What a beautiful response Regina, couldn't have said it any better :))
hugs
Gilly
----- Original Message -----
From: Regina Rummel
To: [email protected]
Sent: Saturday, May 22, 2010 5:34 AM
Subject: [TMIC] Jeron's crisis
Like Jeron, when I realized (about four years ago) that THIS was it,
that I was never going to go back to my "normal" life style, and that I would
probably even get worse, I wanted to die. I couldn't stand it. I gave away
most of my jewelry to my daughter, piled up give away stuff to the Salvation
Army, finalized my will, made funeral arrangements, etc. That's basically what
I did, hoping I wouldn't last too much longer. The best I could say about it,
is that it kept me busy until an MRI sent me to the hospital again with an AVA.
Of course I hoped I'd die for sure during the operation. I didn't.
To go back to those early days, like Jeron, I wrote to this TM support
group, not knowing too much about how it worked. On the subject line, I wrote
"Venting". And oh boy! did I ever vent!
I will never forget the kindness of all the responses I got. Reading
them sort of mobilized my senses, slapped me with a good dose of common sense,
and got me going, where? I don't know... But here I am. Like so many of us,
I survived. No need to go over the pain, the frustrations, the irritations
with doctors who don't know what to do with you, the expensive medications,
etc. The bottom line is that if we survived we had to reach a certain level of
acceptance. Jeron, from the bottom of my heart, I hope that you will too. You
have the support and the understanding of a fabulous support group who care,
and are always willing to listen, just like I do.
Good luck!
Regina
