Now I dont really ever read these sort of things, but Im glad I read this one...
Well put....
Ive never had any thought of not wanting to exsist....but this would definitly make me rethink death...well put...
Joanna Capello <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote:
Tokka wrote:
>-->> ..but i don't want anything.. but to 'not exsist' ..
That's easy. Take several hits of acid, either the watercolor paper or
liquid. Trip your balls off for a couple of hours. During your peak,
hallucinate that you've died and the paramedics have come and are zipping
you into a body bag. Then the universe and your personal gods will team up
to maliciously tear you apart, piece by piece, down to your very soul, until
you are left floating through darkness, with no sense of self, no sense of
emotion or mind, no idea why this is happening except you are dead. Struggle
to find some part of you that is you. Fail miserably. Get booted back to
reality really disoriented, still with no true emotion or sense of self. Act
robotic for a few hours as you still trip. Finally, curl up in front of the
fireplace with your lover who doesn't understand what's happened to you. Dry
her tears without feeling real emotion. Reach inside yourself and discover
the heart of a child. Become a child. Take her outside and bring her into
your trip so she becomes a child too. Realize that being alive is better
than being All Dead, because being All Dead means ceasing to exist and that
sucks because you just stared into the heart of emptiness and it's the most
terrifying thing you've ever experienced. Decide life is a good thing. Go
back inside, finish tripping, and go to sleep knowing that dying and coming
back to life--even in an hallucination--may have been all for the best.
By the way, this happened. To Adam. And me. So don't you f***ing talk to me
about wanting to die, or wanting not to exist. I know what that's like, pal.
It sucks. You don't want that. You want to die, hang yourself or shoot
yourself. You want to cease to exist, you gotta do a lot more than that. And
it really isn't worth it.
I know you won't listen and figure you'll still want to die, but I'm just
sharing my experience to show you what it's like. And yes, people, I know
LSD is illegal, but I don't care. It was a vision quest. I learned a lot. In
fact, I went back and re-read "Ashes To Ashes". It makes a lot more sense
now. The TMNT makes a lot more sense now. Life and death make a lot more
sense now. To put it bluntly, I'd rather exist in a different state of
reality than not exist at all.
~Siren
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