Morning All:
Well it is day three of this vibrating feeling. I did not take
Lyrica yesterday morning or this morning but continue to take it at night or I
will never sleep. I wake up during the night feeling like I am going to bounce
right off the bed. The only good thing is that it does not last as long as it
was. I can now add tired all the time to what I am feeling but I am sure that
is just from the lack of a good nights' sleep. I am beginning to feel worse and
worse as each day passes. This is really messing with my head.
Frank the reason I cannot see is a doctor and am not eligible for
any type of disability, or medical care is because I am a Canadian who married
an American in 1999 and only have permanent residency in the USA. I am not in
Canada for 153 days a year so I am unable to have Canadian health care or claim
disability. My husband is a contract worker in the States (only type of
employment available right now) and health care through the company is so
expensive and we do not get much coverage. An example of this is my TM was
acting up and I tripped and banged my toe into the wall, it became so swollen I
could not walk, since we had health coverage at the time Hubby took me in to
Urgent Care, the Doctor took a look, ordered a x ray, and sent me home with a
boot. About 2 weeks later we get the bill, this service cost $260.00 and we
had to pay $190.00. So for paying over $450.00 a month for 6 months we still
had no real difference in heath care. I am sooo lucky to have a family doctor
in Canada who lets me pay for a visit so I can keep my medications up. Also I
am so lucky to live not far from Canada that we can afford to go up there a few
times a year to get my medications. I am really frustrated with the American
system of health care. Being born and raised in Canada and living in the USA
for ten years has really made me realize I had it so lucky in Canada. I get
very mad at the commercials putting the Canadian Health Care system down. Yes
we did have to wait a little longer for some tests but whenever I HAD to have a
test I had it within a week. An example of this was with my Breast Cancer. I
found a lump, got in to see my doctor within 3 days, within a week was at
specialist and had all the tests done within another week and started on Chemo
within a month. I was not charged anything. I did not have to dip into my
savings, retirement fund or be billed ANYTHING. Even most of my medications
were covered. All this for an extra cost through work of $87.00 a month for
extended Health Care. I had a semi private coverage meaning I was only in a
room with one other person while hospitalized as well as so many more benefits
as eye and dental care.
I am terrified right now concerning my husbands' and my heath. My
husband has not seen a doctor in about 8 years because my health has taken up
all of our benefits. We have eaten up most of our retirement fund due to this
economy and trying to survive. We just get ahead of the game and then something
happens (Hubby gets laid off, I get sick, I need meds, dog gets sick or our 11
year old car needs fixing) to set us back into the hole again. I laugh when
they tell people with TM to avoid stress as it just seems to live with me.
Right now my husband is trying to get a job in Canada so that at least he knows
if I get really sick I will be taken care of. I am hoping he gets one there so
that he can re-coup his 401K so that he can have some type of life when he
retires. Maybe he should just divorce me and me move back to Canada and go on
Social Assistance so as not to be this burden on him any longer. I love him
more than life itself but it seems like the only solution for me here. Anyway
maybe all this stress is why I am vibrating, who knows but the only thing I do
know is I am scared of what is going on with me and really wish I was living
back in Canada and covered. I would not even mind a month wait to get into a
doctor just because I know I would not have to live on the street to pay for
the treatments needed.
Kathy who is frustrated, hurting, depressed and scared..
----- Original Message -----
From: Jill Z
To: LadyOwl
Sent: Tuesday, September 15, 2009 6:43 AM
Subject: Re: [TMIC] weird sensations
Kathy,
How are you now?
Jill in Chicago
--- On Mon, 9/14/09, LadyOwl <[email protected]> wrote:
From: LadyOwl <[email protected]>
Subject: [TMIC] weird sensations
To: [email protected]
Date: Monday, September 14, 2009, 8:53 AM
Hi all..
Haven't written in much but as of yesterday I have been very scared
and nervous because of a weird sensation I have been getting.. I was on Face
Book (my usual haunt) between 2 and 3 pm when my body began to vibrate. I was
shaking from head to toe. Not a big shake but a very small one that even my
husband could see from a few feet away. It felt almost like I had too much
caffeine or something. I could hardly get out of my chair. My legs felt very
heavy and I had this vibration going up and down them. Even my hands, arms and
trunk had it. I made it to the couch with hubby right by my side because I was
not able to control my legs as much as I usually am. They felt so heavy and
thick like I was walking through water waist high and someone was giving me
electrical shocks. I was hoping after walking a little bit the feeling would
subside but it didn't. I went on the deck for a smoke ( okay I know I should
not smoke but it is my only vice besides Face Book ) and had to step over the
patio door bottom (can't think of the proper name right now) and had a very
hard time lifting my feet over it and it is only a 1/4 to a 1/2 inch high.
After about another 15 minutes we finally decided I should go lay down in bed.
I stayed there till 7 pm until the vibrating settled down enough that I felt
save enough and strong enough to walk to the living room. I kept getting this
vibrating feeling come back strong for about 30 to 40 minutes then weaken off
slowly the rest of the evening and now it seems to be starting up again today.
Hubby is laid off right now and we have no health so no getting to a doctor for
me. I am wondering if any of you have had this feeling and what you did about
it? I am on 2 lyrica a day and my medication has not changed in well over a
year (except when I had to take more Lyrica earlier this year). I am really
hoping this feeling just resolves itself but am very interested if any of have
had this feeling.
Thanks
Kathleen Moorhead Blaschko (as I am known on Face Book)
