was working, and I had a big problem talking to people after that.? As much as many tried, both co-worker friends and even some family members, I just couldn't discuss my condition.? When people would call, I'd say that I was doing fine.? When they'd want to visit, I was always too tired from my therapy.? It was only a select few that I really let in and then it was only slightly.? ???? Looking back I can see that it was probably because I was having trouble myself with it all and my own self-image, but didn't realize, so couldn't discuss it.? It took 18 months before I?could accept?that I needed some mental health help, even though when I was in rehab they tried to talk to me.? I wouldn't even do a group session as the others were all stroke victims, and heck, I couldn't relate to any of their concerns. ???? I may have very well turned people off at trying to lend an ear or shoulder.? I don't know, and maybe never will.? You have a chance to find out.? I would certainly get together with her right away, if possible, and let her know how terrible you feel.? Call her or write her, whatever is most comfortable for you.? Explain it out, all of your feelings and?that you regret losing her friendship so very much.? I hope that she'll accept your apology and you'll have that friend back.? She is probably missing you as well.
Warm hugs to you, Barbara A -----Original Message----- From: Lawrence King <[email protected]> To: [email protected] Cc: Lawrence King <[email protected]> Sent: Mon, Aug 3, 2009 5:12 pm Subject: [TMIC] friendships new topic We've been talking how this disease has affected our friendships but only how others have treated us because of this disease.? I need to make apologies to a lovely person who extended the hand of friendship (during that early period of the disease) to me and in my pain, anger and confusion I just trashed the whole relationship, taking advantage of her in the process. I know for a fact she is very angry and hurt and if I don't make amends for the damage I did, her opinion of me would be correct. It has been painful for me to look back with unclouded eyes at my behavior ?but if I want to recover and grow in my soul and spirit just as my body has recently experienced I need to do this. Encouragement and similar experiences would be greatly appreciated. Mindy the Artisan =
