Hi Jim,

 

I'm Betty & Elizabeth - it's not that I have arthritis-like pain in my
hands. after TM struck me (at C7), in addition to leaving me with a weak
left leg and "drop foot", no temperature sensation from the chest down and
"banding" of the torso, it also affected the tendons in my arms. 

 

I've had two surgeries on my right arm/wrist (my dominant side, of course)
to re-route lesser tendons to do the job of the damaged main ones. This took
two years and many arm, hand and finger splints as well as much occupational
therapy. 

 

After TM struck (at C7), all four fingers on my right hand "dropped" at the
knuckle. With my palm facing down, I couldn't lift them up on my own. Since
the surgeries, I can now lift them, however, I can't bend the fingers
completely around at the last finger joint - especially the middle finger!
Essentially, I can't make a complete fist with that hand. I can't even wrap
my fingers completely around the steering wheel when I drive. I kind of grip
it between my palm and thumb. 

 

As for my left hand, it has a "claw-like" appearance, with the index finger
constantly pulling down. I can, luckily, make a fist with that hand. The
overall look, however, is that I'm always giving folks the bird - with both
hands!! 

 

Because of this, I can't place my fingers on a keyboard and strike each key
with the correct fingertip. I don't have the motor control for that action.
It likewise makes it somewhat difficult to grip a knife to cut food or even
handle a fork or spoon properly. Fortunately my family and friends forgive
my awkward movements when attempting to feed myself in public. 

 

While I really miss being able to do certain things with my hands, I'm
grateful for the function I do have. Considering the alternative. I figure
I'm doing good as long as I'm on the up-side of the grass!

 

  _____  

From: James Berg [mailto:[email protected]] 
Sent: Wednesday, May 09, 2012 3:26 PM
To: Elizabeth Clark
Cc: TM List
Subject: Re: [TMIC] cancer vs tm

 

Hands or legs?  Not sure if I am writing to Betty or Elizabeth?- anyway your
are able to walk, not perfectly, but she can get around.  Yet she has hand
coordination problems that take away from her the things she loved to do.
My legs don't work at all so I can't go anywhere with out my wheel chair and
then only on smooth concrete or grass.  No golf, or the construction work I
used to do or even driving a car. But I do have my hands and I have learned
to do things with my hands that I might never have attempted to do if I
didn't have TM.  So after reading Elizabeths story I began thinking about
which I would rather have, legs or hands.  I think hands wins.  So I don't
feel so bad.

 

 I hope you can find some drug or assistance that will allow you better use
of your hands.  The Tommy Copper gloves have proven to work really well with
arthritis--check the web sight-Montel Williams who has MS swears by the
products.  The glove material has copper woven through it.  For the hell of
it I ordered a body shirt to see if it would help with my banding, something
that bothers me all the time.

 

Jim

On Wed, May 9, 2012 at 10:41 AM, Elizabeth Clark <[email protected]>
wrote:

Interesting so many of you have sleep problems. I have had almost no trouble
falling asleep or staying asleep since coming home from the hospital and one
month in a rehab facility six years ago. Two months before I was stricken
with TM, my husband and I purchased a Sleep Number bed and I found I was
able to set it so soft it enveloped and supported my hyper-sensitive body
perfectly. 

 

The only problem I encountered in the beginning was only taking three doses
(at eight-hour intervals) of pain and nerve medication a day. My last dose
for the day was typically after dinner, so by the time I woke up in the
morning (nearly 8-10 hours later), I was so crippled with pain I could
barely get out of bed, walk to the bathroom and get downstairs to eat and
take my first dose for the day. After discussing it with my doctor, she
agreed I could instead take four doses at six-hour intervals, which kept a
steadier amount of medication in my system. Unless I over-exert myself on
any given day, for which I am more than ready for my med dose when the time
comes, I now otherwise function pretty well at the six-hour intervals. 

 

It seems many of you try to go as long as possible before taking any kind of
pain medication, whether out of fear of addiction or whatever, but I feel
this is an incurable situation involving chronic, severe pain and I, for
one, cannot see myself going through the rest of my life in severe pain. 

 

Pain can age a body way beyond its years in no time. TM has already robbed
me of many things - I can no longer run or skip, let alone wear cute fancy
shoes or sandals; my hands have been crippled to the point of making it not
a pretty sight to watch me try to cut my food and feed myself; I now must
"hunt-and peck" two-fingered on the keyboard, when my fingers used to fly
upon the keys; my artistic passion has been taken away as I can't hold a
decorating bag and squeeze to create the beautiful cakes I used to decorate
for family, friends and co-workers; and because of all this, some degree of
happiness has been stolen by TM. I see no reason to compound this situation
by trying to function through severe pain. There is always now some level of
pain there - I am always conscious of it. But with the help of the medicines
I take, I can sometimes be distracted enough in what I'm doing - such as
answering my emails, playing games on the computer, or researching my
genealogy - that I "forget" about the pain for a bit. 

 

Sleep helps to restore the body - I hope all of you find whatever works for
you that eases your pain and allows you to attain that sleep. 

 

Betty

(in Northern California)

 

  _____  

From: Linda Cherpeski [mailto:[email protected]] 
Sent: Wednesday, May 09, 2012 6:51 AM
To: rn11974; TM List
Subject: RE: [TMIC] cancer vs tm

 

Hi Cheryl ~ I've been thinking about you and so glad you posted.  Great news
on the cancer!  Speaking for myself here, I have to agree with you.  The
cancer is under control and the TM pain just goes on and on. This may not be
true for all, but from the posts it is certainly true for many of us. My
pain is usually 24/7 and sleep is - well I almost don't remember anymore
what it is. And you're so funny, yes I think your cancer group would think
you're crazy! I hope for you and all of us the pain will let up and we will
once again know what Sleep is!
Linda 
 

  _____  

Date: Sat, 5 May 2012 13:49:21 -0700
From: [email protected]
To: [email protected]
Subject: [TMIC] cancer vs tm

Hi,

  As many of you know I was diagnosed with stage IV breast cancer last year
(spread to bones). No surgery,radiation,or chemo.Just an anti hormonal pill
daily.Just had a PET/cat scan and it is markedly improved. I possibly can
survive for years this way.

 

So,I was thinking. If I could have a choice,what would I choose?

I would keep the cancer.

 

I have such terrible burning in my legs,the banding around my trunk is
awful,and I'm just so sick of this crap. I hate having no real life
anymore;wake up with pain,suffer all day,and go to sleep in pain.

Nothing helps. 

I know that those of you with tm will understand this; I think if I posted
this at the breast cancer sites I belong to,they would think I'm crazy.

Thanks for listening. Hope you are all doing well.

 Cheryl

 

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